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Chapter 34 - You're still falling?
Lilly's POV
My gaze flickered from the road to dad beside me. Conner's words ringing in my ears non-stop.
You don't have time.
He's been in love with you since I met him.
You love him too.
My eyes went to the backseat to see Max's airpods plugged into his ears, his eyes on his phone, totally oblivious to us.
"Dad," I started, breaking the silence and needing to say something, needing to talk or I will explode with the heaviness of my thoughts.
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