Chapter Thirty-four
Chloe
“Tell me what?” I ask, arms around Sam’s waist. The air is cool and he’s nice and warm up against me. I’m a little tipsy, and I’m having a fabulous time tonight.
“That I love you,” he rushes out.
I laugh. “You told me already.”
“I wanted to tell you again.” He pulls me to him, but not before I see the what the fuck look on Archer’s face. “Dinner was nice.”
“Yeah. It was. That red wine was really good.” I take Sam’s hand, ignoring the scratchy feeling in my throat. I do not have time for a cold right now.
“I’ll find out what it was and will pick up a bottle for you.” Sam puts his arms around me and kisses my forehead. We’re stopped at a street corner, and I rest my head against Sam’s chest, looking out at the city.
“Did you come here while writing the series?” Quinn asks, stopping next to Archer. “Kellie and Marcus come to Chicago a lot.”
“They do, and I’ve been here for book signings a few times and got to sightsee a bit.”
“Ohh, I remember you were here a few years ago! I had a work meeting that same weekend and was bummed I couldn’t get out of it to go see you and have my books signed.”
“I can sign them now,” I offer, and Quinn gets excited. I like her way more than I thought I would. Being friends with Sam’s friends is important to me, but I didn’t expect to get along so well with one of them right off the bat. Quinn and I have a lot in common but are different enough that it’s interesting to talk with her.
“I miss this,” Quinn says when we cross the street. “Being in the city, I mean. I always liked walking home from work on nights like this.
“You used to live here?” I ask.
She nods. “For several years. I worked at a software company right in the business district. I loved it.”
“What made you move?”
She looks up at Archer. “He got a job at the hospital in my hometown. I moved away for the job opportunity, but I always wanted to raise my family in Eastwood.”
Her words hit home, and I take it as yet another sign I’m meant to come back to the Midwest. Sam has a good job here in Chicago, but Chicago is a hell of a lot closer to Silver Ridge than LA is. I could easily drive home to see Dad, and Sam and I could escape to the lake on long weekends, soaking up the peace and quiet the solitude of Silver Ridge has to offer.
“And that’s where Rory lives?”
“Yep! Ohh, I might see you there,” Quinn exclaims. “Sam comes to visit every once in a while. He’s our twins’ godfather too.”
“Awww, that’s sweet!”
“That’s only because they have so many kids Quinn ran out of family,” Sam pokes.
“It’s not far from the truth,” Archer says under his breath, and Quinn elbows him.
“We picked Sam because we like him,” Quinn says.
I laugh. “That’s something we have in common.”
She smiles. “So hopefully I’ll see you again soon then.”
“I hope so too.”
We slow, moving to the side of the sidewalk to not be right in the way of the foot traffic. Quinn and Archer need to go the opposite way as us to get back to their car. Quinn and I exchange numbers, we say our goodbyes, and then Sam wraps his arm around me as we walk toward his apartment to try and catch a cab to go back home.
“I’m sorry if you wanted to stay out,” he tells me, fingers pressing into my waist.
“Don’t be. I really am tired.” I push a wave of hair out of my face. “Is it too soon to feel hung over?”
He laughs, tipping his head down to mine. “I’d say so.” He kisses my forehead. “You feel hot.”
“I know I’m hot.” I wiggle my eyebrows.
“You look fucking fantastic in that dress but—” He presses the back of his hand to my forehead. “You feel warm. Do you feel okay?”
“Kind of,” I sigh. “I have a headache and my throat is a little raspy. But I’m fine.”
“You’ve been on an airplane more than once lately. It’s not surprising if you caught something.”
“Yeah, they are pretty germy. I end up getting sick from all the travel a few times a year.”
He wraps his arms back around me, trying to shelter me from the very gentle breeze. “Good thing I’m a doctor.”
*
“You have a fever.” Sam presses his hand against my forehead.
“I’m just warm from being snuggled with you all night,” I protest.
“I’ve been out of bed for half an hour now,” he counters. It’s early in the morning and Sam is getting ready for work. I woke up feeling like total shit and my throat is on fire. He gets a thermometer to prove it to me. “One hundred and two point three. Do you usually run hot?”
