JILLIAN
My eyes slowly opened as the sun’s warmth touches my skin. I wasn’t dreaming anymore, I’m still inside the mansion. What’s unusual is that I’m indeed in a bed but everything is empty again. I ran outside and see nothing too, including downstairs. There is no sign of that Angelo again.
After fixing myself a bit, I decided to go back to my dad’s house to at least steal some of my clothes. Their loud voices arguing over something is what I’m hearing from the outside. I can’t hear what it is but they are both furious. My heart started beating like a drum when I realized I’m like a few steps away from the house. I can completely hear them now.
“So you really don’t wanna find your stupid daughter?” That voice belongs to my stepmom.
“I said you go find her!”
“I’m not your maid or anything! And the hell I care about her ha?”
“Then we will have no more slave here. Cook then!”
Hearing them only crushed me. I am about to cry when I suddenly step on a small branch and create a faint noise. It’s faint but it will definitely take some attention.
“What was that?”
“I’ll check it so start cooking now,” dad said opening the door making me run without noise to the side of the house.
“Damn you!” My stepmom is screaming her lungs out throwing some things in the kitchen making my dad go back to her. I ignored their loud voices and started climbing to the balcony of my room.
I created a faint noise again stepping on the wrong place making it crack. I stopped halfway to listen if my dad is heading outside again but they continued fighting. When I am finally inside my room, I immediately packed some of my clothes and use the useless ones to tie the bag and put them down without a noise.
I successfully did it and its time for me to go down now too. Gently, my wet hands made the railing feel a bit slippery. Body shaking a bit, I did all my best to get down all safe and no sound. It was also successful but my mom from the kitchen noticed me widening her eyes.
“Jillian!” she called me and so I run as fast as I could. I almost curse under my breath feeling a lot nervous and scared to be imprisoned in that house again.
“You, come back!” my dad used his very authoritative voice but I didn’t listen. I continued running away from them tightly holding the bag with my clothes in it. It’s like the faster and farther I go, the more feeling of success I get.
I hide to some trees and some rocks checking them from the back still tailing on me.
This time, I felt horrible when they never gave up chasing me until we went far. My knees are about to give up and is starting shake. I’m out of energy and is starting to get breathless. I fell to the ground all tired and is catching some breath. I know they are tired too but I can’t just stop and get caught.
My hand landed on my mouth covering it to lessen the noise of my breathing. There’s no noise heard from near, I can’t hear them any longer so I drop my hand turning my body to face the sky. The foliage of the trees is covering it but some of the sun’s lights passes through some small spaces reaching my face.
I suddenly felt my body stiffen when I hear faint footsteps gradually getting nearer and nearer. My breathing slowly became heavy as I stay below the green leaves of some plants covering me. The bag is beside me and I’m gripping on it hard.
“We stop here,” my stepmom said panting.
“She will escape again,” dad said and I can hear his heavy footsteps.
“Wait. These plants look odd, like someone passed through here.”
I look at the mess I’ve created and realized I will easily be caught at this point if I don’t get out. It’s difficult but I tried moving to stand up without moving anything.
“I like that. You are too observant.” My dad’s footsteps went near me from the right. I can feel him like five steps from me.
I have no choice but stand up in all sudden and run.
“Oh sh*t!” My stepmom bursts and she grabbed some of my hair. I escaped but a strong hand pulled my weak arms. My tears streamed right away like some sudden rain.
“You think you can go away that easy?” dad whispered taking my hand and tying them. He also tied my feet and I can’t fight anymore. I’m just crying silently looking at these merciless people smirking in front of me. I feel like a prey being caught by some predators and is waiting for my death.
“Angelo!” I screamed but it only echoed back.
I saw how my dad’s expression changed automatically just by hearing the name. Harassingly, he pulled my hair making me face him. His angry face is all I see and his burning eyes. It’s like I’m facing a devil.
“Who did you called again? Angelo? Do you know him?” I give him no answer by staying shut so almost punched me but he didn’t. He lifted me carrying me like a sack of rice in his shoulder. My bag is on his other hand while walking back to the house, to that prison.
My life changed worse than before. I’m like a dog with chains on me, tied to where I’m destined to have chores. They are treating me like an animal, letting me sleep outside of the door when I do some small mistake. It’s dark again and is cold. I’m outside the door shivering rubbing both of my shoulders with my hands though it’s not helping.
“Angelo, why don’t you help me?” I whispered crying.
The sky is pitch black since it’s starless tonight. I’m just hoping it’ll not rain or else I’ll get no sleep.
“I’m sorry,” I lift my head to see the man I am looking for these past days to some and help me.
“Angelo, you’re here,” I said sobbing.
He kneeled down to cup my face and wipe my tears out.
