CHAPTER 9

Xavier...

    "-We didn't know she would freak out like that." Anessa tries to reason. I had already scolded them before but Anessa kept pressing the matter of me being overprotective and Possessive of Meave. Of course I'm that way. She's my everything. All I live for.

"She wanted answers. We only wanted to help her." She argues.

"Look where that got you! My mate has being lying on that bed unconscious for the past Two days! Two days!" I bark angrily waving two fingers in the air for emphasis.

"I'm Sorry Xavier. I'm sorry and I understand wh-

The death glare I sent her way shut her up immediately. "You do not Understand how I feel. You have not even a clue of what I'm feeling."

How scared I am...

"Xav take it easy." Meryl's calm voice reaches my ears and I let out a sigh.

"Xavier chill." Xander adds.

"If you would let me in then I can help you." Anessa presses and I glare at her.

"Why don't you understand that somethings cannot be fixed. They will always remain broken." I tell her. I rake my fingers through my dark long hair.

"I want no disturbance for the rest of the evening." I order before making my way into my chambers. The door closes behind me.  I felt a pang of guilt in my chest when my eyes land on My Precious Maeve lying on my bed unconsciously.

Some part of me knows that if I had paid more attention to her I would have known the changes was bothering her. I could have helped her find the answers she needed. Then she would not have felt like she needed to do these things herself.

  I took myself to the bed lying beside her. The tiredness settled in and I let myself fall asleep.

   I woke up when I heard Maeve's soft groans and whimpers. I sat upright shaking her softly trying to wake her from her nightmare. She began to trash letting out a scream before jerking awake. She registers her surroundings before throwing herself in my arms I instantly wrap my arms around her. Each time she hugged me, this strange but comforting feeling settled in me.

Since I got back from Tartarus, Maeve is the only one that has ever touched me. While every other person stared at me with a hint of fear in their eyes, it was different with Maeve. One look from her and she has me in her control.

"I'm here. I'm here." I kept muttering soothing words to her until she calmed down.

"Katie. I saw her. She was alive." She managed to say.

"She wanted to kill..." she trailed off. She slightly pulls away from me staring up at me with teary beautiful grey eyes.

"She tried to Kill you. No she killed you and you weren't coming back to life. I...I couldn't understand why. I..." she burst into fresh tears.

"Shh... I'm here. I can't die remember." I try to assure her.

"It was just a dream."

She shakes her head furiously. "No! It wasn't! It was real!" She exclaimed and the lights in the room start to misbehave.

"She didn't have control of herself. She said they brought her back. I don't know who they are but they're after you. They want to take you away from me." She cried out and I hug her again tighter even.

"I don't want to lose you." She says almost in a whisper.

"You won't." I assure her combing my fingers through her hair. I could feel how scared she was and for some reason this Nightmare got her really scared which made me worry.

We remained like that for what felt like ages and she eventually calmed down because the electricity was now stable.

 

   For the rest of the night Maeve refused to go back to sleep which meant I had to stay awake with her which was hard for me. Maeve may not know this but since her nightmares started I've not been able to sleep. I tried to stay awake incase she needed me and now the lack of sleep was getting to me. Being Azrael meant I needed to be fully charged all the time. I need my sleep to be ready for anything. This is the longest I've been without sleep but it was worth it. I'd do anything to keep My Precious Maeve safe.

 

"I don't feel your heartbeat." Her angelic voice reaches my ears and I prayed my eyes open. She was currently lying on top of me with her head resting on my chest.

I chuckle. "That is because I'm already Dead."

She sits up so she's straddling me and I just watch her. "But since you came back to life then shouldn't your heart be beating again? Meryl died and came back. Her heart is still beating." She counters.

I have thought about this before but didn't get any answers. "I don't know maybe it's part of being the Angel of death. I'm Death itself."

  I decided to do something for her. To get her mind off things and also clear my mind. Since having her straddle me wasn't exactly easy for me seeing as my mind was in the gutter.

"Let me show you something." I tell her. I don't wait for a reply as I shadow us out of the room and on the castle tower.

I watch Maeve's expression turn to one of amazement as she took in the night sky. "Wow. So beautiful."

"It looks so close." She mutters referring to the moon. Night time was the most beautiful in Cressida. The stars and moon always shun bright and also seemed so close that you feel you can touch it.

I chuckle when Maeve reaches for the sky trying to catch a star.

I take off my tux then White button up shirt leaving me shirtless and in only pants. I feel Maeve's eyes on me.

"What are you doing?"

I only stare at her wordlessly. I flex my back muscles. I took a deep breath and exhaled my huge black angel-like wings

Made an appearance and I watch as Maeve gapes at me.

"Is...is that..." she stutters still shocked. "Can I touch it?" She asked and I nod. She closes the space between us. I bring a wing closer to her and she runs her fingers on it.

"They're so big and Beautiful. No. Exquisite." She mutters incredulously still amazed.

Her hands trail from my wings to my chest.

"What are these?" She asked tracing the numerous ancient glowing symbol that covered my body.

"Each symbol represents the souls that have ended up in Tartarus." I tell her.

