Jayler
The never ending knocking on my door forced me to wake up and immediately suffer from the hangover that was just waiting to swoop in. I jerked upright and the headache struck me almost instantly the moment I opened my eyes. I forgot to close the blinds last night and my eyes burned with the brightness of the day. I shoved the thick blanket out of my body eventually scratching my head out of pure irritation. I don’t know what time I got home or how did I even got home in the first place but I’m pretty sure I needed more time to sleep. Whoever’s knocking on my door just won’t stop knocking even after a few knocks and it’s honestly infuriating.
My head felt heavier when I stepped out of the bed. I waited for several seconds just to get my shit together before eventually trudging towards the door.
"What?!!!" Evidently pissed, I scoffed at the old lady who showed up the moment I pulled the door open.
"You came home drunk again last night.” The old lady uttered with utmost concern gritting in her tone. “I cooked breakfast for you." It was Lala, our housemaid. She was holding a tray of food, her soft concerned voice lingered like a soulful music in the background.
"What time is it?" I yawned asking for the time. The feeling of irritation that I had was immediately dissolved by her soft tone.
"It's already past 10." Lala answered quickly without even looking at something for reference of the time. She must’ve been waiting for me to wake up.
"I think I need more time to sleep." I replied almost sounding dismissive of her efforts.
I was about to slam the door shut but then I thought about the food that she had prepared just for me. I don’t know what came over me, perhaps it was the sudden realization of the fact that I’m no longer that ten-year-old pesky brat who just don’t care about people’s feelings. I stared at the freshly cooked French toast and even though I didn’t want any of it, I took the tray from Lala’s hands and thanked her before eventually closing the door. I laid the tray of food on my study table and the first thing that came to my mind was to go back to my bed and sleep.
The heavy dosage of alcohol that I drank from last night made me weak and dehydrated. In fact, I’m too weak to even move and get something to drink. I’d rather sleep thirsty than to crawl downstairs just to grab some ice-cold water in order to quench my thirst.
I was about to close my eyes and fall back to sleep when a familiar ringtone prevented me from closing my eyes. I lazily snaked my arm to the far side of the bed and grabbed my phone only to see Kenneth’s name on my phone screen.
"What the fuck dude!! Why are you calling me this early? I’m still fucking sleepy." I spat over the phone, my voice was already coming off hoarse.
"Have you seen it already?" Kenneth spoke to which instantly caught my attention. Kenneth almost never calls me just to gossip about something that I don’t care about. He usually just waits until we see each other again at school before telling a joke that he had thought of.
"Seen what?!" A mix of curiosity and nervousness swept over me. This must be something important that Kenneth had to call me this early.
"The photos." Kenneth trailed.
"What pho--- oh shit!!!" The verge of sleepiness suddenly vanished. My brain seemed to wake up and it suddenly remembered what happened last night in quick flashes.
While I was under the influence of the lustful alcohol, I may have made out with some random girl at the club. It’s not something entirely new about me but when I heard the word photos I knew I was about to be doomed. I had made out with a lot of girls before but never in those moments that someone took a photo or even a video of me actively doing it. That’s one of the things that scares me the most, someone taking photos of me doing something that might be detrimental to me.
“It’s on Facebuk.” Kenneth added as if I’m not thinking about it. My mind was already thinking it but Kenneth just said it basically confirming the fact that someone posted these photos on social media.
I immediately ended Kenneth's call without saying goodbye and then quickly logged in to my account. My hands were shaking out of the sudden agitation.
Kenneth Sy mentioned you in a comment, my notification read.
“Fuck!!!” I cursed under my breath knowing that this could put me in a bad situation.
I clicked the notification then I was immediately redirected to a photo of me kissing a girl wearing a backless blouse and some ripped jeans.
