23"You're here!" I squealed as I jumped into Cody's arms and hugged the life out of him. After a ten minute hug, he laughed as he let go of me. I took a step back to take a look at his appearance.He wasn't anything like I remembered.No longer a brace-face, his hair was longer and styled upwards, his eyes looked brighter, he was no longer and skinny and lanky guy but instead was pretty well built and much, much taller now. I had to admit, Cody was really, really attractive now which was weird seeing considering we always knew him as the nerdy, brace face, little boy.Of course I had facetimed him over the years and saw his posts on social media but actually seeing him in person after all years felt a little overwhelming."You look amazing, Jabz. No longer looking like a shy little girl hiding behind her hair."I laughed as we walked into my house, "I still am a shy little girl hiding behind my hair, when I want to be, Co. You however, don't fit the whole nerd stereotype anymore."Co
24I told the girls what happened with Zac.The four of us were hanging out now, just sitting in my room and talking, catching up on everything."Wow," Jade exhaled. "What are you going to do?"I leaned my head on Cody's shoulder. "What do you mean what am I going to do? I'm not going to do anything."Bea scoffed, "Are you kidding? You're literally going out of your mind not doing anything about Zac.""What do you want me to do?" I sighed. "I have a boyfriend and Zac... he's a player. He's not going to commit to anyone, especially not me. Why would he ever settle for me when he can get any long legged blonde beauty?"Bea rolled her eyes, "You're such an idiot.""You really are," Cody chuckled."What?" I lifted my head and looked between my friends. "How? What did I do now?"Jade gave me a warm smile, "When's the last time you saw him get with some long legged blonde beauty, Jas?" Now that I thought about it, it had been a while since I saw Zac going to hook up with some random girl. "
25I stared at myself in the mirror, worried because I wasn't sure what was going to happen.After taking a minute to collect my thoughts and let my courage build up, I left Evan's bathroom and walked into his room."The hell is this?"He held my phone in front of my face with the picture of Zac and I pulled up. It was the picture Shane took of us when we had fallen asleep together, the night he was very drunk."Why are you going through my phone?" I tried to snatch it back but he was taller and much faster so he pulled his arm back."Well what else am I going to find if I keep looking?" Evan was angry.I clenched my jaw, "Nothing because there is nothing to find. That doesn't mean you can just take my phone and start snooping.""You wouldn't have a problem with it if you weren't hiding something," he retorted. His eyes were cold and tone was dull but harsh. Evan crossed his arms over his chest, waiting for a response."And what exactly do you think you're going to find, Evan? I have
26I rampaged through the glove compartment in my car after I had driven far enough from Evan's house. I furiously was scrambling through the compartment box with tears rushing down my face, until I felt the familiar plastic tube I was looking for.I pulled out the vile that was filled with codeine pills that I had for a while now and had forgotten about until now. I hadn't used since that one day Bea and I got into a fight in the middle of the hallway.The vile practically slipped out of my hands as I tried to twist the lid off and pour some pills in my hands.I shut my eyes for a moment and exhaled slowly, trying to get my heart rate to settle down.All I wanted in this moment was that familiar buzz that got my head spinning and made my whole body feel relaxed. I was craving that high more than I ever had before.I sucked at coping with anything. I was so used to resorting to these pills to cope with anything that put me in a bad or upset mood so I had nothing else to do to help me
27I craned my neck to the side as my eyes remained shut. Instantly, pain shot through my whole skull.I winced as I blinked my eyes a few times to adjust to the bright lighting. It took me a second until I opened my eyes."Oh God," my dad rushed over to me, placing a hand on my head and running his fingers through my hair. His eyes were pooled up with tears. "Thank God. You're awake, kiddo. You're okay. You're going to be fine."It was painful to swallow because my throat was ridiculously dry. I had no idea what was going on. Why am I in a hospital?"Wha-" I could barley speak."Hold on," my dad grabbed a water cup from the table on the side of the hospital bed and put the straw in my mouth. I took a large sip of the water, the cool and wetness hitting my throat and making me feel just a bit better."What is going on?" I choked out, my voice not much above a whisper. I was still squinting because of how bright the white hospital lights were.My dad gave me a sad smile, "You got into
