CHAPTER 6

Xavier...

  I jerked awake. I hate it when I die. I don't feel anything then but when i resurrect the pain comes flooding in.

Memories came flooding back in.

Meave!

I immediately got out of Bed and the first person my eyes land on is Maeve who is asleep on the couch in my bedroom. I take in her state. She looked a mess with the dried blood on her face, hands and clothes. Then why on earth did seeing her like his turn me on.

  Before I could stop myself I squatted beside her letting my fingers play with her hair. It's beautiful. She's beautiful.

"Xavier?" She asked softly slowly preying her eyes open and I got up. Standing upright. She surprised me by throwing herself at me. I staggered but quickly regained myself. It was weird recieving a hug.

I cannot remember the last time I recieved a hug but if I was to guess then it would be before I went to hell.

Having her show me so much affection was too much. I try to pull her off me but she tightened her arms around my torso.

"I'm so sorry. I thought you died. I should have stayed. I killed Katie and Beatrice.... and Freya." She cried into my chest and I didn't know what to do so i slowly wrap my arms around her petite body.

"I couldn't control it. I couldn't stop." She cried even more.

I felt her sorrow. How sad she was and I wish I could tell her it was over but it had only just begun. The urge to feed would grow stronger until she had satisfied 25years of not feeding.

"I can't do this. I'm going to bind My Vampire side again then it'll-" she starts to blabber again but I stop her.

"No." I say sternly keeping her at arms length so she could see how serious I am.

"You won't use Black Magic on yourself." I tell her steadily. She meets my eyes nodding her head.

"I'll help you get through it." I mutter surprising the both of us by pulling her into a hug. Once she hugged me back I relaxed.

   Somehow we ended up showering together. Actually I was showering then I felt her tiny hands wrap around my torso from behind.

  I let her touch me exploring my body but when I try turning around to see her she doesn't let me probably because she was just bony conscious. I didn't push her not because I was trying to respect her decision not to reveal her body but mainly because I couldn't trust myself with what I would have done to her. Being both a Vampire and a Demon meant my Libido. Sex drive is uncontrollable and once I start I cannot stop and I fear I'll hurt her.

I don't want to hurt her.

"Xavier?"

I snap out of my thoughts and realize I spaced out in a meeting with Xander.

I met Xander's questioning look.

"What?" I ask grumpily.

"I said; we have a new batch of human prisoners with death sentences. You want to extract their blood for the blood bloodbank or do you gave other plans?" He asked.

"How many are they?"

"Bout fifty from different states." He tells me.

I slowly nod. "I'll need ten of them have someone tie them up in the woods. the rest just drain them." I order and he nods getting on his feets and exiting the room. Leaving me alone in my study with my thoughts.

Maeve. She's all I think of.

As if on cue my door burst open and Anessa comes in.

"Maeve. Something is wrong with her." She says and I immediately get on my feets. We reach her room in Supernatural speed and I find her curled up on the floor crying. Meryl was trying to comfort her.

"What's going on?" I demand.

Meryl turns to me. "She's turning rogue and she needs to feed properly but she doesn't want to." She tells me.

I go to Maeve pulling her to her feets and leading her to the bed. I see black veins had filled her arms and now running up her neck.

I grip her arm and shadowed us out of Castle and in the woods.

She stumbled a bit once we landed but quickly regained herself.

"I smell something." She says and before I could stop her she moved in Vampire speed. I follow her.

"What is this?"

"Your Feast." I simply say following her eyes to the people tied to different trees.

"No no. I'm not feeding." She says starting to leave but I stop her.

"Eighteen. I was Eighteen a young reaper Vampire.

The Thing about being a Reaper and being young is that we have no control. My Father used me as a weapon since I couldn't control my urge. I ended up Slaughtering a whole coven in Salem. It didn't end there. One day while on our Mission killing witches and Werewolves. I ended up killing a human Family and Their little Son. It was then I came back to my senses."

Maeve slowly turned back to face me. "Why are you telling me all of this."

"It all started because I didn't want to feed on innocent people so I starved myself." I tell her. "There are two ways of turning rogue. One: when you mate dies and Two: Starvation.

  Twenty five years of not feeding is what's turning you rogue."

