JILLIAN
The only angle I can see from below is the feet of my dad walking towards the door. I can feel the warm liquid flowing from my eyes wetting my cheeks and flooding the area my face landed after I drop my body on the floor. My dad beats me again, giving me new bruises and scratches. My old ones are not yet healed but there he gave me new sets of them again.
It’s hard to breath with my chest tightening so much baring all the emotional pain that’s invading my heart. I have always wished to be numb and empty. I’m tired of all my sufferings.
Thought I’m also suffering physical pain, I still forced myself to stand up enduring all of it. I can’t help but stare at myself in the huge mirror I got inside my small room. My wavy light brown hair is all messed up, covering half of my face exposing my eye with dark circles in it. My light brown eyes don’t look the same and the bruise near my lower lip is making me look like a small girl being punched by a giant’s fist.
My huge baggy gray shirt is hanged down my left shoulder exposing my visible collar bone. The rain is making me feel a lot sadder, lamenting over myself for having such a misfortune. And that’s to be born to this family with such an abusive father who can’t love me.
“Run away.” A whisper brought by the wind going inside my room, opening the window, gave me chills. My room is dark and I can’t see anything but an odd shadow by the window. It’s a silhouette of a man, as if he is leading me the way out of my cruel world.
I watched the view of the outside as I slowly take small steps towards it. My hair is blown hardly by the wind making me embrace myself trying not to take away my sight from the silhouette and the window.
One blink and it’s gone. The rain poured harder as the lightning struck giving interim light to the darkness.
My room is located at the second floor of our house and I think I can jump. The thunder startled me just when I was raising my other feet to jump down. I fell down unexpectedly but I couldn’t feel the pain anymore. I’m getting out of this house, getting away from pain.
The next thing I know is that I am running to nowhere. I don’t know where to go and just let my feet decide where it wants to go. It took me down the forest, alone, wet and is lost.
Fear dominated inside me as I started crying again feeling a lot miserable. The wind once again blew hard as if it’s telling me which direction I should go. I ran to its direction until I found a huge mansion. I have nowhere else to go and decided to barge in.
The lightning struck again followed by the thunder’s roar, making me cover both of my ears. My body is uncontrollably shaking not just because of fear but also because of the cold weather. The rain soaked me wet and I ended up stranded in an abandoned mansion standing in the heart of this forest.
“Jillian.” A familiar whisper made me gasp. The cold water is dripping from my clothes as I started walking on the dark hallways looking for somebody. I see no one and the light that I only have is the light passing through the huge windows given by the lightning.
“Hello? Is anybody here?” My voice is shaking.
“Jillian.” I heard it once more but I can’t seem to identify where it might be coming from.
“Who are you?” I released a louder voice and it echoed down the wide hallways.
The lightning made me blink and a sudden appearance of a guy wearing all white came in front of my eyes. I can never forget his green eyes glowing in every lightning struck. It will forever be forged inside my head. His light brown curly hair is perfectly matching his chiseled jaws. He is wearing white sleeves folded to his elbow with two buttons open.
“Don’t be afraid, I mean no harm,” he said with a calming voice.
I’m just 14 and he is much taller than me. He walked towards me making me get a more vivid view of his beardless face. His hand landed on my head patting it very softly.
“Who are you?” I asked once more but he didn’t answer. He took my hand with his hand but I can’t feel warmth from him. His touches are cold but I didn’t mind.
The large door swung open untouched exposing the real insides of the mansion. The bright yellow lights made me close my eyes trying to adjust on it. Just when my eyes finally can open, the huge chandelier meet my eyes. My jaw dropped seeing how unexpectedly beautiful the mansion is. It might look like abandoned from the outside but it’s a complete opposite in the inside.
The warmth and sweet scent of the inside welcomed me as I walk in still holding the man’s hand tightly. He made me sit, put on warm clothes, offered me something to drink and eat, offered me a room to stay and service that I wasn’t expecting.
The moment he started treating my wounds and scratches, I once again had a chance to stare and memorize his face. The face of the guy who made me feel special even just for a day. I’m fearing these are all not true and I was just making them all up through my head.
His hair looked almost golden when reflected by the bright lights. It’s all I can have access to see because he is treating my feet while I am comfortably seated on the king-sized bed. I feel so much safe in here though it seems like it’s just me and him.
“You seem like you are very used with pain. You can’t feel the alcohol touching your open wound,” he broke the deafening silence. I blinked my eyes when he lifted his head and look at me.
“I think so,” I just said trying not to look at his green eyes that much.
“Whenever you want to escape, find this place. I’ll be here.” His words confused me.
“I’m already here, I don’t want to go back.”