Who was this girl again? I asked myself as I felt the stress of being caught with these photos. The gears inside my head began turning in hopes of recalling who the girl was. My subconscious had become entangled with what happened last night at Fountain of Youth club; it was a surprise and a little bit strange to me that I got home safely when I’m totally fucked up. I got immensely drunk right after Allyssa gave me shots of vodka one after the other. I tried declining most of them knowing that shouldn’t be fucked up because I might puke but Allyssa was just the super persistent type of girl. She’s not taking no for an answer and it almost made me feel less of a man to say no to her offering the shots.
Those are the only small things that I could remember after I came back from trying to buy a pack of cigarette for the crew. Everything else was fuzzy and even when I try harder to recall what happened, I can’t fucking remember a thing in details.
"Who the fuck is this girl?" I asked myself once again. Perhaps I met her at the dance floor or somewhere but damn she’s sizzling too. How did I even ended up making out with a girl like her? She looks older than me but she’s way too pretty to be making out with someone like me.
I started scrolling down to the comment section and it was pretty wild to read people commenting on it. The comment section was blasted with lots of comments and more of them are still coming.
"F***ing bitch! I'm going to kill her." One comment said.
"This is edited!" Said another one.
"Wow! Jayler, you’re a rock star!"
"The girl looked cheap, I don't mind giving her my credit card."
"Ambitious bitch, I'm going to pour a hot coffee on her face when I see her."
The comments kept on coming as if this was a huge news and it is a big news. Everyone at school knows who I am and everyone knew I was a good boy. I was the good son that everyone wants to be but from this point on, that narrative will now change.
“Fuck!!!!!” I grunted once again and I just shut my phone off to give myself a break.
For a brief moment, I didn't know what to do or how to react. My head felt heavy because of the hangover and with the addition of stress coming from these photos, I couldn’t get myself together. There are a lot of things going on and I can’t even get my head to think straight. Most of the comments are coming from these thirsty girls bringing the woman on the photo down but that’s the least of my concerns. The photos could reach my school and it will be the eventual death of me. Luckily, my parents don’t know I have a Facebuk account so it’s pretty much clear that they haven’t seen these photos yet. At least, I still have some time to get this shit removed. However, if the photos reach my parents then it will surely be a double kill for me.
I closed my eyes and took a deep and long sigh. At this point, it’s very clear that everyone at school had seen these photos. The comment section is going berserk and I felt uncomfortable. I guess it’s a bit of a blessing that today’s a holiday giving me at least a day to prepare to face this shitty scandal.
I don’t regret going out and partying with my friends last night but I do regret taking all of the shots that Allyssa gave me. That fucked me up. That girl was the true devil of the night. I thought I was strong enough to take all of the shots without being wasted that I can’t even remember anything that happened after that.
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LanceDianna’s performance was just as sickening as what we’ve all been expecting from her. We don’t get to see a lot of his performance but every time we do, he’s giving it his all. He performed a total of five songs and probably earned a lot of cash than the next drag queen’s following the line-up. We saw a lot of people really cheering and screaming to her lip-sync performance and they kept on throwing cash at him.I met Daniel, Timothy and Bradey during my freshmen year in college and honestly they were the first group of friends that I’ve met. We just instantly clicked and that was the point where I regret not making a lot of friends back in high school. I was so focused on being the golden boy and being the perfect student that I greatly missed the real thrill that high school life has to offer.I remember those early college days when Daniel was still very much hidden in the
Jayler“How’s your studies going, Jayler?” My mom asked when I got to the breakfast table this morning.It was just a normal conversation that me and sister go through once every week so it was basically expected. My mom’s always asking and checking on us every chance she gets.“Good. Everything’s doing great.” I replied which was certainly the case. Everything’s doing great at school and there’s absolutely nothing to hide. Well, except for the stuff that I’ve been doing, the partying and all of that shit.“Are you sure about that?” My mom uttered expressing her uncertainty.“Maaaa, you know I have been doing good at school. You’ve seen proof time and time again.” I replied slightly annoyed that she was unsure of me when she clearly knows that I haven’t sucked at school. She had see
