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She left. I’m mean I didn’t give her a reason to stay. I didn’t say anything. I didn’t fight for her or with her. I have no idea what I just did. Just that it hurts more than anything I’ve ever felt. I’m sobbing freely now still staring out over the balcony. I can’t look to my right because I know what lays there and I really don’t want to see it. It’s the butterfly ring I gave her in New York. The one that matches mine. Her words hit me. I want to fight. I don’t want to lose her. I can’t give up on us. Not when she didn’t at her lowest. I love her with everything. And I just shattered both our hearts. By not saying anything. I know she will go to her brothers. I want to ring and explain everything. But she’ll know it’s not everything. I asked for space and she gave it to me. But this fucking kills me. Not going to sleep next to her. No forehead kisses. No hugs from behind. No laugh filling me. No breathtaking smiles. No grey’s nights. No sil
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I haven’t stopped crying since I left his parents house and well not really before that either. I sent him that song and that message because I needed him to know I still hadn’t given up. This has been the longest week of my life. And not having him by my side is hurting me so much. My anxiety hasn’t flared, I had a bout of nausea but that did pass. I ended up coming home to the girls after two days. I needed the time away from campus and being home in Willow Falls was nice. I visited them and I knew what they were telling me. That Kingston is my future and that I needed to fight enough for the both of us. Josie comes into my room “you have a visitor.” “Ok.” I don’t know who it is. I come out of my room and walk toward the door and that’s when his familiar scent, the feeling of home and his light wash jeans and white tee shirt fill my vision. “Hi.” he says in a nervous tone. It’s been 6 days since I last kissed him, held him, touched him. “Hi.” I s
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We found our way back home in each other’s hearts. She is my everything and not following her on that balcony will ever be the biggest mistake of my life. It’s been a few days and we slowly fell back into the same routines and relationship. Telling her my confession about my brother’s death and why I blamed myself was freeing. A weight was lifted from my shoulders. We are currently at Glaze’s picking up our morning coffees which we enjoy as we walk through campus before we head toward class. The bright light and stale smell of the lecture hall hits as we enter the room for our developmental psychology class. We sit down in our usual spots, Em is still drinking her iced coffee even though she is wearing a matching set and then a puffer with a beanie she looks adorable but it’s a bit of an oxymoron. “I don’t why you are still drinking iced coffee in the middle of November?” I state with a laugh at just how cute she looks in a beanie. “I take forever to drink thing
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She’s in my arms as I wake up like always, I’ve grown so used to it. It’s a habit going to sleep together, wake up with kisses, Em doing her routine, I cook breakfast for us and anyone else who’s home, we get ready for class or to study or we just head out and go on a date. I’m currently flipping pancakes clad in nothing but sweatpants when Austen in the same outfit as me comes out of Josie’s room rubbing his eyes. Josie’s been doing better lately which means Austen is at ease more now. He nods in my direction to say good morning not ready for words I see. “You two want some?” I offer pointing to the pancakes. “Yeah why not. You need help with anything.” “Yeah figuring out their fucking coffee machine, Em normally sets it up but she kind of had other things on her mind when we came home last night.” Meaning I distracted her after coming home from the library after working on our assignment for hours and the craving hit both of us. “Um yeah, it can’t be that hard. I’ve
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He really is something special and the absolute best. This weekend just passed he took care of me after I said I wanted to drink which I did and then got drunk and I threw up multiple times. But he looked after me and watched over me. And now we are staying in after he planned this crazy date out because my period came this morning. It comes like clockwork around the 16th or 17th of every month. This time it was no different, it’s the 17th we go on break for Thanksgiving really soon. Kingston and I both talked and discussed with our families and decided to have a big one at my childhood home with both families so they can meet and get to know each other. I have mild cramps and a headache but you’d think I had something way worse because Kingston’s has been doting on me ever since I rang and cancelled our date. He went to the store on the way home from practice and picked me up my favourites. Ice cream, chocolate and pizza. He also must know what I use because he stocked
