Part 116

116

"And then?"

"It's better if you go in. Size 38, no lace or underwire."

Nicholas raised an eyebrow.

"Just say it like that; let them figure it out."

"Alright then. I'll buy it."

"Yes," Alesya replied briefly. She wanted to see if Nicholas would really buy something so embarrassing if a man requested it.

If Nicholas were normal, Alesya was sure he wouldn't be able to do it. But for the sake of his conviction, Nicholas set aside all his embarrassment and entered the store. He made the request as Alesya wanted, his face turning red as the store employees whispered and smiled at his request.

Nicholas's embarrassment hadn't disappeared when he returned to the car. Once he got in, Alesya had already taken off her jacket and was ready to remove the belted top as well.

As usual, Nicholas was pinned down there, putting on a normal expression so that no one would know what Nicholas really looked like.

“Just right.” Alesya commented as soon as the triangular object hugged her two favorite motorbikes. At the same time, Nicholas breathed a sigh of relief. That means, all he has to do is put his beloved little brother to sleep.

“Oh, yes, Al. Before I left, I noticed your cell phone was constantly vibrating. I think someone contacted you and that's important.”

Nicholas was very grateful that he could restrain himself from asking before leaving. So Alesya's cellphone, which previously made Nicholas curious, could be used as material to divert attention.

"It's not that important, Nik." Alesya tidied up her appearance. “But it's still important because he is an important person too. And at most he called me to ask about my father's debt, without finding a solution."

"You mean?"

“He's the son of Dad's lawyer. Asked me to be a seductive woman so that Bryan would fall for me."

“Same thing, huh?”

Alesya nodded. "It's really hard to get pregnant." Staring at his cell phone. “Am I just selling myself, Nik? Children can get money."

Nicholas stopped the car suddenly. "What did you say?!" His eyes widened.

"I just want to sell myself... Besides, my life is no longer useful." Alesya looked straight ahead. "Even though Bryan will take my child, I don't care, after all I already have money as a replacement. My parents' graves are safe because the debt is paid off."

"You …."

"Don't forbid me, okay, I beg you." Cup his hands in front of his chest.

"I'm not forbidden. Up to you. You can manage your own life, it's not up to me to manage this and that. If necessary, now!" Nicholas opened the door next to Alesya.

“Come down! And sell your body!”

"Good." Alesya smiled wryly. Nodded, with teary eyes. Her heart was cut, hurt, because Nicholas had thrown her out. Because Nicholas doesn't know what he wants.

Alesya came down. Close the car door roughly. Letting Nicholas go, leaving him alone, on the edge of a road that was so busy with vehicles passing by, with nothing to hold on to at all.

If only there were no passing vehicles, Alesya could be sure she would cry. Shouting out of hurt because Nicholas left her. It felt so painful compared to Devin who was going to marry another woman.

Alesya tried hard to stay calm. Still looking like a normal girl like the others, compared to a dazed girl hit by endless problems.

Alesya continued to walk, somewhere, she didn't understand either. Never mind looking for a goal, Alesya feels reluctant to even live.

It's just that suicide is painful and doesn't necessarily mean death, therefore Alesya makes it the last option. If there is no other path in sight, perhaps that is the path that will be chosen.

The grip tightened when Alesya turned off airplane mode on her cellphone.

"What?"

“You are very difficult to contact even though your number and social media accounts are active. Why?"

"None of your business." Alesya tried hard to hold back her tears.

"It's none of my business, Al. But if I may give you some advice..."

“Playing stupid in front of Bryan? I don't want to!"

"If that's not the case, how can you..."

"I don't want to. I beg you, don't force me if you are my friend. Don't pretend that you are my lawyer's son, you might charge me for being a fool who doesn't understand anything.

“But, Al. Seducing your own husband is not a difficult matter."

“But he is married. What should I do?"

"Do you know it?"

"Of course."

“Then you can turn to Bryan's younger brother. Like I said, he's a…”

“He likes people of the same sex. And it's true, I've proven it myself. I have done as you wished, and I can confirm that he is not normal.”

"I don't believe it!" The man on the other end of the call let out a long sigh. Really couldn't believe the impact of his betrayal could damage Nicholas to that extent.

"That means you can't help me, Al?"

“No, Gibran. I've said it from the start that I decided to marry Bryan. And for Nicholas. As long as you know, Nicholas wasn't chosen because he couldn't do it. It won't be able to make me pregnant!"

"So now what are you going to do?" The man named Gibran asked a question, which Alesya had often asked.

“Sell yourself or commit suicide.” Alesya ended the call. Turned his cell phone off again so that no one else could contact him. Alesya wants to be alone. Enjoying a life that will never last until that happy destiny comes.

From where she was sitting, Alesya looked at the vehicles passing by. There are many vehicles passing by. If Alesya had crossed without looking, it is certain that one of the vehicles would have hit her.

Alesya grimaced. It would definitely hurt if he hit a moving vehicle, but if he died straight away it wouldn't be a problem. What if you break a bone and can't walk? No one will take care of it either. Then his life will only become more miserable.

The fear of committing suicide grew even greater when Alesya remembered that the driver's family was waiting for her at home. Alesya couldn't imagine that a driver who was looking for a bite of rice for his family was actually languishing in prison. Where does his heart lie? In order to solve one's own problems, he will send the backbone of a family to prison.

Alesya shook her head. Remove accidents from the list of ways to solve the problem. Now he glanced at the skyscraper. Estimate how tall the building is. Again, Alesya refused, because she was afraid of heights.

"What if it really falls!" he grinned. In fact, he was horrified to imagine himself falling free from the building.

Alesya shook her head again. Skyscrapers are not a suitable choice.

Until another option appears, and disappears again after knowing where it will end.

"It's true that I just sold myself." Alesya exclaimed firmly. I'll just do that instead of having to worry about going around. Instead of living around in vain, treated like a doll.

“Where do I sell…”

Ah, just found a way out, Alesya is already dizzy again. Jobs like that won't be found easily.

Alesya sighed. Get up from where you sit. Continuing his steps, even though he doesn't have a definite goal.