He smiled at me making my heart melt and my body froze. His hand slowly wiped some stands of my hair from my face hiding them behind my ears.
“Just remember what I said,” he spoke with a very low and deep voice.
“Please tell me your name.” I brought it up again and I’m not stopping until he gives me his name.
“I’m Angelo.”
JILLIAN“Angelo.” I uttered his name once again as my eyes started to feel heavy. They closed and I’m going to be taken far into some deep dream once more. But it feels weird. It’s like I’m already asleep and is waking.“Jillian.”I know that voice that’s repeatedly calling me. Why is he here?“Jillian! Wake up!” He is hurting my ears with his loud and angry voice. A sudden kick woke me up making me cough and curl to my knees. My stomach felt his huge feet with heavy shoes harassingly kicking me.“I see you are still alive,” he spoke with his normal voice.I forced to open my eyes only to see how blurry my vision was. Water is covering my eyes and I have no choice but to let them flow once more crying in silent.“Stand up and do your chores!” My stepmom is here too walking from the door. They left me there still weak and unable to move right. I stud
JILLIANMy eyes slowly opened as the sun’s warmth touches my skin. I wasn’t dreaming anymore, I’m still inside the mansion. What’s unusual is that I’m indeed in a bed but everything is empty again. I ran outside and see nothing too, including downstairs. There is no sign of that Angelo again.After fixing myself a bit, I decided to go back to my dad’s house to at least steal some of my clothes. Their loud voices arguing over something is what I’m hearing from the outside. I can’t hear what it is but they are both furious. My heart started beating like a drum when I realized I’m like a few steps away from the house. I can completely hear them now.“So you really don’t wanna find your stupid daughter?” That voice belongs to my stepmom.“I said you go find her!”“I’m not your maid or anything! And the hell I care about her ha?”“Then we will have no more slave here. Cook then
JILLIANHis hand is tightly holding my hand taking me away from the house. I don’t know how he took all those chains away but I don’t care. All I want is to get free. I was with him during the night and still woke up in front of the house’s door. It’s disappointing but he whispered something last night.“Sleep. Sleep and you will wake up the next day. You won’t get tired anymore. You won’t feel the pain anymore,” he whispered caressing my hair last night.“So you are awake already,” my stepmom said. She pulled my chains in. “Can you move faster?” She kicked me but I can’t feel anything anymore. It’s like I’ve gone numb.I worked the whole day but I didn’t feel tired. It’s like everything is done fast and easy. My body feels light and renewed.The days passed very slowly and my world become a cycle of me holding his hand every night and working at my prison every morning. My parents didn’
JILLIANMy parents came back. After a year, they took my chains off me. I don’t know what they did to me but I just woke up one day on a hospital with stitches on my left wrist. They even sent me to school again just like before. I don’t know what’s gotten into them.I’m in the room, staring at the scar on my wrist. My other hand started touching it, I feel like there is something inside it. Some small cylindrical stuff. It’s what my fingers can feel. The school uniform is still hanging on my body while I’m squatting on the bed. The wind outside caught my attention so I walk to the window to open it exposing the balcony through my eyes.The wind is quite strong this afternoon. I’m all alone again since my parents rarely come here. The foliage of the trees on the forest are swaying and is waving at me. I know it’s crazy but I think I saw a small kid standing there and is watching me.I ran downstairs and search
JILLIANThe sun rays have invaded my room through the window. It’s a bit open and the curtains are being flown by the air that’s able to come inside. Today is my birthday but I don’t feel happy or excited about it. All I see is this woman staring at me with her weird smile plastered on her face.“It’s time,” she said.“What if he forgets about the promise?” I asked her.“No. He won’t. He wanted to help you out of hell.”“Hell?”“This life you have with your family.”I stood up to prepare myself though nobody in this house cares about it. I’m all alone again and if they come home, I’ll only get new bruises. They also fight for small things. It’s annoying. Angelo is coming back. That only means I can see that mansion once again. I think I miss him.A smile curved from my lips as I watch the forest from the window pane. The wind is making the tre
JILLIANMy body is shaking a bit while my hand is forming a fist as he walks towards me holding the woman by the waist. So, it is how he holds a woman he likes. The woman smiled at me and I’m forced to reciprocate that smile though I’m so broken. I’m jealous.“Jillian, she is Carina, my woman,” Angelo spoke. My world felt like it stopped spinning. I can’t believe what he just said. I forced to maintain my composed self and act as normal as possible.“Nice to meet you,” Carina said extending her hand for a handshake. I shook with it as immediate as possible.“Nice to meet you too.”Everyone in the mansion are plastering a happy smile on their faces. Nobody knows what I’m feeling right now. They won’t understand though; they aren’t human beings.“I told you, he will come back,” the woman that’s tailing me all this time spoke again. “By the way, call me Hailey,” she added.
