JILLIAN
His hand is tightly holding my hand taking me away from the house. I don’t know how he took all those chains away but I don’t care. All I want is to get free. I was with him during the night and still woke up in front of the house’s door. It’s disappointing but he whispered something last night.
“Sleep. Sleep and you will wake up the next day. You won’t get tired anymore. You won’t feel the pain anymore,” he whispered caressing my hair last night.
“So you are awake already,” my stepmom said. She pulled my chains in. “Can you move faster?” She kicked me but I can’t feel anything anymore. It’s like I’ve gone numb.
I worked the whole day but I didn’t feel tired. It’s like everything is done fast and easy. My body feels light and renewed.
The days passed very slowly and my world become a cycle of me holding his hand every night and working at my prison every morning. My parents didn’t notice anything since they started leaving the house for business. When I am alone, Angelo visits me to do some of my works and we laugh together. My feet are still chained but whenever I want to go, he helps me get it off easy.
The years passes and I fell something for him that I shouldn’t. My heart flutters whenever he is near and I was longing to all of his touches. He is the same and it’s odd. His face is still wearing the same expression through the years. Wearing the same outfit and aura he comes to me. Every day, his face brightens my day though I never saw him smile.
“Just what are you Angelo?” I asked out of the blue one night watching our hands entangled to each other heading to the forest. He stopped and look at me.
“I am what you think I am,” his answer is confusing but I ignored.
“Do you think we should stay like this forever?”
“No. things will change as the time passes by Jillian.”
Waking up the next day alone surprised me. My parents didn’t come home yet. I just did what I should and waited but they didn’t come yet until the second day. He is there for me and I got contented for my life for a moment.
While cleaning the mess I made at the table cooking, he is sitting on a chair facing me. I’m not looking at him but I know he is watching every move that I make. It feels very weird but I try not to mind it and act as normal as possible.
“Do you think; they will come back?” I asked to break the awkward silence.
“They are coming actually,” he answered confidently sounding so sure. I even checked on his face, he is indeed serious but it’s weird.
“How did you know?” I sat on the other chair and face him with both arms on the table.
“I know a lot,” he just said with his eyes locking with mine. His stares are affecting me very well that I feel like melting.
“What do you know about me? How did you know me?”
The place gone all silent when he didn’t answer the question. His face is unchanging but he is not talking too. We are still staring at each other intently almost forgetting to blink.
“What did you do to me? Did you casted a spell or anything?” Another question escaped my mouth. He is unmoved still with his hand moving closer to me. His right hand reached for my cheek cupping it.
“I did what you think I did,” his answer is confusing. It’s like it’s all he can say.
The peace I’m experiencing right now without my parents is something I once dreamed and it’s happening. No more shouting, no more demands, no more force thrown to me too. It feels new but it’s all I wanted. I’m not raised to be bad but I’m wishing they’ll just forget about me and never come back.
“Can’t you just take me with you? I mean, it’s a great chance that they are not here. I can finally go to you without anyone chasing me,” I said starting up a new topic. I badly need to escape or my life would be worse than hell.
“I can’t do that, I’m sorry. I can feed you nothing,” he said.
“So that’s why I always wake up back here.” He gave me a small nod not taking away his eyes from me. Disappointment ran over me making me feel sad and confused at the same time. “Why?” I asked.
He stood up and turn his back at me to walk away. The view of his back only made me feel a lot sadder. It looks like he is leaving me and I don’t like the thought of it. I stood up too to chase him and pull his white long sleeves from the behind.
“Where are you going? You can’t just leave me!” I started being hysterical.
“I’m not leaving you. I will come back, I promise.” His words made me take my hands off his long sleeves and shook my head. I’m just 16 but I like this man a lot. “They are almost home,” he added and turn his body to face me. His cold hand touched my face down to my chin lifting my head to look at him.
“When are you coming back? Tomorrow, right?” I asked trying to read him.
“Remember my face Jillian,” he isn’t answering my questions. Staring at him feels like I’ve memorized all the details of his face. I can never forget his face.
“Why are you saying that now?”
“I actually don’t want to but I don’t like leaving you wondering where I went and if I’m coming back.”
“What do you mean? I really don’t get you.” I took his hand off my face. “You said you will help me!” Tears flowed down my eyes for disappointments.
“Jillian, listen.” He tried holding both of my shoulders while I’m taking his hands away from me. I kept on doing so until I gave up. “Jillian, I promise I will come back.”
“When?”
“On your 21st birthday, I will come to you. I will come back and change our fates,” he whispered and pull me close to him for a tight embrace. “I’m sorry if I have to disappear that long. There are just things that we can’t control.”
“Why?”