I shake my head. “I’m usually colder than normal. I joke I’m part vampire.”
He puts the thermometer down on the nightstand and tucks me back into bed. “Rest today. I’ll have soup delivered later and will have the attendant bring it to the door. Do you still like vegetable soup?”
“I do.” I smile and then cough, chest hurting. “Ugh. I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be.” He plants a kiss on the top of my head and leaves the room, coming back with medication and a glass of water. “I’ll text you whenever I can,” he says, sitting on the bed next to me. I’m exhausted and am fighting to keep my eyes open. “I’m serious about resting, Chloe. You need it.”
“You say that like you know me or something,” I joke but my laugh turns into a cough.
“I do.” He kisses me again. “And if you’re feeling better later, we need to…to…”
I sniffle, wincing from my sore throat. “Need to what?”
Sam looks from me to the ground and then back again. “Have as much sex as we can before we part ways.” Kissing me once more, he makes sure I’m all set for the day and then leaves for work.
Chapter Thirty-fiveSamChloe: You’re never going to believe thisMy heart actually skips a beat, thinking she found out about the baby. I have to tell her when I get home. There’s no getting around it this time.Me: What am I never going to believe?Chloe: I told my dad we’re coming back to Silver Ridge and he and Wendy are out of town again. He really wants to have dinner with us and lecture you about taking care of his daughter.Me: I’d expect nothing less from him.Chloe: He’ll go easy on you, don’t worry ;-) I already told him we’re both able to travel back and forth to see each other so we can make things work.And now I’m back to feeling like a fuck-up. Because I can’t travel, and it’s more than just that. I’ll be co-parenting with someone I don’t love, and when Chloe does come to see me, there’s a good chance Stacey will be around—for the first few months at least.No matter how much I love Chloe, how much I want her and only her, I know this is going to change the course of o
Chapter Thirty-sixChloeI wrap the blanket tighter around myself and pick up my phone. Sam should be home soon. I’d planned to put on lingerie but I’m so cold I’m shaking and my entire body aches. So instead, I’m camped out on the couch in PJs and one of Sam’s sweatshirts, scrolling through social media.Charles updates his Instagram stories as I’m scrolling, and the ten-second video of him sitting at some sort of pub with a friend has me scrambling to get him on the phone.“Hey,” he answers on the third ring. “You okay? You never call.”“Why does everyone say that?” I grumble, though I know it’s true. “I’m fine, and you know why I’m calling.”“Uh,” he starts, and the sounds of the pub filter through the phone. “You’re pregnant?”“Hah, no, or not that I’m aware of. I saw your story and—I’m not on speaker, am I?”“No.”“Good because I know who you’re out with, and oh my god, are you keeping secrets from me?”Charles laughs. “Hardly, and it was unexpected.” He’s being vague on purpose
Chapter Thirty-sevenSamWell, fuck. I don’t want to kill Chloe’s streak of inspiration and make her not be able to finish her book. Especially if this kid turns out not to be mine. Maybe I should wait until I get the results of the paternity test back before I drop a bomb on Chloe. No need to burden her prematurely, right?Shit.I’m putting it off again. I can’t tell her tonight, not when she’s sick. Shoving my keys in my pocket, I look back at Chloe, asleep on the couch. As a doctor in a trauma center, I see the worst of the worst. Chloe is going to be okay, yet my chest feels tight thinking of her alone in my apartment while I’m at work tomorrow. I want to take care of her. I want to bring her soup and make sure her fever isn’t going up.I want to comfort her and love her, like I always have.I haven’t allowed myself to think about the baby being mine in detail, but I need to. Because there’s a chance my life will turn upside down in just a few short months, and Stacey and I will n