JaylerFor the rest of the period, I couldn't focus on anything that Mrs. Wanson was saying. Everything that’s coming out of her mouth sounded gibberish like she just came somewhere from planet Mars and decided to do teaching. My mind was helplessly conquered by the thought of being expelled. I know the letter doesn’t literally say that this was my last day at school but the thought of me being potentially expelled out of this school was killing me from the inside out.I have seen this scenario playing out in my head and honestly, I was pretty much certain that it won’t happen at all. But I didn’t realize it was actually going to happen even having the smallest chances of actually happening. I don’t really have to know the reason for the letter of expulsion coming in because I’m a hundred percent that it was all because of the photos that were posted online. That’s got to be it. I can’t think of anything else other than that.I’m very much aware that a lot of people saw the photos and
JaylerI stared blankly at the vintage looking crucifix hanging idly at the door of Sister Salvador’s office. The crucifix appeared as if it’s been hanging there for over a century or even more than that. It’s definitely looking not that dusty, perhaps it’s been receiving far better care than most of the other crucifix hanging at every classroom.I wondered how many head nuns have been here before the time of Sister Salvador.Was she the first and only cold-hearted nun to ever become the head of this Catholic school?My heart began to race the moment I raised my hand to knock on the door. It became apparent to me that I’m not ready to face this moment quite yet. Still, I don’t have any other choice but to face this rather than delay it.I paused for a moment and closed my eyes. I tried to search for a bit of courage and I may have found an iota of it. For once, I was hoping that the head of this school will cut me some slack and hopefully doesn’t end up pushing the expulsion. I took a
JaylerThe day ended horribly, and I’m pretty sure my face was a moving visual of pure devastation, with the sad and frustrated aura overpowering me. I was trying my best to shake the anxiety but no matter how I distract myself, there are other thoughts that are quick to take over and I always end up circling back to square one. When I went to meet up with Jasper and Kenneth at the usual spot where we always wait for each other and hang out before going home, I noticed the pitiful look in their faces.“You guys, you need to stop looking at me like that.” I expressed my utter disapproval of them looking as if I just experienced that worst shit that could ever happen to me. To be perfectly honest, this was the worst experience, however, I might have to end that sentence with the word ‘yet’ because I’m pretty sure this isn’t the worst that could happen to me.“We just feel bad for you, man.” Jasper replied.“I know, but it is what it is.” I mumbled as I took a seat on the slab of cement
LanceI went home last night feeling a bit relieved about this lingering thought and feeling that somehow something heavy has been lifted from my heart. I may have shed some tears, I don’t quite recall what happened but the bottom line of things was I felt a rush of relief. I know it’s just a temporary thing but I wouldn’t be that one greedy person to ask for more. Having that conversation with Daniel was just the break and kind of a pep talk that I needed just to get through this week.I was highly expecting to have a really horrible hangover after having a blast with my friends and I was exactly right. I woke up on the left side of the bed, almost at the very edge and on the verge of falling over. My head was banging and the dehydration was unbearable that I had to crawl my way to the kitchen to get something to drink.By the time I got to the fridge, I grabbed the whole pitcher of ice cold water that I just stored when I got home drunk. I was really wasted but I still thought of pu
The three of them left Bradey who was enjoying the company of beautiful girls grinding with him. He surrendered to his bed and pleaded for the mercy of sleep to come and rescue him butit won't just come. He began thinking about what he said a few hours earlier, at first it sounded funny and even more insane but it could possibly be the solution to his problem. Dating a man.He was always open to the idea even before he met Samantha, but he couln't just take the risk without properly thinking about it, plus he wasn't gay at all. Day by day, he is losing every singledrop of hope he had to the point that he is starting to become desperate. The thought of getting old alone was squeezing his spinal cord; he never wanted to be left alone in this world like her mother.Richard was sitting taciturnly in front of his computer monitor, tapping away the keyboard, and while sipping some of the Matcha he bought from where he worked, he did not turned hisfocus away fro
