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FALLEN: HIS ALONE A SHOULDER TO RELY ON
ELIASI stared at the ceiling of the damn hospital, and feel angry with myself, cause even though I hated it, I still hopped my little legs to this damn place today, but when I thought to through, I guess I did that, because I didn't wanted to die, cause...cause I had a purpose to live now, regardless of all my fucking demonsLucas was my purpose, and the only one that I wanted to live for.As I thought about all this things, and kept on looking at the ceiling lifelessly, the door clicking sound brought me out of my thoughts, and made me immediately wipe the tears that had gather in my eyes away, cause I didn't wanted Lucas to see me cry, and become suspicious that something was wrong with me, but when I saw the nylon that contained some shitty pills that he carried in his hands, I knew the drama was over, he already knew my trauma, but....but I still wanted to play dumb in case he might still believe me over the doctorsI know I know it sounded so stupid, but I gave it a try, and imme
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LUCASWe stared at each other for some time in silence, and I guess this was truly what people called another definition of love: To stay in silence with your lover, and not feel awkward in the slightest about it, cause we both enjoyed the peace we felt by just looking at each other.The peace that I wished could go on forever and ever, cause I swear I was truly satisfied with it, but in the end, I was the same one who broke the silence, cause I wasn't the type that kept his complete feelings and thoughts hidden, so I just had to let him know what I had decided"Elias"I called out his name, and he looked at me immediately, and stopped playing with his thumbs like a cute little baby he was, but I didn't let his cutest get into my head, cause I didn't wanted to make any mistake, hell no...I wanted to be as serious as I could ever be"I have decided that I want to help you..."I blurted out to him, but damnit!, it didn't come out right like I had wanted it to be, and it obviously made El
Last Updated : 2023-06-13FALLEN: HIS ALONE CHARLIE
SOPHIELike in every drama series, and novels, there is always a side character that would fulfill the author's wish, and sometimes help unite the main characters together...In this novel, I was that pathetic useless side character, and I knew it. I knew I was the girl who doesn't, and would never ever get the guy that she choses to like, cause I am no main character, or special person, but nevertheless, I would still give a brief introduction about myselfAm Sophie, and am literally dying a silent killing death, cause...it might be outrageous and completely odd and the most stupidest thing any side character could ever do, but am just going to confess either way...I have liked Lucas for so long...No, I am literally crazy for him, and Yes, it was that same Lucas that I was his drinking buddy, that same Lucas I had advice on how to win that cold guy Elias over, and heck yeah, it was that same red hair, green eyes Lucas that I had a big fat crush onYes, I do know it's so wrong and stup
Last Updated : 2023-06-13FALLEN: HIS ALONE HEHEHE
"We all have different kind of poison, the one that's mild, the one that makes you dizzy, but this one?...this one was the most toxic of them all...SOPHIE...Dark shade eyeglass- CheckBig hat- CheckUmbrella- CheckSelf esteem?....Self esteem- Not Check, cause it was ruined, completely, brutally, awfully ruined, cause ever since that damn day, which was two days ago. I have become some kind of spy that was literally masked up and hiding away, cause I might bump into him anywhere, and...and God, so far am literally going mad, cause I remembered that diary also contained how my high school life was a crampYes and like a pathetic side character, I didn't had some fairytale back in high school, hell no!, all I had was fucking shit, suffering, and oh, I even got bullied too, and it was like the main thing that reduced my self esteem to nothingGod, it was that worst that I literally had to change the way I look, and become a change version of me, but the heart always remembers the bad
Last Updated : 2023-06-13FALLEN: HIS ALONE LOVE ...LESS
ELIASI stared at the window of our room, I was alone, so I had a little time to think about everything that has being happening, bu...but at the same time, I didn't want to think, cause anytime I think about how Lucas was doing just so much for me just so that I could become normal again, I tarnish all his efforts by becoming more depressed, like my depression would literally increase to 40....50%?Yes, I do know that it was so shitty, and I should just probably talk it out with him, that I didn't want to be a burden to him anymore....well I kinda did actually one time. I did sat him down, and told him I could heal on my own just fine without him having to do so much for me. God, I really just wanted him to be the same old Lucas that I knew. and fell in love with, cause this super caring one felt as if I was.... pitied or something, but when I told him, he didn't take it seriously, and volunteered himself even more, and I...I was suppose to be happy that someone cared about me, and do
Last Updated : 2023-06-13FALLEN: HIS ALONE MR.MANIAC
SOPHIEI was alone, I was alone in the class, but I felt a bit sad, and it was because when I looked left and right, everyone seemed like a couple to me, and I see them doing lovey dovey couple stuff, Nah...screw them all!, but I really felt sad because of him, the one guy that I couldn't get out of my mind no matter how I tried (You know the one)....Him...Lucas!, and I also felt sad, cause the last time we talked, which was yesterday, he looked like a mess, well not that he wasn't still hot or anything, but he looked...really stressed out like what he had told me. He looked disturbed, and when I think about it more, it kinda made my sadness turn into frustration, cause even though he didn't really tell me the exact reason, I knew it was because of that dickhead, Elias!My prince charming was working his ass off for a person like him, and the more I thought about it, the more angrier I became, cause he, my poor prince charming, whether he liked it or not was slowly dying for someone e
