then everything went black

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I rampaged through the glove compartment in my car after I had driven far enough from Evan's house. I furiously was scrambling through the compartment box with tears rushing down my face, until I felt the familiar plastic tube I was looking for.

I pulled out the vile that was filled with codeine pills that I had for a while now and had forgotten about until now. I hadn't used since that one day Bea and I got into a fight in the middle of the hallway.

The vile practically slipped out of my hands as I tried to twist the lid off and pour some pills in my hands.

I shut my eyes for a moment and exhaled slowly, trying to get my heart rate to settle down.

All I wanted in this moment was that familiar buzz that got my head spinning and made my whole body feel relaxed. I was craving that high more than I ever had before.

I sucked at coping with anything. I was so used to resorting to these pills to cope with anything that put me in a bad or upset mood so I had nothing else to do to help me