Chapter Thirty-eightSam“This is nice,” Chloe says sleepily. We’re both naked in bed together, with the two windows right next to us open just a few inches. We arrived at her dad’s lake house not long ago, and promptly went upstairs, tangling together as fast as we could. Chloe woke up feeling much better this morning, though she should still take it easy for the next day or two to make sure she stays feeling better. “It sounds just like the sleep sounds app I use when I can’t sleep, but better because it’s real,” she mumbles. The sounds of the night filter into the room, lulling us both into a dreamlike phase.“It’s crazy how loud the crickets are.”“Sometimes, when they’re quiet, you can hear the lake. It’s still most of the time,” she says, words spacing apart.“Yeah,” I say with a yawn, running my fingers up and down Chloe’s back. Her head is nestled against my chest, and I have one arm around her, holding her against me as I rub her back with my free hand.“I wish we could stay
Chapter Thirty-nineChloe“Hi, Lauren,” I say, offering a polite smile, not that I owe her one.“Wow, I’m so surprised to see you,” Lauren goes on. She’s looking at Sam, working hard to ignore the fact that I was just wrapped in his arms. “What are you doing back here?”“Chloe and I came to visit my family,” Sam says and rests his hand on the curve of my waist. He didn’t seem to have the slightest idea who Lauren was when we ran into her several weeks ago, back when I was trying my best to prove to myself and the world that Sam Harris was nothing more than an asshole…a walking heartbreak…nothing more than a bad idea.“Oh, uh, how sweet.” Lauren’s eyes dart to me for half a second. “I’m surprised to see you back here…with her.”“Chloe’s my girlfriend,” Sam says. “I don’t know why that’s surprising.”Lauren opens her mouth only to snap it shut. “Well, good for you two.” She forces a fake smile and looks at Sam, doing her best to avoid me. “Tell your brother—the vet—I said hi then. That
Chapter FortySamMy phone vibrates on the coffee table next to me, waking me up. We didn’t get that far into putting the puzzle together before Jacob got called out for another emergency. I have to give him credit being on-call all the time like that. He’s been in the process of hiring a new vet to join his practice but is incredibly picky and hasn’t found a good fit—not that I blame him.Mason, Chloe, and I went back into the living room to finish watching the documentary and we all fell asleep. We’re a lively bunch, I know. Chloe is still asleep on the couch next to me, and the soft patter of rain can easily lull me back to sleep. My phone vibrates again, and I sit up to grab it.It’s Stacey, and the peace I was feeling leaves me, making my stomach clench and my throat tighten. The room swirls around me as the truth sinks in yet again. I’m home in Silver Ridge, at my parents’ house with my brothers and Chloe.And I’m lying to their fucking faces.Letting out a breath, I unlock my p
Chapter Forty-oneSam“I could get used to this.” Chloe smiles and takes the cup of coffee from me.“So could I.” I sit next to her, pulling the blanket over our laps. We’re on the screened-in porch, and the air has taken on a chill. We’ve had a lazy morning and are taking our time with coffee before going to my parents' for something more substantial to eat.“Be careful, you’re going to spoil me, and I’ll expect you to bring me coffee every morning we wake up together.” She takes a drink and sets her mug down. “I’m already dreading not being with you.”My chest tightens at the thought of being away from her. It’ll be temporary, we both know, but the distance will be painful.“Good thing we can travel, right?”“Right.” I take a drink of coffee to buy myself time before having to speak again. We do have time, just not much. Well, assuming Stacey is actually carrying my baby. I thought about it long and hard last night and just don’t see how I can justify leaving my kid. No matter what,
Chapter Forty-twoChloe “I have good and bad news.” I set my phone on the patio table and sit back down, pulling the blanket tighter around my shoulders. “Yeah?” Sam settles back into his chair, looking a little uneasy. He keeps flicking his gaze to Mason, who’s giving him a weird, unreadable look back. They’re having some sort of unspoken conversation, something only the two of them can understand. I used to wish I had a sibling solely based on how close all the Harris kids were. They fought like cats and dogs at times, but at the end of the day, they were a family and loved each other. I’ve always considered myself lucky to be part of it, even though I wanted to be part of it in a different way—the way I am now. “My agent was able to negotiate a much better contract with the network. She thinks I’ll like this one a lot more.” “And the bad news?” Mason asks. “The head honchos at the network want to meet with me Tuesday morning, so I’ll have to get