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SOPHIEFive days flew by, and I became a maniac, hysterical, ridiculous, but a maniac that couldn't forget about that damn guy Charlie, as if he had casted a spell on me.I was literally the complete maniac who couldn't concentrate, cause ugh, as much as I hated myself for it, a part of me kind of felt guilty for taking all the blame, even though he deserved itI know I should just like tell myself that forget about it, and really do listen to myself, but in reality?, in reality it doesn't really works that way, cause I was no Wednesday Addams like in the tv series, I had emotions, and there was no way to cut my heart out of me, but the most worst thing of them all, was that a part of me that was the most confusing part felt happy when he texted me again...Yes, he decided to play dumb, and let that incident slide, and still keep on texting me, and at first?, at first when he started to text me again, I was like what the heck was he trying to achieve by all this, I don't even use to re
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SOPHIE"Oh my God, what's wrong Trisha?"I panicked, I panicked immediately as my heart raced, and I couldn't help it, cause who on earth would stay calm, when she opens the door and sees her good of nothing roommate lying on the floor, and looking lifelessLet me think, Mmm …No one!"Trisha, are you...are you.."The rest of my words faded away, as I finally got to where she laid on the floor, and touched her body, it was cold, and it made my heart sink again, even though I have never really liked my shitty roommate, Trisha for once.Why? oh my God, I would tell you why...Trisha was the meanest cruelest roommate in the entire world. No, I wasn't exaggerating here, cause it was the truth. She literally just blabbers about her boyfriend all the time, and makes me feel like trash intentionally as well.It's not like I did stay quiet and endured it all like some kind of fucking Cinderella, hell no!, I literally wanted to move out on the first day I got here, but the other rooms were full
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FALLEN: HIS ALONE EPILOGUE: FALLEN
SOPHIE"Sooo, we are a thing now, right?"I looked at the face of my nerd lover, and asked him, even though we had literally spent a whole year together, and it was kinda dumb to still ask that, but still...still..I wanted to hear those words from him, and in the end, he fulfilled my desire in the most cheesiest way possible"We are not a thing, but a couple obviously!"He told me, and it made my heart flutter, cause I wanted to hear those words for so long, but I didn't tell him that, instead I rolled my eyes at him, and parted my lips."Quit being Mr. smart pants already"I said, but I had this really big smile on my face when I did, cause I loved him for being such a big nerd, and immediately he heard me speak, he kissed me...it was passionate, and I loved it how he always makes me feel so special with it...Sorry, I loved how he always makes US feel so specialI touched my stomach, and looked back at his face"Do you think they would accept our baby?"I looked at his eyes, and aske
FALLEN: HIS ALONE DEAR TO ME
Tell me every terrible things you ever did, and let me love you either way...LUCASI had a few more lectures that day, after little miss lover girl Sophie ran away from me, and seriously, I was so lonely all by myself, but I literally really won the award of being the world most lonely man ever, when I returned back to the room.The room that haunted me....the room that was filled with his memories everywhere, and the room....the fucking room that reminded me of every single thing about him, even though I was literally trying to forget about him...God"Elias..."I mumbled out his name for the first time in three days, and felt like my heart shattered again...well it did, and it was probably because I had broke my promise to never utter his name again, so that I could heal, but how on fucking earth was I suppose to live this way, when the entire room was originally his, and I always fucking imagine him next to me when I sleep, so after much thinking, I frustratedly packed up my bags,
FALLEN: HIS ALONE ALCOHOL AND ANGELS
SOPHIEI ran away from him, even though I knew his words were right, but I was still scared, and I really still wanted to completely figure it out, and there was no rush in figuring things out, were they?..I thought to myself, and tried to calm down, but in the messed up end, the more I tried to calm down, the more I deceived myself, and got more stressed so I resulted to drinking, and to getting myself drunk, so that I would just forget everything for a while, cause alcohol was the best remedy, but this pathetic side character ended up getting another bomb drop that same night....I was drunk, so drunk that I couldn't even walk properly, and knew that I might just literally die in the freezing night if I didn't return back to that hellhole room of mine (Yes, such shitty life I had)I thought to myself as I staggered back, even though my vision was blurry, and I couldn't see properly, or even think at all. To be honest, and after walking maybe in circles or something, all I knew was
FALLEN: HIS ALONE LOVE GURU