"They're so many." She mutters looking up at me. My hazel eyes meet her grey ones.

"Does it hurt? I mean, all of this..." She takes a step back gesturing to myself. "-must be too much for you."

I place my hand over hers that is on my heart.

"I hear their screams. I hear their cries of plea. They all want out. They all promise to change but will they really? They all deserve it. It's Punishment for all their Sins."

She doesn't say anything she only places her lips on our joined hands while I place my lips at the top of her head.

"Do you trust me?"

She nods without hesitation.

"Can I hear you say it?"

She looks up at me. "Yes. I trust you Xavier with my everything."

I nod. "Put this on then close your eyes." She does as I ordered putting on my Tux over her flimsy nightgown then closes her eyes. The jacket was to protect her from the cold.

I moved so I was behind her. I gripped her waist tightly and with one mighty flap of my wings I send us into the night sky.

"Open your eyes." I tell her and her reaction was something I didn't expect. She let out a deafening scream and started shaking in my arms.

"Hey. Relax. Relax."

"I'm scared. I'm scared. Put me down! Let me go...no! Don't let go." She screams still trashing in my arms. She tried to turn around longing for me. She slips out of my hold screaming as she falls.

I flew down in lightning speed catching her before she neared the earth. She latches onto me tightening her grip around me.

  I decide to take us back to the castle to I shadowed us back to my Chambers. It's only when she feels the earth underneath her feets that she let's go of me. My wings found their way back inside of me.

"You should have taken the hint that I was taking you flying to tell me you were scared of heights." I say trying not to get angry.

"I'm not scared of heights." She mutters and I glare at her.

"Then what was that?"

"I did take the hint that we were going flying. I mean when you took off to the sky I felt the night breeze on my skin but when I opened my eyes. I panicked. I haven't been so far up in the sky. I was basically staring down at the earth. How could I not freak out?!"

I sighed. It was my fault then. I hate feeling like this. Feeling stupid for attempting to make her feel better. Give her a good night of some sort.

  

Cold shower.

That always fixes everything. Instead of walking into the bathroom I shadowed myself into the bathroom ending up naked standing underneath the showerhead. I turned on the tap and cold water spewed from the showerhead hitting me like a million pins piercing my flesh.

  My palm spread on the cold tiled wall in front of me and I let my eyes close as i got used to the coldness.

 

  I felt her presence behind me that's when her arms wrap around my waist. She presses herself against my back and I prey my eyes open.

"Turn around. Please..." I hear her say. I don't but eventually gave into her plea and I turned around meeting her sparkling gray eyes.

"Today. For the first time ever I felt you. Just like you feel my fear. I felt something." She shakes her head. "I couldn't identify it but I knew it was a negative feeling. Anger mixed with something else. I'm sorry if that's how I made you feel. Forgive me."

I scoff running my hands through my wet hair.

"I don't think it's possible to stay mad at you."

She smiles which makes me smile.

"You have dimples." She gushes making me chuckle.

"What?"

She brings a finger to my cheek. "Aww. One sided dimple. So cute." I laugh at her childishness and when I meet her eyes again she's staring at me intently and I couldn't read her.

  She takes both my hands and I lazily let her bring my hands to the bare wet skin of the side of her breasts.

"What are you doing?"

She doesn't meet my eyes. Her gaze remain on herself as she brings my hand to each of her breasts.

My breath hitches and I try not to squeeze them. "I just want to feel your touch." She finally meets my eyes. "I want you to make me feel good."

I frowned. Few days ago when I lost control with her in my office. I did promise to be gentle but patience was something I lack and she was pushing it. I'm not even sure I can be gentle with her.

  It took everything in me to pull away from her even though I love the feel of her soft skin.

"I cannot risk hurting you." I simply say.

She shakes her head. "It's alright Xavier. I want this." She tried to assure me.

I shake my head. She wasn't getting it. "Once I lose control there is no way I can come back to my senses. I will hurt you."

She takes my hands again placing them on her hips. "Didn't you hear. I'm a Sex demon now. I can handle it."

I shake my head. "You don't understand. It'll be your first time and I cannot be gentle with you. I'm a Demon of death. Causing pain is what I do and i gain pleasure from that."

With one swift move I have her front against the cold wall and her hands in my tight grip above her head.

"I want to dominate you. I want to choke you. Grab and pull your hair. Spank you hard." I smack her bare ass to make a point and she yelps.

"I want to torture you. Make you feel pain and pleasure. You'll be high on ecstasy and when I slam into you. You'll scream out my name." I press my hardened dick on her ass.

"I will not go easy on you. I will fuck you till you beg me to stop and even then I will not stop."

I bring my lips to her right ear biting them lightly.

"And when am done you won't be able to feel your legs or anything else. Can you handle that Maeve? Can you handle me and everything I have to offer or will i be to much for you and you run away from me?"

  I immediately let go of her and she slowly turns around to face me.

She let's out a deep breath running her fingers through her now wet hair.

"I still want you. I want all of you. I don't know if I can handle all of that but I'm willing to try. For you."

That was her reply. My eyes pierced into hers. The certainty in her eyes told me she wasn't backing out.

Neither was I.

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