EpilogueChloe“Relax,” I tell Sam, trying not to laugh.“I thought they said riding a horse was like riding a bike. Once you learn how to do it, it just comes back to you.”Now I do laugh. I circle Spartan around, clicking my tongue at Drake, an eighteen-year-old horse we recently adopted so Sam can go trail riding with me. Drake is the perfect “husband horse” and has much more whoa than go, and right now is doing everything he can to pull the reins from Sam’s hands so he can graze.“Pull him up,” I tell Sam. “And ask him forward. He’s testing you.”“Come on, buddy,” Sam urges and asks the horse to walk forward. Spartan, who’s ready to race along the dirty trail, speed-walks up ahead, acting as good motivation for Drake to follow us. It’s a rare sixty-five-degree day in early March, and we’re taking advantage of the nice weather while we can.I leave for a month-long tour in Europe in just a few days, and instead of just doing book signings, Charles and are attending panels to talk a
Chapter Forty-nineSamFour months later…I stomp snow off my shoes and enter my apartment building, chilled right down to the bone just from the short walk from my car to the building. It’s been a long day, and work and the snow and cold makes me even more eager to get inside my warm apartment.“Good evening, Dr. Harris,” one of the attendants says.“Good evening. Staying warm?” I pull my gloves off and stuff them in my pocket.“I’m trying,” he replies with a chuckle, pushing the door closed behind me, wanting to seal off the cold air as fast as possible. I quickly grab my mail and then head up, squeezing in the elevator with a few other people.I’m the last to get off and hurry down the hall to my apartment, unlocking the door with haste.“Hey, babe,” I say and step inside, shutting the door behind me. “What are you doing in the dark?”Chloe turns away from the living room window, mug of steaming coffee in her hand. She’s illuminated by the light coming in behind her, so beautiful i
Chapter Forty-eightChloeTurning away from the coffee pot that I was plugging in, I look to see who’s at the door. I don’t remember having any deliveries scheduled for today, but I have a bad habit of buying stuff off of Instagram ads and then forgetting about it. Only delivery drivers and a select few friends know the code to my gate, though that doesn’t mean someone couldn’t have hopped the fence.“Can I help you?” Charles asks right as it hits me that someone could have seen Charles come over and is trying to get a candid photo of him. Which now makes me feel bad for asking him to answer the door, but dammit, I need coffee. I fell asleep early—before I could drink more wine—but I can tell a headache is coming on fast.Eric got up nearly an hour ago and has been out jogging since. Charles and I dragged out butts out of our rooms not all that long ago, both grumbling about being too old to drink like we used to.Unable to see who’s at the door, I sidestep, and Sam’s clear blue eyes
Chapter Forty-sevenSamLooking around the airport, I take a drink of my coffee, waiting for the caffeine rush to kick in. I need it. It’s going to be a long night. There were no direct overnight flights to LA from Chicago tonight, so I’m landing in Texas, changing planes, and will get to LA early in the morning. It’s the fastest way I can get to Chloe, and I cannot fucking wait to pull her into my arms and tell her the good news.I feel a little bad that I didn’t call Chloe when I was leaving the hospital, but I knew I wouldn’t be able to keep this from her, and I know how much she’ll enjoy the surprise. I was able to get the next two days off and then work an overnight shift on the third. As long as I’m able to sleep on the plane, I’ll be fine.I take another drink of coffee and lean back in the uncomfortable chair, fighting off the urge to fall asleep. I’ll close my eyes as soon as I’m on the plane, but I don’t want to take the risk of missing my flight if I fall asleep now.My pho