“I hesitated when I realized you are a Sagittarius, I’m sorry. Seeing you like this changed my mind,” he continued though I don’t understand a word. I don’t want to understand anything too. All I want is to get out.
“Please help me.”
“I will.”
JILLIANHis hand is tightly holding my hand taking me away from the house. I don’t know how he took all those chains away but I don’t care. All I want is to get free. I was with him during the night and still woke up in front of the house’s door. It’s disappointing but he whispered something last night.“Sleep. Sleep and you will wake up the next day. You won’t get tired anymore. You won’t feel the pain anymore,” he whispered caressing my hair last night.“So you are awake already,” my stepmom said. She pulled my chains in. “Can you move faster?” She kicked me but I can’t feel anything anymore. It’s like I’ve gone numb.I worked the whole day but I didn’t feel tired. It’s like everything is done fast and easy. My body feels light and renewed.The days passed very slowly and my world become a cycle of me holding his hand every night and working at my prison every morning. My parents didn’
JILLIANMy parents came back. After a year, they took my chains off me. I don’t know what they did to me but I just woke up one day on a hospital with stitches on my left wrist. They even sent me to school again just like before. I don’t know what’s gotten into them.I’m in the room, staring at the scar on my wrist. My other hand started touching it, I feel like there is something inside it. Some small cylindrical stuff. It’s what my fingers can feel. The school uniform is still hanging on my body while I’m squatting on the bed. The wind outside caught my attention so I walk to the window to open it exposing the balcony through my eyes.The wind is quite strong this afternoon. I’m all alone again since my parents rarely come here. The foliage of the trees on the forest are swaying and is waving at me. I know it’s crazy but I think I saw a small kid standing there and is watching me.I ran downstairs and search
JILLIANThe sun rays have invaded my room through the window. It’s a bit open and the curtains are being flown by the air that’s able to come inside. Today is my birthday but I don’t feel happy or excited about it. All I see is this woman staring at me with her weird smile plastered on her face.“It’s time,” she said.“What if he forgets about the promise?” I asked her.“No. He won’t. He wanted to help you out of hell.”“Hell?”“This life you have with your family.”I stood up to prepare myself though nobody in this house cares about it. I’m all alone again and if they come home, I’ll only get new bruises. They also fight for small things. It’s annoying. Angelo is coming back. That only means I can see that mansion once again. I think I miss him.A smile curved from my lips as I watch the forest from the window pane. The wind is making the tre
JILLIANMy body is shaking a bit while my hand is forming a fist as he walks towards me holding the woman by the waist. So, it is how he holds a woman he likes. The woman smiled at me and I’m forced to reciprocate that smile though I’m so broken. I’m jealous.“Jillian, she is Carina, my woman,” Angelo spoke. My world felt like it stopped spinning. I can’t believe what he just said. I forced to maintain my composed self and act as normal as possible.“Nice to meet you,” Carina said extending her hand for a handshake. I shook with it as immediate as possible.“Nice to meet you too.”Everyone in the mansion are plastering a happy smile on their faces. Nobody knows what I’m feeling right now. They won’t understand though; they aren’t human beings.“I told you, he will come back,” the woman that’s tailing me all this time spoke again. “By the way, call me Hailey,” she added.
JILLIAN“A demon has risen, my grandma once told me. He only rises every time after sleeping for years.” My classmate’s voice woke me up from sleeping on my desk. My head is still plunged on my crossed arms above the table listening to their loud voice.“There’s no such thing as demons. That’s just a story for kids,” my other classmate said.“So you are saying I am a kid?”“No, silly.”“What if it’s true? She said he is leaving in a forest, in a mansion.” I lift my head after hearing what she just said and turn my body to face them.“What’s the demon’s name?” I asked making them raise their eyebrows at me. They are just a chair apart so they can hear me clearly.“Angelo,” she answered though she ignored me after that. They started talking about something else while I am still watching them.I have no friends at school because I’m scared about
JILLIANMy day went normal and when Angelo showed up again, he is back to his normal self as if nothing happened. Seeing him only reminds me of the things that I don’t know.“Do you want to do something today?” he asked.“Chores?”“No. I mean other than that.” I furrowed my eyebrows since I can’t seem to think about anything. “Come one, don’t you know how to have fun?”“Fun?” I think I never know what that even feels like. I’m clueless.“I’ll help you with chores, we are going somewhere,” he said. After he really did help me with everything, he took me somewhere. He took me on a river that I didn’t even know exist near our place.I don’t want my feelings for him to deepen that much so I didn’t allow him to hold my hand anymore. We have a basket of food good for us. Hailey also came with us like I’m having a chaperone. The two ran to the water like kids w
JILLIANIt’s morning again and I’m busy like always. He came visible again wearing his attractive face. I tried ignoring him but he started helping me. He grabbed on the vacuum that I’m holding to do it himself. I have no choice but do something else.“Are you okay?” he asked while I’m dusting the cabinet of my parent’s room.“Yeah.” My short reply made him all silent as we finish everything. I don’t if he finds it weird but I hope not. It’s not good if he suddenly asks what going on with me. I might burst my feelings out and he will ghost me.I went to the kitchen fast to take a chair and use it to climb the tall cabinet dusting the top. I don’t know why Hailey suddenly pushed the chair as if it’s an accident. My body jolted as I tightly close my eyes to wait for my body to feel the floor. But then I didn’t, I was between Angelo’s arms when I open my eyes. It made me startled seeing how close we are.
