Kabanata 144

Kabado akong pumasok sa planta matapos akong paunlakan ng dalawang guard. I still have this awkward feeling whenever I encounter guard because of my past. I have met so many of them in Britain and no one had treated me bad there. Ito lamang isang partikular na karanasan ko sa CMC ang nagpapaalala sa akin ng masasamang alaala. I was treated bad in my own country and that's what I couldn't accept not until the guards in plantation welcomed me so warm - hindi dahil sa kinakasama ako ni Russel kundi dahil ganoon talaga sila kabait. In fact, they have asked my name and some information so they could let me enter. I don't know if they're still the same guards here after all those years. I can barely remember that.

Nagpakawala ako ng malalim na paghinga. Kung maghurumentado ang puso ko'y parang ito ang unang beses na makikilala ko si Russel. The same old familiar and notable puppy feeling still consumes me whenever I feel excited and anxious at the same time. We'll, I'm excited to