JILLIAN
“Angelo.” I uttered his name once again as my eyes started to feel heavy. They closed and I’m going to be taken far into some deep dream once more. But it feels weird. It’s like I’m already asleep and is waking.
“Jillian.”
I know that voice that’s repeatedly calling me. Why is he here?
“Jillian! Wake up!” He is hurting my ears with his loud and angry voice. A sudden kick woke me up making me cough and curl to my knees. My stomach felt his huge feet with heavy shoes harassingly kicking me.
“I see you are still alive,” he spoke with his normal voice.
I forced to open my eyes only to see how blurry my vision was. Water is covering my eyes and I have no choice but to let them flow once more crying in silent.
“Stand up and do your chores!” My stepmom is here too walking from the door. They left me there still weak and unable to move right. I studied the whole room using my eyes.
‘Is this reality? This can’t be real. I meet a man last night and he said he is Angelo.’
The body is aching a lot making me feel more alive and in reality. I’m so much convinced now that Angelo is just a dream after standing up. This is the reality that I know. This house is my prison which I wanted to escape from. Still unmoved, I look at the open window and the outside to the forest.
‘Is there really a mansion down there?’
Before my dad or stepmom do anything else to me, I hurriedly went downstairs to start all my chores. I’m all tired but I have no choice but follow every order they have for me. I’m treated like a slave than a daughter. I wish I never wake up and just stay with that Angelo.
I look at the knife and dark thoughts came inside me.
‘What if I kill myself?’
Before I could do anything else, the wind caressed my skin as if it’s telling me not do it. I look at the outside by the window. The foods are ready and the next thing that I should do is to call my parents for breakfast but the window is tempting.
A part of me is hesitating but my heart is screaming that I should go, run and escape. I climb on the window and feel the ground with my bare feet. Running, I felt free once more just like how I felt inside my dream last night. The wind is brushing all my hair away from my face taking them all at the back of my head.
“Jillian!” My heart almost stopped beating when I hear my stepmom’s voice angrily calling me. A gun shot was fired. It’s dad, as if he is shooting on some stray animal running to the forest.
“You can never escape!” I hear his voice too.
I reached the forest running a bit faster. Multiple gunshots are still fired at me but I don’t care. If I die this way, then I die. My feet are not giving up. I’m panting and sweating hard the more distance I travel by running. I’m losing all my energy but I can’t stop or they will catch me.
I was running but I see no mansion. Crying in disappointment, I suddenly stepped on something sharp and fell down on my knees. I was screaming with no sound, crawling on the ground.
“Stand up Jillian, run this way.” A familiar whisper hushed from the side making me move my head. I look at the direction from the right and stand up running once again. A mansion, a mansion is visible from afar and it’s calling me.
My father and stepmom’s voices are no longer audible at this point as I ran across a river. A huge mansion is finally in front of me. I touched its walls, the vines climbing them and myself. My dream was true. I’m awake and I’m seeing the mansion I once visited inside that dream. I rushed inside walking to the hallways opening the huge door but everything is different.
I see nothing but an abandoned, old and cracked walls with dirt and vines adorned to it. The place is silent and there’s no man living in there.
“Angelo is not real,” I whispered all disappointed.
I am alone watching the birds flying freely from the window sitting at the side hugging both of my knees. The more the sun changes its position in that sky, the sadder and heavier I feel. My empty stomach is aching but I can’t find anything to eat. I decided to walk outside still anxious about my parents finding out that I am here.
I ripped anything that’s edible outside. Some fruits that will take away my starvation and thirst. It’s the very first time in my life that I haven’t done a lot and it’s amazing. I watched the sunset and the sky looking like an art of spray paint crafted by a creative hand. It was peaceful until the darkness took over. I was standing outside when the mansion suddenly had light on.
The lights passed through the windows making me wonder what’s going on. It’s when I noticed, the mansion looks livelier during the night as if someone is living inside. I started walking inside and a soft melody greeted my ears. Everything looks exactly just like the dream I had last night.
I pinched myself a bit checking if I am awake and I did feel some pain from it. The door is wide open exposing the insides. The chandelier is dazzling and glimmering with the lights as if it’s dancing. The furniture looked expensive and antique. The sweet scent soothes my wounded body and soul. My eyes closed by itself, feeling the place more.
“I’ve been waiting for you,” a familiar voice spoke. That deep and calm voice must be his. I opened my eyes immediately to look if I was right. He is indeed standing there wearing the same outfit as how I remember him.
“You know I would come here?” I asked like it’s not our first encounter.
“You dreamed about this place and me. You’ve been here through a dream and now you’re seeing it with your human eyes,” he said walking towards me just to tap my head. His touches felt different and is more enchanting than the one from the dream.