JILLIAN“A demon has risen, my grandma once told me. He only rises every time after sleeping for years.” My classmate’s voice woke me up from sleeping on my desk. My head is still plunged on my crossed arms above the table listening to their loud voice.“There’s no such thing as demons. That’s just a story for kids,” my other classmate said.“So you are saying I am a kid?”“No, silly.”“What if it’s true? She said he is leaving in a forest, in a mansion.” I lift my head after hearing what she just said and turn my body to face them.“What’s the demon’s name?” I asked making them raise their eyebrows at me. They are just a chair apart so they can hear me clearly.“Angelo,” she answered though she ignored me after that. They started talking about something else while I am still watching them.I have no friends at school because I’m scared about
JILLIANMy day went normal and when Angelo showed up again, he is back to his normal self as if nothing happened. Seeing him only reminds me of the things that I don’t know.“Do you want to do something today?” he asked.“Chores?”“No. I mean other than that.” I furrowed my eyebrows since I can’t seem to think about anything. “Come one, don’t you know how to have fun?”“Fun?” I think I never know what that even feels like. I’m clueless.“I’ll help you with chores, we are going somewhere,” he said. After he really did help me with everything, he took me somewhere. He took me on a river that I didn’t even know exist near our place.I don’t want my feelings for him to deepen that much so I didn’t allow him to hold my hand anymore. We have a basket of food good for us. Hailey also came with us like I’m having a chaperone. The two ran to the water like kids w
JILLIAN“Jillian,” Carina came to me wearing a serious face. I immediately turn my body to her and stopped walking around to listen what she wanted to say.“Is there something going on that I don’t know?” she asked me straight.“What do you mean?” I became flustered all of the sudden.“Angelo is getting colder and colder.”
ANGELOIt’s another night that I’m left staring at her peacefully sleeping. I always do when she sleeps. I weirdly would want to watch her this way. It’s making me think, at least she is at peace at this moment. I wonder what she is dreaming by now.Carina is coming back; I can feel her. When she comes here, I will finally find the answer to my questions.Things are getting complicated as the days passes by. I’m getting comfortable with Jillian. The more she smiles, the weirder I feel. I think I’ve become attached that I cared a lot now.
JILLIANAngelo showed himself breaking the glass door where we passed through. He held my hand tightly as we both run to the fire. I didn’t know how my chains went off so suddenly. All I cared about for the moment is the forest and the mansion.“Angelo, take me with you. Never allow them to find me again,” I told him gripping tighter.We stopped in front of the huge fire eating up the trees covering the large tract. The fire bringing such a huge distraction looked like it’s speaking death to anyone who’s gonna run though it but I can’t feel it’s heat.
JILLIAN“Who is Carina?” The doctor asked leaning a bit closer.“She is my proof,” I answered confidently.The doctor took his laptop of the bag he has with him and typed things on it. “What is her surname?”I realized I don’t know that I can’t answer. My stepmom’s smirk made me grin.
JILLIANI didn’t say anything that’s why I ended up being locked inside my room. The medication is fixed but I don’t want to be part of it. I think the doctor is gone now.“Jillian,” Angelo spoke again, trying to take my attention.“Are you listening?” Hailey waved her hand in front of my face, making me blink and look at her. She rolled her eyes and cross her arms. She even disappeared from my sight, leaving only me and Angelo.
JILLIANI punched the air after putting the telephone down.“Oh yes!” I screamed in joy. My parents just called and said they can’t still come home and that I should take care of the house.
JILLIAN“You are not coming with me at school again,” I told Angelo when we are finally walking home.“I’m still going, and you can’t do anything about it,” he said with a confident voice.
ANGELOThe wind only whispered that it’s all about Jillian so I watched her all the time thinking what it might be. I can read she is feeling awkward but I’m still doing it. She even asked me multiple times but I didn’t answer her that she tried looking herself at the mirror.“Stop staring at me, it’s weird,” she complained and grab the
ANGELOJillian stopped walking and faced me after I mentioned her surname. Her face is wrinkled and curious about it now. I can read it. Even she won’t say it out loud. I admit she has grown into another woman. This is not the Selena I know. Well she is not her anymore, she is Jillian.“Do you know my father?” she asked while we are halted under a shade of a tree.“Why do you ask?” I also give her a question to avoid answering it. The truth will just break her into pieces. Their surname came from a root of a huge chaos before. My first life is being reminded to me.I hear her frown as she narrows her eyebrows turning her back. She must be irritated by my responses. If I get back to it, my scar with split open again. I can’t let the hatred once again grow inside me. The dark past should be hidden for now.We reached her house and I decided