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Coming home from Thanksgiving I felt lighter than I had done in forever and actually happy. Which I didn’t think nor really feel around this time of year. When we get back it’s a hustle of activity in the apartment and on campus. “Why did we sign up for this event again?” Sutton asks as we run around trying to pull together decorations for the end of semester ball at our sorority. “So it’s away from finals.” Addison responds. “Ok right, well now we are on decorations and the event is tomorrow.” Sutton chuckles. “Do we even have dresses?” Sutton continues. “I was just going to wear–” I begin to say that I was going to wear last year’s dress before everyone cut me off with a world of yeah no’s. “Why not?” “Because I got the dresses covered, we have matching ones. The silk slips that we love with a small twist. I had to design them for my end of year project and I named them after you girls. Figured since I had to design and bring them to life it would be a sham
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6 MONTHS LATER a/n | mature content 18+ “Are you ready, nervous, excited?” She asks me as her eyes gleam sealing how proud she is. Em would be referring to my graduation tomorrow. 4 years of college finished. I’m ready for the real world although not much is changing. Except for a few things. It’s also Cole and Austen’s graduation, I can’t believe we all made it through mostly unscathed. We are moving out of the house we shared with the boys. The end of an era, the 5 of us. Not that we won’t see them, because we will. I mean my girlfriend still goes here and we are still brothers. Austen and I have a plan. Something we hope to convince both girls to do as they are best friends too, so I’m not sure we will need to do much convincing. It’s been around 10 months since Em and I finally stopped ignoring our chemistry and desire and looked up to find something we didn’t know we needed but now we can’t live without. We’ve seen many stars, watched grey’
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“Are we actually doing this?” I ask as we lay in bed. I’m tucked against King’s chest as his arm wraps around my shoulder. “Well yeah, you said yes and so did Josie.” He whispers against my forehead. “I can’t believe it.” “You better. Since packing starts tomorrow.” I knew one day I would move out of this apartment but what if it’s too soon. It’s a comfort thing, my sanctuary and escape but I will live in the same room as my boyfriend who I love but with my anxiety sometimes I need to be alone. I would be giving that up but think of all the positives and there are many. He basically lives with me anyway, he has a drawer, we bought a bigger desk so we could both sit at it, his toothbrush has a place on my counter, his body wash lives in my shower. “It’s too early isn’t it?” Kingston questions pulling me from my thoughts. “What?” “Em we’ve been together for nearly a year, I can see the thoughts not good ones ticking away in your mind.” “I’ll just miss h
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After Everything Epilogue
REHEARSAL DINNER | the night before the wedding MATURE CONTENT | 18+ “We are getting married tomorrow. Like tomorrow.” Em says from her spot resting on my chest. “Yeah we are, surreal huh?” I respond. “Um yes, but I’m excited.” “Me too, no nerves?” “None not with you ever.” That makes my heart swell. “So you aren’t going to pull a Burke and leave me at the alter?” I ask referring to one of the many weddings on Greys. “Not at all, I want this so fucking much.” “Me too Em.” “I love you.” She whispers. “I love you more.” “How are your vows going?” She asks. Ugh those things, the declaration of love. Matrimony. They are coming along nicely but I just know Em’s are going to be like 1000 times better than mine. “Good. Yours?” I ask and she smirks. “I’m happy, Josie loves them so I hope you do too. Because there’s still time for Jos and I to run of into the sunset.” That’s not the first time either of them have mentioned their happily ever afte
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Time flies when you are busy, overworked and exhausted. I feel like I blinked and now it’s a week out from my own wedding. I’m getting married to the love of my life in a week. I couldn’t be happier or more excited. But first, the bachelorette night courtesy of Josie my maid of honour. I knock on her apartment door, box in hand and question ready on my lips. “Oh Em you look nice, did you want Josie?” Austen asks opening the door to greet me. “Thank you and yes I would like my best friend.” “Did Kingston ask you yet?” “Yeah last night although I’m kind of sad I didn’t get a box too.” “Oh well, guess you don’t have the better best-friend.” That’s something we all fight over who has the better best-friendship, which duo is better. The sisters by love or brothers by choice. We don’t know. There will never to be a correct answer. Because really we are just a lucky bunch of people to be surrounded by amazing company that we get to share, live and love with.
