Chapter 256 - Part 57 Alex&Adam

What exactly did I say yes to right now I wasn't sure. Did I want to be with Adam? Yes. I wanted that for a long time. Do I believe him when he says he cares about me? Yes. But does he love me? He seems to be having a hard time understanding his feelings and I dont have the luxury of having him test it out on me. It's so hard wanting to give in when there is so much at stake. Adam seemed happy as he looked at me with a smile as his face was between the metal bars. I did say yes, but not to being with him.

"Hold your horses, Adam. I'm saying yes to give us a chance to calmly talk about it when we get out. Dont jump ahead of yourself." I keep thinking about the advice Mrs.Hendrics gave me, to make him suffer. I have to admit even now that I'm standing in a holding cell in a police station I kind of wanna keep on doing it. Maybe not with another man to avoid casualties but there has to be another way of torturing him. In the name of love.

"Being willing to talk about it has to mean somet