“So you are Angelo.”
“Yes. Welcome to my world, Jillian.”
JILLIANMy eyes slowly opened as the sun’s warmth touches my skin. I wasn’t dreaming anymore, I’m still inside the mansion. What’s unusual is that I’m indeed in a bed but everything is empty again. I ran outside and see nothing too, including downstairs. There is no sign of that Angelo again.After fixing myself a bit, I decided to go back to my dad’s house to at least steal some of my clothes. Their loud voices arguing over something is what I’m hearing from the outside. I can’t hear what it is but they are both furious. My heart started beating like a drum when I realized I’m like a few steps away from the house. I can completely hear them now.“So you really don’t wanna find your stupid daughter?” That voice belongs to my stepmom.“I said you go find her!”“I’m not your maid or anything! And the hell I care about her ha?”“Then we will have no more slave here. Cook then
JILLIANHis hand is tightly holding my hand taking me away from the house. I don’t know how he took all those chains away but I don’t care. All I want is to get free. I was with him during the night and still woke up in front of the house’s door. It’s disappointing but he whispered something last night.“Sleep. Sleep and you will wake up the next day. You won’t get tired anymore. You won’t feel the pain anymore,” he whispered caressing my hair last night.“So you are awake already,” my stepmom said. She pulled my chains in. “Can you move faster?” She kicked me but I can’t feel anything anymore. It’s like I’ve gone numb.I worked the whole day but I didn’t feel tired. It’s like everything is done fast and easy. My body feels light and renewed.The days passed very slowly and my world become a cycle of me holding his hand every night and working at my prison every morning. My parents didn’
JILLIANMy parents came back. After a year, they took my chains off me. I don’t know what they did to me but I just woke up one day on a hospital with stitches on my left wrist. They even sent me to school again just like before. I don’t know what’s gotten into them.I’m in the room, staring at the scar on my wrist. My other hand started touching it, I feel like there is something inside it. Some small cylindrical stuff. It’s what my fingers can feel. The school uniform is still hanging on my body while I’m squatting on the bed. The wind outside caught my attention so I walk to the window to open it exposing the balcony through my eyes.The wind is quite strong this afternoon. I’m all alone again since my parents rarely come here. The foliage of the trees on the forest are swaying and is waving at me. I know it’s crazy but I think I saw a small kid standing there and is watching me.I ran downstairs and search
JILLIANThe sun rays have invaded my room through the window. It’s a bit open and the curtains are being flown by the air that’s able to come inside. Today is my birthday but I don’t feel happy or excited about it. All I see is this woman staring at me with her weird smile plastered on her face.“It’s time,” she said.“What if he forgets about the promise?” I asked her.“No. He won’t. He wanted to help you out of hell.”“Hell?”“This life you have with your family.”I stood up to prepare myself though nobody in this house cares about it. I’m all alone again and if they come home, I’ll only get new bruises. They also fight for small things. It’s annoying. Angelo is coming back. That only means I can see that mansion once again. I think I miss him.A smile curved from my lips as I watch the forest from the window pane. The wind is making the tre
JILLIANMy body is shaking a bit while my hand is forming a fist as he walks towards me holding the woman by the waist. So, it is how he holds a woman he likes. The woman smiled at me and I’m forced to reciprocate that smile though I’m so broken. I’m jealous.“Jillian, she is Carina, my woman,” Angelo spoke. My world felt like it stopped spinning. I can’t believe what he just said. I forced to maintain my composed self and act as normal as possible.“Nice to meet you,” Carina said extending her hand for a handshake. I shook with it as immediate as possible.“Nice to meet you too.”Everyone in the mansion are plastering a happy smile on their faces. Nobody knows what I’m feeling right now. They won’t understand though; they aren’t human beings.“I told you, he will come back,” the woman that’s tailing me all this time spoke again. “By the way, call me Hailey,” she added.