“Some things are fated to happen.” His last words are like the wind’s whisper and I can no longer feel his presence. He vanished through thin air and I didn’t even see how it happened since my eyes are both tightly closed.
He is gone.
JILLIANMy parents came back. After a year, they took my chains off me. I don’t know what they did to me but I just woke up one day on a hospital with stitches on my left wrist. They even sent me to school again just like before. I don’t know what’s gotten into them.I’m in the room, staring at the scar on my wrist. My other hand started touching it, I feel like there is something inside it. Some small cylindrical stuff. It’s what my fingers can feel. The school uniform is still hanging on my body while I’m squatting on the bed. The wind outside caught my attention so I walk to the window to open it exposing the balcony through my eyes.The wind is quite strong this afternoon. I’m all alone again since my parents rarely come here. The foliage of the trees on the forest are swaying and is waving at me. I know it’s crazy but I think I saw a small kid standing there and is watching me.I ran downstairs and search
JILLIANThe sun rays have invaded my room through the window. It’s a bit open and the curtains are being flown by the air that’s able to come inside. Today is my birthday but I don’t feel happy or excited about it. All I see is this woman staring at me with her weird smile plastered on her face.“It’s time,” she said.“What if he forgets about the promise?” I asked her.“No. He won’t. He wanted to help you out of hell.”“Hell?”“This life you have with your family.”I stood up to prepare myself though nobody in this house cares about it. I’m all alone again and if they come home, I’ll only get new bruises. They also fight for small things. It’s annoying. Angelo is coming back. That only means I can see that mansion once again. I think I miss him.A smile curved from my lips as I watch the forest from the window pane. The wind is making the tre
JILLIANMy body is shaking a bit while my hand is forming a fist as he walks towards me holding the woman by the waist. So, it is how he holds a woman he likes. The woman smiled at me and I’m forced to reciprocate that smile though I’m so broken. I’m jealous.“Jillian, she is Carina, my woman,” Angelo spoke. My world felt like it stopped spinning. I can’t believe what he just said. I forced to maintain my composed self and act as normal as possible.“Nice to meet you,” Carina said extending her hand for a handshake. I shook with it as immediate as possible.“Nice to meet you too.”Everyone in the mansion are plastering a happy smile on their faces. Nobody knows what I’m feeling right now. They won’t understand though; they aren’t human beings.“I told you, he will come back,” the woman that’s tailing me all this time spoke again. “By the way, call me Hailey,” she added.
JILLIAN“A demon has risen, my grandma once told me. He only rises every time after sleeping for years.” My classmate’s voice woke me up from sleeping on my desk. My head is still plunged on my crossed arms above the table listening to their loud voice.“There’s no such thing as demons. That’s just a story for kids,” my other classmate said.“So you are saying I am a kid?”“No, silly.”“What if it’s true? She said he is leaving in a forest, in a mansion.” I lift my head after hearing what she just said and turn my body to face them.“What’s the demon’s name?” I asked making them raise their eyebrows at me. They are just a chair apart so they can hear me clearly.“Angelo,” she answered though she ignored me after that. They started talking about something else while I am still watching them.I have no friends at school because I’m scared about
JILLIANMy day went normal and when Angelo showed up again, he is back to his normal self as if nothing happened. Seeing him only reminds me of the things that I don’t know.“Do you want to do something today?” he asked.“Chores?”“No. I mean other than that.” I furrowed my eyebrows since I can’t seem to think about anything. “Come one, don’t you know how to have fun?”“Fun?” I think I never know what that even feels like. I’m clueless.“I’ll help you with chores, we are going somewhere,” he said. After he really did help me with everything, he took me somewhere. He took me on a river that I didn’t even know exist near our place.I don’t want my feelings for him to deepen that much so I didn’t allow him to hold my hand anymore. We have a basket of food good for us. Hailey also came with us like I’m having a chaperone. The two ran to the water like kids w
JILLIANIt’s morning again and I’m busy like always. He came visible again wearing his attractive face. I tried ignoring him but he started helping me. He grabbed on the vacuum that I’m holding to do it himself. I have no choice but do something else.“Are you okay?” he asked while I’m dusting the cabinet of my parent’s room.“Yeah.” My short reply made him all silent as we finish everything. I don’t if he finds it weird but I hope not. It’s not good if he suddenly asks what going on with me. I might burst my feelings out and he will ghost me.I went to the kitchen fast to take a chair and use it to climb the tall cabinet dusting the top. I don’t know why Hailey suddenly pushed the chair as if it’s an accident. My body jolted as I tightly close my eyes to wait for my body to feel the floor. But then I didn’t, I was between Angelo’s arms when I open my eyes. It made me startled seeing how close we are.