LUCASI told him I loved him, but he didn't say it back, and left me either way, sad huh?...I sighed out, and played with my pen as I told Sophie about every shit that happened two days ago. Yes, two days had flew by, and am literally barely alive, and No, I wasn't mad that I didn't ended the friendship with Sophie, because of what had happened that day...Nah, I would be too dramatic if I ended our friendship because of what she said to meTo be honest, I kinda even understood why, and I guess it was because she was literally at her limits then, it was obvious something was wrong with her, but all I did was blabber out all my worries to her, without even caring if she was fine or not, and to be really plain honest, I kinda feel bad about it...about always focused on myself, cause it's really shitty"I don't blame either of you, rather I blame damn life, it's shitty, and so dramatic, that you can't even be able to control any fucking thing that happens, ugh!"I heard her voice, it bro
FALLEN: HIS ALONE CHOICE
"Don't want to hide the truth, don't want to murder you, but with the beast inside, there's no where I can hide..."....ELIAS"Happy!"I yelled out to my inner demons immediately I closed the door, and left him, left him alone broken, and ruined.God, I was such a heartless being, and am so sorry Lucas, for every single pain I made you pass through, but...but this was for the best, wasn't it?...I closed my eyes, I was about to cry, but I stopped myself when I saw the fucking housemaster, he was looking at me, giving me a look that I had no clue of, but hated it, hated it so fucking much, that it made me instantly mad"I know you are fucking happy with all of this as well"I spat out, and glared at him, and I swear I could have just left like that...I wanted to cause it would be foolish enough to associate myself with the trash, after what just happened in the room, but before I could, he grabbed me by the wrist...How he, the old damn man miraculously manage to come out of his offic
FALLEN: HIS ALONE CHOICE
"Don't want to hide the truth, don't want to murder you, but with the beast inside, there's no where I can hide..."....ELIAS"Happy!"I yelled out to my inner demons immediately I closed the door, and left him, left him alone broken, and ruined.God, I was such a heartless being, and am so sorry Lucas, for every single pain I made you pass through, but...but this was for the best, wasn't it?...I closed my eyes, I was about to cry, but I stopped myself when I saw the fucking housemaster, he was looking at me, giving me a look that I had no clue of, but hated it, hated it so fucking much, that it made me instantly mad"I know you are fucking happy with all of this as well"I spat out, and glared at him, and I swear I could have just left like that...I wanted to cause it would be foolish enough to associate myself with the trash, after what just happened in the room, but before I could, he grabbed me by the wrist...How he, the old damn man miraculously manage to come out of his offic
FALLEN: HIS ALONE CHOICE
"Don't want to hide the truth, don't want to murder you, but with the beast inside, there's no where I can hide..."....ELIAS"Happy!"I yelled out to my inner demons immediately I closed the door, and left him, left him alone broken, and ruined.God, I was such a heartless being, and am so sorry Lucas, for every single pain I made you pass through, but...but this was for the best, wasn't it?...I closed my eyes, I was about to cry, but I stopped myself when I saw the fucking housemaster, he was looking at me, giving me a look that I had no clue of, but hated it, hated it so fucking much, that it made me instantly mad"I know you are fucking happy with all of this as well"I spat out, and glared at him, and I swear I could have just left like that...I wanted to cause it would be foolish enough to associate myself with the trash, after what just happened in the room, but before I could, he grabbed me by the wrist...How he, the old damn man miraculously manage to come out of his offic
FALLEN: HIS ALONE THE END...MAYBE
WARNING: HEARTBREAKING"I am yours, so please don't give me back to myself"....LUCASEvening set in, and the night was approaching, the sky was already dark too, but my heart was the most darkest of them allIt was empty....void of every emotion, it was so broken, and I knew it would never be fixed again, cause I searched literally everywhere, even the entrance of the university that was like so many kilometers away for him, only him, but he was still nowhere, and I really didn't know what to do anymore, I really didn't now that my owner had abandoned his puppyIt was no lie that I was scared, I needed help, and I would never forgive my father for this, cause did he really think that my grades would ever come up after causing all this shit...Mmm let me think, Never!, but even if it ends up miraculously coming up, he had already lost his son in the processDamnit!, why did you do this to me, huh?...And why did you leave me Elias...I cried out again, and I was the real definition of
FALLEN: HIS ALONE RED HEART
"The heart is red, but have you ever wondered the reason why it is?. It isn't red because it symbolizes love, and romance...No, hell no....but it's red, because it symbolizes blood, and pain, and darknessShitty isn't it?, well who told you to believe in fairytales, hmm?...… SOPHIE"I also have my own problems, Lucas"I whispered out to him, and looked away from his face. I knew it was heartless, cruel, and probably the most unthinkable think I could say and do, cause he was literally crying, and I...I said those words to his face...Ugh, I knew I was cruel, I needed no one to tell me that, but...but I swear I only said that, cause I was angry, and fed up, when I saw him barge into the class, I wanted him to notice my pale face, and ask me what was wrong...I wanted to tell him about my crisis, and about how I was losing my mind here, cause last night I literally had my first kiss with someone that stole my diary, but...but instead he tells me his problem, and it made me angry, and s