28Zac"She really thinks she can break up with me? I'm the one who should have dumped her.""Whatever man, she's a whore anyways. It's her loss."Did I just hear that right?"Fuck did you say?" I spun around, glaring at Lucas who was standing with Evan and Jack. I didn't hesitant before pushing Lucas against the lockers and clutching the collar of his shirt between my fist. "Say that again, I dare you."Lucas smirked, "You're little girlfriend Jazzy Snazzy is a slut."A grin grew on my lips. "Thank you for giving me a reason to do this." I raised my fist and punched the bitch in the face at least three times before I was yanked off him and pulled back. I turned around to see John looking at me with wide eyes."Dude! Are you trying to get suspended again!?"I shook his off me, fuming. "I don't care."Lucas spit out some blood on the floor before he flipped me off and walked away."What?" I snapped at Jack who was staring at me. "You want to go too?"Jack simply shook his head and glan
29A knock on my room door interrupted my reading. I was reading 'Bloom', the book Zac had given me. He was right when he said I would like it. It was heartwarming and made me smile as I thought about my mom.Speak of the devil.Zac walked in, staring down at his shoes as he walked over to me.My eyebrows pulled together as I instantly noticed his knuckles that were cut up and bruised.I blinked, sitting up straighter. "Zac... what happened? What's wrong?"He didn't look at me as he sat down in front of me. "Why didn't you tell me?" His voice was soft, in a whisper and sounding hurt.I blinked."Tell you what?" I had no idea what he was talking about.He sighed, finally looking at me. His eyes were swimming in sadness and hurt. "About what Evan did."My heart stopped for a second. My mouth went agape because this was not anything I was expecting to hear. How the hell did Zac find out Evan hit me?I didn't have to think twice to know that Zac's knuckles were cut up because he screwed E
30ZacA month later, Jasmine was out of her casts and back at school.The whole past month, everyone was usually hanging out at her house since it was hard for her to go out in the casts. Despite her condition and all the healing she needed to do, she still would tutor me. I kept telling her it wasn't necessary since she does have a concussion but she wouldn't take no for an answer, saying I would get kicked off the team if I started doing badly again.We had been hanging out a lot despite the fact that she was basically on house arrest.I'd go over and bring her food even though she would always tell me I didn't have to do that. Really, I just wanted to see her.We'd usually spend all night watching movies or laughing at stupid twitter videos or just talking about anything really.God, I could no longer picture my life without her in it.She had been back at school and here I was already wishing she was still at home - secured from the world.Don't get me wrong, it's not that I'm tr
As soon as I walked into Tyler's house, I wanted to turn and walk right out. The house was packed, the air smelling like sweat and booze and the music making my eardrums vibrate. "Why did I agree to come?" I walked over to Bea and Jade, shaking my head already. "I'm surprised you came," Jade admitted. She glanced around, trying to spot more familiar faces. Bea cocked her head to the side, eyeing me with confusion. "Did you Uber?" I nodded, scanning the room to try to spot Evan. "Long story—I'll fill you in later." Bea pulled both mine and jade's arms as she dragged us into the kitchen. "Let's get out drink on, bitches." I scrunched my nose as the strong smell of liquor flooded my senses. I shook my head when Bea held a drink out for me to take. "You know I don't drink." Bea sighed. "You're not DD tonight." I shook my head again. "No—thanks." Luckily for me, my knight in shining armour cut in. "You look lovely—as always." Evan wrapped his arms around me from behind, leaning do
was sitting outside on the bleachers by myself at lunch—when Zac came over to me. He didn't say anything. He walked up the bleachers and sat down beside me, silently. After a moment, he spoke quietly. "It's cold outside, you shouldn't sit here. You're going to get sick." He took off his coat and placed it over my shoulders.I looked at him flatly. "I don't care if I get sick, Zac.""I do." He just looked at me. Both his gaze and voice were gentle. I ran a hand down my face sighed. "I'm—I'm sorry I lost it this morning."Zac shook his head frantically, his eyebrows pulling together. "You have nothing to be sorry about, Bloom. I'm the one who—well, I apologize for Shane being a dumbass.""He didn't know." I shrugged. "Not his fault. It's not anyones—I just don't like my birthday."Zac turned to look out at the empty field. "I hate Christmas." I looked at him. "It just reminds me of how fucked up my family is—reminds me how much my family isn't even really a family." He chuckled dryly.