JILLIANBefore I could lose Angelo, I immediately change myself acting so normal when he is around. Like always, he is with me again, helping me with chores. Today, he is wiping the dusty window pane while I am busy folding my clothes. The only thing that’s on my head now is to change my life just like what he wanted to see.“When is Carina coming back?” I asked breaking the silence.“I don’t know. She didn’t state any fixed date but after she takes care of everything, she will come back here,” he answered.“So, you won’t be coming here anymore.”“Nothing will change. I will still visit you and bring her too.” He walked towards me after he is done. “It’s the last window. What am I gonna do next?”“Rest,” I replied shortly and continue what I’m doing. I can tell he is staring at me even I’m not looking at him and it’s awkward.“Why do you have to be born a Sagi
JILLIANForgetting about the weird thing he just said, we both landed in the park unconsciously. My money is just good for street foods so I bought them for both of us. He didn’t complain about it and just tried the food. He didn’t ask a lot of stuffs to and just follow where I go.We also went to the zoo.“Why does animals has to be like this?” he asked and I just shrugged. I took him out fast since he doesn’t look happy about those animals on different cages.“We have to help them,” he kept saying while I’m pulling him to the exit. People are staring at us now so I exerted all the force left in me until we are finally outside.“It’s complicated,” I just told him. We walked like a meter but he is still glancing at his back to the zoo. I have to distract him, but how?I tried thinking much harder on where to bring him. Realizing that it’s afternoon, I pull him agai
JILLIAN“Jillian,” Carina came to me wearing a serious face. I immediately turn my body to her and stopped walking around to listen what she wanted to say.“Is there something going on that I don’t know?” she asked me straight.“What do you mean?” I became flustered all of the sudden.“Angelo is getting colder and colder.”
ANGELOIt’s another night that I’m left staring at her peacefully sleeping. I always do when she sleeps. I weirdly would want to watch her this way. It’s making me think, at least she is at peace at this moment. I wonder what she is dreaming by now.Carina is coming back; I can feel her. When she comes here, I will finally find the answer to my questions.Things are getting complicated as the days passes by. I’m getting comfortable with Jillian. The more she smiles, the weirder I feel. I think I’ve become attached that I cared a lot now.
JILLIANAngelo showed himself breaking the glass door where we passed through. He held my hand tightly as we both run to the fire. I didn’t know how my chains went off so suddenly. All I cared about for the moment is the forest and the mansion.“Angelo, take me with you. Never allow them to find me again,” I told him gripping tighter.We stopped in front of the huge fire eating up the trees covering the large tract. The fire bringing such a huge distraction looked like it’s speaking death to anyone who’s gonna run though it but I can’t feel it’s heat.
JILLIAN“Who is Carina?” The doctor asked leaning a bit closer.“She is my proof,” I answered confidently.The doctor took his laptop of the bag he has with him and typed things on it. “What is her surname?”I realized I don’t know that I can’t answer. My stepmom’s smirk made me grin.
JILLIANI didn’t say anything that’s why I ended up being locked inside my room. The medication is fixed but I don’t want to be part of it. I think the doctor is gone now.“Jillian,” Angelo spoke again, trying to take my attention.“Are you listening?” Hailey waved her hand in front of my face, making me blink and look at her. She rolled her eyes and cross her arms. She even disappeared from my sight, leaving only me and Angelo.
JILLIANI punched the air after putting the telephone down.“Oh yes!” I screamed in joy. My parents just called and said they can’t still come home and that I should take care of the house.
JILLIAN“You are not coming with me at school again,” I told Angelo when we are finally walking home.“I’m still going, and you can’t do anything about it,” he said with a confident voice.
ANGELOThe wind only whispered that it’s all about Jillian so I watched her all the time thinking what it might be. I can read she is feeling awkward but I’m still doing it. She even asked me multiple times but I didn’t answer her that she tried looking herself at the mirror.“Stop staring at me, it’s weird,” she complained and grab the
ANGELOJillian stopped walking and faced me after I mentioned her surname. Her face is wrinkled and curious about it now. I can read it. Even she won’t say it out loud. I admit she has grown into another woman. This is not the Selena I know. Well she is not her anymore, she is Jillian.“Do you know my father?” she asked while we are halted under a shade of a tree.“Why do you ask?” I also give her a question to avoid answering it. The truth will just break her into pieces. Their surname came from a root of a huge chaos before. My first life is being reminded to me.I hear her frown as she narrows her eyebrows turning her back. She must be irritated by my responses. If I get back to it, my scar with split open again. I can’t let the hatred once again grow inside me. The dark past should be hidden for now.We reached her house and I decided