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XXX. If Only
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2024-10-29 19:42:56“You should forgive yourself first…to begin with.”
Trisha said with a loving caress not just on his face but his heart. Marsden didn’t meant to share with her the anguish of a lost child and of a regretful man. He doesn’t wan’t her to be sad.
But he felt light and relaxed with her as if she can heal him from the pain and hatred that keep on pulling him back. Without planning it, he was talking and telling her everything. From what happened before her mother died and what he’d became after.
How he had not talked to his grandparents for almost a year. How he always had bruises on his face when he went home from school. How he hated music instruments. His grandparents knew how much he loved it. In High School, when his grandparents were called upon by the principal after the big fight that happened inside the school gym against Max and his friends, they’ve decided to have an appointment with a psychologist fo
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Be Officially Mine XXXI. For The First Time
Trisha was in pain when she heard everything. The things he’d been through. She remembered her parents’ death. She also didn’t had the chance to say goodbye. Even though she loved her parents so much, she was used to not seeing them regularly. They were always busy with their priorities which were obviously not their children and not even each other. She was devastated but she had his brother to share the pain with. And their deaths were quick, an accident and Trisha knew it didn’t made them suffer. It’s not a disease that will slowly eat them up and gave them pain of knowing that every passing day might be their last. Trisha understand that Marsden had a lot of if onlys–but she also understood why his mother distanced herself from him. It’s always for her son’s sake. So that he could learn and get used to live without her already because she knew her time was ticking. Trisha’s heart was aching for h
Be Officially Mine XXXII. He's Not Mine...Yet!
Marsden can’t sleep. His mind was very awake. Everytime he closed his eyes the memory of Trisha’s smooth lips and soft skin keep him awake especially the gentle sounds she made out of pleasure as he submitted to his desires. But Amber’s words compelled him to stop. ‘I’m not yet ready to handle you.’ The moment he remembered those words Marsden knew he needed to stop. Those words changed him in a way that women like Trisha don’t deserve someone like him…with his past still coping up with him. His conscience poked at him particularly when he saw her confused look the moment he suddenly stopped. He also saw the hurt when their eyes met before they avert their gazes almost at the same time. She looked so beautiful seating there, trying to compose herself. Her hair was a little bit disheveled when he gently gripped it to kissed her deeper, her red lips that looked thoroughly kissed and when he subtly stared at her ne
Be Officially Mine XXXIII. A Friend's Request
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Be Officially Mine XXXIV. Something's Changed
“C’mon man, let’s have a drink later,” saad ng lead Engineer at batchmate niyang si Liam. “Okay I’ll see you at 9:00. Mr. Muran was delayed in delivering the supplies I’ll think I need a drink. He’s making my head aches,” saad niya habang nakasandal sa backrest ng kanyang armchair at minamasahi ang sentido. “He is a good businessman, surely they will cope up soon.” “They better, they were breaching the contract and it’s affecting us.” “Kalma muna pare, see you maya at Raizone.” Nang makaalis ang kaibigan napabuntong-hininga na lamang si Marsden. Alas siyete na nang sulyapan niya ang kanyang relo. He took his phone and put his feet over the table and relaxingly lounge over his chair. “Hey!” “Hey! Kumain ka na ba?” saad ni Trisha sa kabilang linya. “Not yet…I’m still in the office.” “Take good care of yourself. Padalhan na lang kita d’yan ng picture ng niluto ko para
Be Officially Mine XXXV. A Cruel Love
Hinatid niya si Rheanne sa room nito dahil halos hindi na ito makalakad sa kalasingan. He even had a hard time convincing her to leave. Nang mabuksan ang pinto ay agad niya itong pinahiga sa kama. She was still laughing and even singing. May sinasabi ito pero hindi niya maintindihan. Pagkatapos alisin ang sandals nito ay kinuha niya ang kumot and covered her with it. Aalis na sana siya nang hablutin nito ang kamay niya. “Don’t leave,” anitong pilit tumatayo. Her eyes were pleading. “I should leave Rhey, just sleep okay?” Dahan-dahan niyang tinanggal ang pagkakahawak nito to help her lay down. “I love you. I love you Mars,” anitong puno ng emosyon sabay yakap sa kanyang leeg. Sandali siyang natigilan sa sinabi nito. She what?! Bago pa man siya makareact ay hinalikan siya nito sa mga labi. “Rhey!” sabay iwas dito. “What are you doing?” He detached himself
Be Officially Mine XXXVI. Like A Wedding Dress
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Be Officially Mine XXXVII. A Night Of Pain
To look at her makes him unease. Marsden felt like he was drowning and can’t seem to find something to hold on to. He felt the frustration of wanting someone he doesn’t have the right to want. She’s so beautiful and the longing intensified especially when she smiled at him openly. He wanted to kiss her right there where she stood wearing a white dress which fitted her so perfectly. Just like a bride waiting for her groom. But then reality hit him, she will be another man’s bride, not his. True, he had business matters that needed his attention but he can still work on it through his secretary. He just wanted to see her today, he can’t even understand it. Maybe because Trisha keeps on telling him what she felt about this photoshoot. He knew she was anxious that she won’t give justice to the dresses and no matter what he said, the feeling won’t disappear. He wanted to support her so on impulse he had flewn from Cebu even
Be Officially Mine XXXVIII. A Cousin's Vengeance
Marsden knew Trisha was hurting. He can see it in her eyes kaya naman hindi niya magawang tumingin sa mga mata nito. Ayaw niya ng ganito, lying to her and pretending to like someone else but things are getting out of control and he won’t let his feelings for her makes him vulnerable again. Pero kanina hinayaan niyang pagmasdan ang masayang pagsasayaw nito kasama ang mga kaibigan. He wanted to dance with her, hold her close to him, to possessively grip her hips and sensually join with the bit. She laughed with abandon caused by too much cocktail which he noticed Trisha drank vigorously and the flush in her cheeks made her even more attractive. “Oo nga pala pare, hindi ka pa namin napapasalamatan sa lahat ng tulong mo kay Trisha, “ saad sa kanya ni Brix. “Kaibigan ko rin siya so it’s okay,” sabay ngiti sa mga ito. Napatingin siya ulit sa kaibigan. “She’s a strong one, “ aniyang may paghanga sa boses. “One of a k
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Be Officially Mine LII. A Savior From Hell
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Be Officially Mine LI. Violently Jealous
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Be Officially Mine L. My New Neighbor
Days passed and Trisha and Marsden renewed their friendship. Eating together at breakfast and sometimes at dinner. But one thing that change is that he never sleepover anymore. Even when the rain never stop pouring, he always had reasons to go. Sometimes it makes Trisha laugh to think he was afraid that she would lose into temptation and ravish him at night. But then, reality also makes her sad that even though their friendship was returned, he was still careful and maybe just trying to spare her feelings…he might not have directly told her to stop but she felt how much he avoided her failed flirtations. It was not easy really, because Trisha don’t know how to flirt. With her previous relationships, she wasn’t actually into flirting, was not motivated or doesn’t have the chance or maybe theirs were different with how she felt with Marsden. However, she is quiet enjoying it. Everytime he looked at her in a way that to
