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I’m 21 today.

I didn’t think I would make it here honestly.

But I have the best boyfriend who I love, the most amazing best friend and friends, and then my family, my brothers and little sister who I love and adore with my entire heart.

21. 5 birthdays since my parents passed, this day has always been hard. This year I’m determined to make a change unlike the previous years with Cole, Josie and Miles coming over to watch movies and eat ice cream because that’s all I’ve been up for.

This year well I don’t really have a reason to stay in bed and wallow. I’m happy, in love and so freaking proud of myself and how far I’ve come after everything.

“Morning beautiful” Kingston says whispering into my hair from behind before placing a soft kiss on my neck behind my ear that turns me on more than he’ll ever know. I roll over to met him and I’m met with breakfast and coffee oh and of course my fucking drop dead gorgeous handsome boyfriend who made the breakfast in nothing but his
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  • After Everything    41

    “Please fasten your seatbelts and prepare for takeoff.” The flight attendant says over the PA. Em cuddles further into my side as we settle in to head off on our week away. I didn’t think about her anxiety really and I felt shit when I saw her tense up at the airport. She nuzzles her head into the crook of my neck so she can’t see or hear anything around us. My arm is wrapped tightly around her shoulder. “You alright Em?” I ask. She doesn’t respond, all I feel is a nod against my chest. I start rubbing soothing circles on her back just to ease the anxiousness. “Just a little anxious not as bad as normal when traveling, I’m ok.” She says to reassure me and herself. She glances up at me as I plant a kiss on her forehead. She’s trying her best to be okay and I trying to just keep her calm. “Hey, why don’t we try the senses exercise.” I say knowing it works well in distracting her and takes her mind away from the anxiety. “Ok” she whispers peering up at me from

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  • After Everything    42

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  • After Everything    43

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  • After Everything    45

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  • After Everything    46

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  • After Everything    66

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  • After Everything    61

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