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Chapter 50
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2024-10-29 19:42:56" Roman?" I blink twice, trying to make sense of why he would be here in my room, this early. More over watching me sleep.
"Hey."
" Morning." I mumble, sitting upright.
We look at each other for a while without saying a word. " How long have you been in here?" I ask, tucking my hair behind my ears.
" Not long. "
" What's the matter?" I search his eyes and I sense him bothered somehow.
A minute passes before he speaks up. "Your birthday is coming up soon."
I look away from him. " Is that why you're in here, watching me like a creep."
He doesn't answer.
" I don't celebrate it anymore." I say, turning to face him again. "Those days are gone now. It's just a day and nothing more."
" Because of me?"
" No." I say, getting out of bed.
" It's because of what happened isn'
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He mentioned Roman and I was already agreeing.He took me to the coffee shop close by, which was a walk away and the only place I felt comfortable talking at. Thankfully he had an umbrella ready, so we didn't get wet. The coffee shop smelt like coffee, obviously, but the earthy colour theme with the dark floor, brown and creame white walls and a hint of orange here and there. The place screamed cozy and comfy, just what I liked.He chose the booth at the back with a window seat, sitting opposite me. A waitress came by and we both seemed to order our own different hot beverages and nothing more. I took a good look at him and one thing came to mind. He looks just like Roman." You wanted to talk about Roman." I speak up, not wanting to drown in the silence." Yes, Roman hates me." I blink at him, surprised by what he just said. " You don't have to say anything to that, we both know that it's true.
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It truly hurt me to see my dad the way he was last night. The image is still stuck in my head. His words caused an ache to my heart. It hurts that my dad feels so hurt, the blame that he placed on his himself was not right.I don't want him to constantly blame himself, for what happened to me. It's not his fault. I want him to understand this. I have to set things right, I know I have to. Things cant go on like this, it's exhausting to go through this rollercoaster ride once again.It's like my family and I can't catch a break. We need a break from all this. It's my first morning being home, having woken up in my own bed and breathing homey air. It feels weird not waking up next to Roman or him, not being the first one I see. We are so used to being around each other, now only being a phone call away just feels different. Everything feels different but not too bad, though I miss him terribly but being
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I could never catch a break.I thought I was done with hospitals already, now to find myself in here again, it tells a different story. I have woken up and Roman is the first person I see. His head is rested on my bed, his hand holding mine. I shift slightly and try pull my hand away but his grip tightens, refusing to let me go.I close my eyes and will myself not to cry. I am so exhausted emotionally and I feel like I can't deal with what happened to me and what, I had learnt not so long ago.I almost died again.I faced death but the difference is that I remember now. I thought I was done with the lies, I guess not. I knew that there would be people who did not like me, but for someone to hate me enough to kill me, that's a whole different level. I have had enough honestly and a part of me, wants me to quit on life but I know I can't. Roman, my dad, my family and friends wont allow me to.
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You stole everything from me.What does that even mean?" How can I steal something from you, when I don't even know you?......You're Roman's friend, no, you aren't anymore. " I shake my head." When Roman finds out about this, he will never forgive you. Never." I say, turning my back to them.I can't believe she would do this to me, to Roman. She is Kyle's partner in crime and she's been pretending to be a good person." Don't you dare turn your back on me Hazel!" She shouts." I can do what ever I f*ckin' want!..... You can't tell me what to do and who do you think you are to order me around huh?!" I say, glaring at her over my shoulder." Oh you'll be eating those words very soon you lil' b***!"" I'm sure I wont. Not when I'll be out of here in no time. Roman is coming for me." I say in confidence of my words.I turn b