Saturday—I was sitting in my empty house, watching the news in the living room because I was too lazy to find the remote. The doorbell rang. I thought it was a package delivery because my dad loved wasting his money on old vinyl records or first edition books. When I opened the front door, my head tilted quizzically. "Miller? What are you doing at my house?"Zac grinned at me, amusement washing over his features. "Nice to see you too, Bloom." He allowed himself into my house, walking right past me. I gaped at him. "What—what are you doing here?" "Nice home," he glanced around. "Very—homey."I narrowed my eyes, baffled.What the hell was he doing here? "Zac." I grabbed his arm, pulling him to stop wandering around like an elf and look at me. "What are you doing here?" "Here I thought you'd be happy to see me. You're already breaking my heart, Bloom." He placed a hand on top of his heart, pouting out his bottom lip like a child.I rolled my eyes and swatted his arm. "Seriously, w
You're here!" I squealed as I jumped into Cody's arms and hugged the life out of him. After a ten minute hug, he laughed as he let go of me. I took a step back to take a look at his appearance.He wasn't anything like I remembered.No longer a brace-face, his hair was longer and styled upwards, his eyes looked brighter, he was no longer and skinny and lanky guy but instead was pretty well built and much, much taller now. I had to admit, Cody was really, really attractive now which was weird seeing considering we always knew him as the nerdy, brace face, little boy.Of course I had facetimed him over the years and saw his posts on social media but actually seeing him in person after all years felt a little overwhelming."You look amazing, Jabz. No longer looking like a shy little girl hiding behind her hair."I laughed as we walked into my house, "I still am a shy little girl hiding behind my hair, when I want to be, Co. You however, don't fit the whole nerd stereotype anymore."Cody q
I had texted Bloom during last period to tell her to meet me at my house so she could tutor me.As much as I hated chemistry, studying with Bloom actually made sense. The way she explained things made it easy to understand. She was incredibly patient with me. She wouldn't get frustrated when I got distracted or started messing around. She remained composed when I was having a hard time understanding something.I just—I liked having her tutor me.It was weird. I would have never pictured myself friends with Bloom.Are we even friends?I think we are—or maybe she's just tolerating me because she has to tutor me.I don't know but I don't mind her—which is surprising because a lot of people annoy me.Bloom—she's just pure and wholesome and—I don't know. She just makes me want to keep her safe—or some ridiculous sappy shit like that.What does piss me off though—is that jackass Evan she's dating.How the hell does someone as kind and pure as Jasmine date a piece of shit like Evan.God, I j
I was wrapped up in multiple blankets, laying in my bed and watching sad romance movies on Netflix when my room door was swung open and in came Shane, Bea, Jade, and John.I groaned, grabbing a pillow and putting it over my face, screaming into it.Bea walked over and grabbed the pillow, taking it away from me. She whacked me on the head with the pillow before dropping and crossing her arms over her chest."You all can kindly leave me to sulk." I muttered, still staring at the tv screen and avoiding all their gazes.Shane grabbed the remote before I had a chance to and turned the tv off.It had been another two weeks and still not a word from Zac. What was I even waiting for at this point?"Get out," I muttered dully, staring at the ceiling."No," Bea stated firmly. "How about you get out of bed."I ignored her."Come on, Jas," Jade sighed. "You have to do something other than... this. This is all you've been doing. We miss you.""And I miss him," I grumbled, still not looking at any
As soon as I walked into Tyler's house, I wanted to turn and walk right out. The house was packed, the air smelling like sweat and booze and the music making my eardrums vibrate. "Why did I agree to come?" I walked over to Bea and Jade, shaking my head already. "I'm surprised you came," Jade admitted. She glanced around, trying to spot more familiar faces. Bea cocked her head to the side, eyeing me with confusion. "Did you Uber?" I nodded, scanning the room to try to spot Evan. "Long story—I'll fill you in later." Bea pulled both mine and jade's arms as she dragged us into the kitchen. "Let's get out drink on, bitches." I scrunched my nose as the strong smell of liquor flooded my senses. I shook my head when Bea held a drink out for me to take. "You know I don't drink." Bea sighed. "You're not DD tonight." I shook my head again. "No—thanks." Luckily for me, my knight in shining armour cut in. "You look lovely—as always." Evan wrapped his arms around me from behind, leaning do
As soon as I walked into Tyler's house, I wanted to turn and walk right out. The house was packed, the air smelling like sweat and booze and the music making my eardrums vibrate. "Why did I agree to come?" I walked over to Bea and Jade, shaking my head already. "I'm surprised you came," Jade admitted. She glanced around, trying to spot more familiar faces. Bea cocked her head to the side, eyeing me with confusion. "Did you Uber?" I nodded, scanning the room to try to spot Evan. "Long story—I'll fill you in later." Bea pulled both mine and jade's arms as she dragged us into the kitchen. "Let's get out drink on, bitches." I scrunched my nose as the strong smell of liquor flooded my senses. I shook my head when Bea held a drink out for me to take. "You know I don't drink." Bea sighed. "You're not DD tonight." I shook my head again. "No—thanks." Luckily for me, my knight in shining armour cut in. "You look lovely—as always." Evan wrapped his arms around me from behind, leaning do
I got to school late because I slept in.I was pulling my books out of my locker, the hallway was empty because class had already started so I wad the only one here. Or so I thought."Hey, Jazzy," Lucas walked over and leaned against the locker beside mine. He crossed his arms over his chest and gave me his usual arrogant little smirk. He just got here and his eyes were already dancing with amusement.I mentally groaned. I shut my eyes and exhaled through my noes, trying to keep my calm. This was really not how I wanted to start my day.I turned to look at him, plastering on the most forced and fake smile I could manage. "Lucas, always a pleasure to see you."He quirked an eyebrow, growing more amused because he could already easily see he was getting under my skin. He didn't even have to try, his presence simply irritated me because he was a jackass. The biggest of them all, too."I guess your little lover-boy didn't get the message."I narrowed my eyes, suddenly growing more interes