JILLIANBefore I could lose Angelo, I immediately change myself acting so normal when he is around. Like always, he is with me again, helping me with chores. Today, he is wiping the dusty window pane while I am busy folding my clothes. The only thing that’s on my head now is to change my life just like what he wanted to see.“When is Carina coming back?” I asked breaking the silence.“I don’t know. She didn’t state any fixed date but after she takes care of everything, she will come back here,” he answered.“So, you won’t be coming here anymore.”“Nothing will change. I will still visit you and bring her too.” He walked towards me after he is done. “It’s the last window. What am I gonna do next?”“Rest,” I replied shortly and continue what I’m doing. I can tell he is staring at me even I’m not looking at him and it’s awkward.“Why do you have to be born a Sagi
JILLIAN“Jillian,” Carina came to me wearing a serious face. I immediately turn my body to her and stopped walking around to listen what she wanted to say.“Is there something going on that I don’t know?” she asked me straight.“What do you mean?” I became flustered all of the sudden.“Angelo is getting colder and colder.”
ANGELOIt’s another night that I’m left staring at her peacefully sleeping. I always do when she sleeps. I weirdly would want to watch her this way. It’s making me think, at least she is at peace at this moment. I wonder what she is dreaming by now.Carina is coming back; I can feel her. When she comes here, I will finally find the answer to my questions.Things are getting complicated as the days passes by. I’m getting comfortable with Jillian. The more she smiles, the weirder I feel. I think I’ve become attached that I cared a lot now.
JILLIANAngelo showed himself breaking the glass door where we passed through. He held my hand tightly as we both run to the fire. I didn’t know how my chains went off so suddenly. All I cared about for the moment is the forest and the mansion.“Angelo, take me with you. Never allow them to find me again,” I told him gripping tighter.We stopped in front of the huge fire eating up the trees covering the large tract. The fire bringing such a huge distraction looked like it’s speaking death to anyone who’s gonna run though it but I can’t feel it’s heat.
JILLIAN“Who is Carina?” The doctor asked leaning a bit closer.“She is my proof,” I answered confidently.The doctor took his laptop of the bag he has with him and typed things on it. “What is her surname?”I realized I don’t know that I can’t answer. My stepmom’s smirk made me grin.
JILLIANI didn’t say anything that’s why I ended up being locked inside my room. The medication is fixed but I don’t want to be part of it. I think the doctor is gone now.“Jillian,” Angelo spoke again, trying to take my attention.“Are you listening?” Hailey waved her hand in front of my face, making me blink and look at her. She rolled her eyes and cross her arms. She even disappeared from my sight, leaving only me and Angelo.
JILLIANI punched the air after putting the telephone down.“Oh yes!” I screamed in joy. My parents just called and said they can’t still come home and that I should take care of the house.
JILLIAN“You are not coming with me at school again,” I told Angelo when we are finally walking home.“I’m still going, and you can’t do anything about it,” he said with a confident voice.
ANGELOThe wind only whispered that it’s all about Jillian so I watched her all the time thinking what it might be. I can read she is feeling awkward but I’m still doing it. She even asked me multiple times but I didn’t answer her that she tried looking herself at the mirror.“Stop staring at me, it’s weird,” she complained and grab the
ANGELOJillian stopped walking and faced me after I mentioned her surname. Her face is wrinkled and curious about it now. I can read it. Even she won’t say it out loud. I admit she has grown into another woman. This is not the Selena I know. Well she is not her anymore, she is Jillian.“Do you know my father?” she asked while we are halted under a shade of a tree.“Why do you ask?” I also give her a question to avoid answering it. The truth will just break her into pieces. Their surname came from a root of a huge chaos before. My first life is being reminded to me.I hear her frown as she narrows her eyebrows turning her back. She must be irritated by my responses. If I get back to it, my scar with split open again. I can’t let the hatred once again grow inside me. The dark past should be hidden for now.We reached her house and I decided