JILLIAN“A demon has risen, my grandma once told me. He only rises every time after sleeping for years.” My classmate’s voice woke me up from sleeping on my desk. My head is still plunged on my crossed arms above the table listening to their loud voice.“There’s no such thing as demons. That’s just a story for kids,” my other classmate said.“So you are saying I am a kid?”“No, silly.”“What if it’s true? She said he is leaving in a forest, in a mansion.” I lift my head after hearing what she just said and turn my body to face them.“What’s the demon’s name?” I asked making them raise their eyebrows at me. They are just a chair apart so they can hear me clearly.“Angelo,” she answered though she ignored me after that. They started talking about something else while I am still watching them.I have no friends at school because I’m scared about
JILLIANMy day went normal and when Angelo showed up again, he is back to his normal self as if nothing happened. Seeing him only reminds me of the things that I don’t know.“Do you want to do something today?” he asked.“Chores?”“No. I mean other than that.” I furrowed my eyebrows since I can’t seem to think about anything. “Come one, don’t you know how to have fun?”“Fun?” I think I never know what that even feels like. I’m clueless.“I’ll help you with chores, we are going somewhere,” he said. After he really did help me with everything, he took me somewhere. He took me on a river that I didn’t even know exist near our place.I don’t want my feelings for him to deepen that much so I didn’t allow him to hold my hand anymore. We have a basket of food good for us. Hailey also came with us like I’m having a chaperone. The two ran to the water like kids w
JILLIANIt’s morning again and I’m busy like always. He came visible again wearing his attractive face. I tried ignoring him but he started helping me. He grabbed on the vacuum that I’m holding to do it himself. I have no choice but do something else.“Are you okay?” he asked while I’m dusting the cabinet of my parent’s room.“Yeah.” My short reply made him all silent as we finish everything. I don’t if he finds it weird but I hope not. It’s not good if he suddenly asks what going on with me. I might burst my feelings out and he will ghost me.I went to the kitchen fast to take a chair and use it to climb the tall cabinet dusting the top. I don’t know why Hailey suddenly pushed the chair as if it’s an accident. My body jolted as I tightly close my eyes to wait for my body to feel the floor. But then I didn’t, I was between Angelo’s arms when I open my eyes. It made me startled seeing how close we are.
JILLIAN“Jillian,” Carina came to me wearing a serious face. I immediately turn my body to her and stopped walking around to listen what she wanted to say.“Is there something going on that I don’t know?” she asked me straight.“What do you mean?” I became flustered all of the sudden.“Angelo is getting colder and colder.”
ANGELOIt’s another night that I’m left staring at her peacefully sleeping. I always do when she sleeps. I weirdly would want to watch her this way. It’s making me think, at least she is at peace at this moment. I wonder what she is dreaming by now.Carina is coming back; I can feel her. When she comes here, I will finally find the answer to my questions.Things are getting complicated as the days passes by. I’m getting comfortable with Jillian. The more she smiles, the weirder I feel. I think I’ve become attached that I cared a lot now.
JILLIANAngelo showed himself breaking the glass door where we passed through. He held my hand tightly as we both run to the fire. I didn’t know how my chains went off so suddenly. All I cared about for the moment is the forest and the mansion.“Angelo, take me with you. Never allow them to find me again,” I told him gripping tighter.We stopped in front of the huge fire eating up the trees covering the large tract. The fire bringing such a huge distraction looked like it’s speaking death to anyone who’s gonna run though it but I can’t feel it’s heat.
JILLIAN“Who is Carina?” The doctor asked leaning a bit closer.“She is my proof,” I answered confidently.The doctor took his laptop of the bag he has with him and typed things on it. “What is her surname?”I realized I don’t know that I can’t answer. My stepmom’s smirk made me grin.
JILLIANI didn’t say anything that’s why I ended up being locked inside my room. The medication is fixed but I don’t want to be part of it. I think the doctor is gone now.“Jillian,” Angelo spoke again, trying to take my attention.“Are you listening?” Hailey waved her hand in front of my face, making me blink and look at her. She rolled her eyes and cross her arms. She even disappeared from my sight, leaving only me and Angelo.
JILLIANI punched the air after putting the telephone down.“Oh yes!” I screamed in joy. My parents just called and said they can’t still come home and that I should take care of the house.
JILLIAN“You are not coming with me at school again,” I told Angelo when we are finally walking home.“I’m still going, and you can’t do anything about it,” he said with a confident voice.
ANGELOThe wind only whispered that it’s all about Jillian so I watched her all the time thinking what it might be. I can read she is feeling awkward but I’m still doing it. She even asked me multiple times but I didn’t answer her that she tried looking herself at the mirror.“Stop staring at me, it’s weird,” she complained and grab the
ANGELOJillian stopped walking and faced me after I mentioned her surname. Her face is wrinkled and curious about it now. I can read it. Even she won’t say it out loud. I admit she has grown into another woman. This is not the Selena I know. Well she is not her anymore, she is Jillian.“Do you know my father?” she asked while we are halted under a shade of a tree.“Why do you ask?” I also give her a question to avoid answering it. The truth will just break her into pieces. Their surname came from a root of a huge chaos before. My first life is being reminded to me.I hear her frown as she narrows her eyebrows turning her back. She must be irritated by my responses. If I get back to it, my scar with split open again. I can’t let the hatred once again grow inside me. The dark past should be hidden for now.We reached her house and I decided