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“That’s not fair!” I shout as Em hits me again with the water gun. She continues until I surrender and throw her over my shoulder as she laughs at me. “Kingston put me down.” “What, baby?” She starts pinching my behind and I can’t reach her hand to slap it away. “Stop that.” “Well put me down now.” I throw her in the water. She breaks the surface and her stern gazes meets mine. “Not like that.” “You asked for it.” “I said put me down not toss me in the lake.” We are up at Miles’ vacation home in Cape Cod we have come the past two years as one big massive family. It has enough beds for everyone. We play games, cook together, laugh, have fun, it’s a tradition I don’t see us breaking anytime soon. This is sort of our last hoorah. All together. After this we all go our separate ways. Yeah we’ll stay in touch but it won’t be the same. Unless we all live near each other again. When we leave here tomorrow we will be making the journey to New York. Sin
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There are future spoilers for other couples (who will eventually have their own stories). It’s hard writing this time for K&E and not talking about where their friends lives are at. They are all so close like a massive family. So read at your own discretion. Pause reading here, if you want to read Josie and Austen’s story from the beginning and not where they end up, I try keep it to a minimum, but again kind of hard since it effects King and Em directly. It’s up to you where you go from here! These chapters and this time was my favourite to write and are probably some of my best “Come on Em we are going to miss our flight if you don’t hurry up?” Kingston shouts from the bathroom. “Josie you too. Hurry up.” Austen adds. “Em what is taking so long?” “Just need to finish, last chapter…” “You have time for that on the plane, now get your butt in gear. Are you packed, do you have everything?” He says snatching my iPad from me. He pulls me into his chest. “Yes
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6 MONTHS LATER… Graduation, baby. We finally did it. Boston U’s Class of 22! It’s been an amazing, adventurous, sweet, crazy journey. But we did. Us four girls stand hand in hand in their apartment before we finally head out to walk across the stage. After four years. All the ups and downs. Every party. Failed grade. Library study session. Coffee from Glazes. Hockey game. Sorority event. We made it through. Stronger and better than ever. We all have incredible futures ahead of us. Me as at nursing school. Josie at an internship for Vogue. Addison as a teacher at a prestigious school. Sutton at an insane PR and Marketing firm for Sports Professionals. I can’t believe we did it. I love these girls more than life itself. Without them this would have been a boring journey. We are sisters. Wherever we end up we will always have each other. “You girls ready to go?” Cole asks from his spot next to the door. He’s accompanied by Kingston, Austen and
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We’ve enjoyed a perfect state of bliss bridging the gap between Christmas and New Years. We spent the time with Em’s family. It’s important for her mental health to spend time with them and during the semester it doesn’t happen that often. So we soaked up all the time we could with them. Along with bouncing back and forth to my parents as well. Over the past year our relationship has grown to new heights. All because of the girl next to me. She was the catalyst. The fighting force. My parents thank her every time. She just smiles and says sweet words in response. But she truly has no idea how strong they feel over this. Knowing I could have ended up like him scares them the most. But more importantly it scares me. We also took time and brought Cora and Tate with us. Since the two of them are two peas in a pod. It’s adorable honestly. Seeing them get along so well is amazing. We are home now. And tonight is party night. We are getting all dressed up and heading t
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Christmas is in full swing at the Hale-Cooper and Fitzgerald-James apartment. Like it looks like Santa and his 12 reindeer threw up in our apartment. There are decorations everywhere. Not that I expected anything less from Josie. I mean she makes ‘Winter Wonderland’ her bitch. The tree is real for god sake. Real. Like pine and woody smelling. It fills the apartment day in and out. Oh and if that isn’t enough there is about 16 Christmas soy scented candles in our apartment. There’s bound to be 2 burning at all times in every room. The carols and music fill our speaker system in our apartment every morning 9am sharp. Then throughout the day its the alternating routine between music and movies. There are snacks always out. Candy canes. Hershey’s kisses with festive flavours. There is always a round of Pillsbury Christmas cookies in the cupboard and one in the oven. Oh and fresh ready to bake packet in the fridge. Just for safe keeping. In case we eat them all. We’ve b
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It’s been a month since Em’s incident. It scared and terrified me. Receiving that phone call from Callum. I knew I shouldn’t have left her… I’m cooking dinner for us at home, the vegetables are prepped and chicken is cooking now. Josie is studying at the breakfast bar. Austen’s not home and Em isn’t home from the library either. “Not studying with Em today?” I ask Josie. “Nah cramps got really bad today, so I just decided to stay home. That smells good.” “Thanks.” “Ugh Kingston your phone is ringing.” “Does it say who it is?” “Callum. I think.” Miles’ boyfriend why would he be ringing me. “Pass it here.” “Alright.” She leans over and grabs it. “Hi Callum.” “Umm hi I’m with Emerson now, something’s happened. She needs you. We are on our way to the hospital now.” With that all the colour drains from me. Emerson, hospital, what the fuck. “Kingston what is it?” Josie asks worried. “Emerson something happened.” “What? Where.” “I don’t know we need to
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“Damien, I can’t….. that……. I hate….. It hurts Damien, I can’t breathe…” “Emmy you’re ok, slowly in and out, there you go, you are safe now. You have a concussion, you are going to need stitches for the cut and will need some wrapping on your wrist.” “WHERE IS SHE?” I hear the familiar voice I love come down the hall. “Do you want to see him? He’ll understand if you don’t.” I just nod and squeeze his arm. “I love you Emmy, you’ll get through this. We’ll see Lily together alright. I’m not leaving you alone.” He enters to hallway leaving me with the nurse in the room. It’s protocol, I know that. Kingston enters the room and I can see his tear stricken eyes. “I’m so fucking sorry. Emerson. I should have been there. I should have. I’m so sorry.” “It’s not your fault.” “I know but I should have been there, I shouldn’t have left you there by yourself.” “How were you meant to know. I’ve done that many times. Just tonight something happened.” “It’s not your