Chapter Forty-sixChloeI turn on my electric fireplace and grab two wine glasses, joining Charles on the couch. We’re back at my place, and I feel a little better after talking over lunch.“Red or white?” Charles asks, motioning to the wine bottles on the coffee table.“You pick. As long as it gets me tipsy to numb the pain, I’m good.” I grab a blanket and spread it over both our laps. The plan is to drink wine, order junk food later, and just hang out. Charles leaves soon to go overseas to work on a movie, and who knows where I’ll be.“The red then.” He gives me a look and opens the bottle of Merlot, pouring us both a generous amount. “I thought you were feeling better?”“I was.” I take a sip of wine and lean back. “I’m trying to shake the feeling that things aren’t meant to be and I’m struggling.”“Just because something isn’t perfect doesn’t mean it’s not meant to be,” he counters.“I know.” I nod and take another drink of wine, this time setting my glass down so I’m not tempted t
Chapter Forty-fiveSamI grab my phone from my locker and check for missed calls or texts. Chloe called me while I was in surgery, and I immediately call her back. The service in the locker room is shitty, and the call drops before her phone even rings. Quickly changing, I stuff my phone in my pocket, grab my keys and wallet, and head out to get something to eat.I’m on-call and need to stay nearby, but don’t have to stay on the hospital campus. I could go home, though I’ve gotten stuck in traffic, made it into the lobby of my apartment building and then got called back. Sitting through hours of surgery with nothing but granola bars in my stomach isn’t fun, so I pull out my phone to order food as I walk to the car.It rings only seconds after I step into the parking garage. It’s Stacey.“Hello?” I answer.“Hey,” she replies. “Are you busy?”“Not at the moment. I’m on-call and was going to get something to eat.”“Oh, good. I was just saying how hungry I was and I’m near your hospital.
Chapter Forty-fourChloeI drop my bags in the kitchen and walk through my large, empty house, going upstairs to my bedroom. I’m always a little freaked out to come home to an empty house after I’ve been away from a while. I have a top-of-the-line security system, so logically, I know no one could be in the house without setting off the alarm. I can go through the activity log from the last few days too and make sure no doors or windows have been opened, giving myself peace of mind.Though right now, I could use the distraction. I had a lot of time to think on the plane, and I came to the conclusion that while this sucks, I’m being dramatic. Single parents date with no issues. But starting a long-distance relationship while taking care of a newborn is a lot, and I can’t expect Sam, who already works long hours at a highly stressful job, to be able to fly to California for a quick weekend to romp around the set of a TV show with me.And there’s no way he can come visit me in Europe.I
Chapter Forty-threeSam“What?” Chloe asks, and the smile on her face fades away.“My ex says she’s pregnant.” I swallow the vomit rising in my throat. Time slows, and I watch Chloe, heart racing as I wait for her to reply.She pulls her hands from mine. “That is…that is definitely not what I thought you were going to—what?” She shakes her head.“Stacey…my, uh, ex, told me she’s pregnant and I’m the father.” Chloe, clearly stunned, steps back a few paces, dangerously close to the shallow shoreline. She brings a hand to her face and rubs her temples. Seconds tick by, and they feel like years. Say something, Chloe. Please. Anything.Finally, she opens her mouth only to close it again. “Your ex-girlfriend?”“Yeah,” I say, and a weight comes off my shoulders, though judging by the look on Chloe’s face, a heavy weight just landed on hers. “I know it’s a shock. It was for me too.”Chloe closes her eyes, rubbing her forehead. “What?” she repeats. “I…I thought…I thought you were…you’re
Chapter Forty-twoChloe “I have good and bad news.” I set my phone on the patio table and sit back down, pulling the blanket tighter around my shoulders. “Yeah?” Sam settles back into his chair, looking a little uneasy. He keeps flicking his gaze to Mason, who’s giving him a weird, unreadable look back. They’re having some sort of unspoken conversation, something only the two of them can understand. I used to wish I had a sibling solely based on how close all the Harris kids were. They fought like cats and dogs at times, but at the end of the day, they were a family and loved each other. I’ve always considered myself lucky to be part of it, even though I wanted to be part of it in a different way—the way I am now. “My agent was able to negotiate a much better contract with the network. She thinks I’ll like this one a lot more.” “And the bad news?” Mason asks. “The head honchos at the network want to meet with me Tuesday morning, so I’ll have to get