"I'll just bind my Vampire side again like Fiona did."

"And what happens when the magic fades? Huh?. You lose control! Maybe even end up butchering the whole of Cress Heights!" I exclaim.

"I'll renew the Spell and-

"And Nothing!" I say cutting her off. She glares at me and I return it with a more deadly one.

"Tis basically the End of the World when an Alp or Mara Vampire goes rogue. History cannot repeat itself. A millennium ago, Your great grand Father lost his Mate and he went rogue. A whole Country was Massacred and he didn't stop there. He had to be Desiccated and Locked up for eternity." I explain trying to make her understand why feeding is important.

"I already killed Katie and two other people. I cannot kill ten people!"

"You have to satisfy that urge. So you have to feed." I tell her. She shakes her head turning around and starts to leave. I go to one of the victim slipping their throat open with my knife. Maeve froze in her steps definitely smelling the blood.

  She slowly turns around and I see she had turned. Her claws and Fangs were out. Her eyes had turn black with small veins around them. She moved fast and I watched her feast on them enjoying their struggles and screams.

  

"I hate you." Maeve spat at me falling to the ground. She had turned back. Her mouth, hands and shirt were bloody.

"No you don't." I simply say going to her. I leaned down to help her up but she put her hand up Stopping me from helping her.

"I killed Ten innocent people. I'm a monster." She lamented and I scoff.

"You'd be Surprised how much harm humans can cause their fellow human beings. All of them were criminals who all deserved death." I tell her watching her rise to her feets.

"No one deserves death." She tells me.

I scoff. "Sure." She meets my eyes glaring at me. I remain unfazed by her glare. I haven't been able to talk to her about last night so I decided now was the time.

"You could have died Last night." I state.

"But you saved me. As usual." She simply says.

"I won't always be there to save you." I tell her.

"Yes you will. I wasn't expecting you last night but you knew I needed you and you came." She says flooding her arms across her chest. I couldn't help but glance at her boobs.

"Bond with me." I say out of nowhere.

"What? No way! That's how my parents died in the first place." She exclaimed.

"If you bond your life with mine even if you're killed or I'm killed. Either way I'll resurrect and so will you." I try to explain. She shakes her head frantically.

"And what if it doesn't work? Maybe if you're killed and we both die, once you resurrect I'll do too but what if. I die and then we just die forever." She reasons. It makes sense.

"Then there's only one way to find out." I say and she gives me a disapproving look. "I can't stay worried all the time Maeve."

Her eyes softened. "You're worried about me?"

It's only then I realise what I said. "Yes especially when you're the last Mara. Alps and Maras built the barrier keeping Cressida hidden from the outside world. There's only a Handful of Alps left and they're in hiding. You're one of them so I have to keep you safe." I tell her.

"Sometimes I forget you're a King and all you want is to keep your people safe." She says letting out a bitter laugh. staring down at her feets.

"I still Care about you Maeve."

"You don't have to though. Since I came into your life. It's been Havoc so far." She mutters her eyes landing on the dead bodies.

"Ugh! It makes me sick!" She exclaims and with one word spoken and the wave of her hand the bodies caught fire.

I decide we could finish this conversation later. I grip her hand and shadowed us out the woods and back to the castle in my room.

"Shower and then rest." I tell her before leaving to find Xander.

   Maeve is messing up my head. Infact my head is filled with thoughts of her and I need to get back to my usual self. I walked into my Study expecting to see Xander but instead I see Janne in a flimsy blue dress.

She's what I need to get my head straight.

I moved in vampire speed crashing my lips on hers and Ripping off any form of clothing she had on. There wasn't an ounce of gentleness when I gripped her hair bending her over my desk.

  Janne had to be what I wanted to release all the unidentified feeling inside of me but why did I feel so guilty. Even as I pounded into her i still couldn't stop thinking of Maeve.

  I immediately pull out of her. She seemed confuse.

"Xav what's wrong?" She reaches to touch me but the deadly look I gave her made her do otherwise. Keep her hands to herself.

I realise I had torn her clothes and I can't send her out naked so I threw my dress shirt at her.

"Get out."

She isn't want I need. Maeve is who I need. What I need.

I need her. All of her.