After the kiss everything went crazily awkward yet it felt like doubled heaven. However there had been no clear apprehension of moving from sleep to consciousness or if he did ever had the chance to sleep at all. At first he was just lying around eyes wide open firmly fixed above the idle ceiling. Usually things always do sink in as swift as a blink of an eye but now it actually took about less than twenty-four hours for him just to fully process and accept everything that happened. It's sure is real and it was wild, hungry, ardent, and awfully wrong in a way yet he wanted it all.He needed every second of it.Not that he was regretting it or something but it sure opened the closet to the realization of how sexually confused he is. Jasper and Kenneth kept on asking him about when will he ask somebody out, or when will he fuck somebody and as a response he was just telling them words of wisdom. It was obviously hilarious but, even if you consider how smart he is, he jus
Kenneth's increasing excitement almost gave a successful infection to Jasper and Jayler, as soon as the lazy tattooed bouncer let them in without even having some second thoughts or even laying an eye to verify their legality, they started moving with the funky beat playing within the background. Clearly, even a nine year old kid could tell, they seem to resonate sheen light of minority within them though, in the most teenager sense of thinking, they dressed themselves plausibly in accordance and tried to be as oblivious as possible. They were successful about it, no one noticed and even if someone actually noticed they wouldn't give a damn anyway. They were just having fun and having fun means breaking rules, or at least that's how teenagers believe it to be."Oh lord I’ve got to admit I missed this damn place” Kenneth whistled.“Are you fucking kidding me Kenneth?” Jasper blurted in response while giving him a disbelieving glare.“Well, yeah I was here yesterday and the day before t
The long and tiring day finally reeled to an end, Richard arrived at his unit at exactly eleven pm with the thought of Jayler actually staying in, and as usual like yesterday and the day before that,there was no sign of Jayler to be found. He was not fine with it, he doesn't understand why or how did something like this be happening to him but he felt like just being with him soothes allthe sores of a tiring day, but he has to be fine with it, and of course realizing the mere fact that his shift ends at 10 pm, Jayler probably had gone home, he has some parents and a sister toworry for his safety. He has a family, a sweet thing that he had once. And this is Friday night, and Friday nights were supposed to be the youngest of the young nights for him, and even if heis already at the early stages of getting real old to this crappy life, he and his friends still have the finest time to seek pleasure with their party people mindset. The clamorous thought of feeling
Friday came crashing down like a tremendous blazing fireball of blessing, aside from the mere fact that Fridays were always a blessing, it was the last day of Jayler's three day suspension andafter that he can finally return back to school. He woke up very much delighted with the idea that it was all over at last, and, just like the fresh and lustrous morning light, his smile was the brightest.He took the shower with such ease and pleasure while singing some part of a certain song, humming happily into its funky and perky beats and later on doing some awkward dance moves.He arrived thirty minutes earlier today at Richard's condo unit, appearing quite youthful and reinvigorated as ever. Purely for his own amusement, in the high spirits of this stirring and exciting day,Jayler had been trying to act accordingly, keeping himself pulled together, as he found how endearing Richard could be, who based on the sole evidence of his bachelor upbringing have sethi
It was past ten before Richard arrived at Fidelitea. This was the hour when he found Fidelitea most lovable; the shop was not yet the busiest, the smell of fresh teas making its way to invadehis nostrils never failed to relieve his accumulating anxiety, and he was so eager to kick start the bright day with his indefatigable enthusiasm bolstered by the good night sleep he mustered.Though, a thousand of trembling hearts were beating restlessly in close proximity within this heaving ancient mall, and many of them, after all, would be aching in agony but his heartache wasfar worse than theirs. Considering all of the things, whether all of the good or the bad, that happened in his past, he was impotently reduced into nothing but an incapacitated marionette madeout of fragile skins and broken bones with a deplorable heart from stitches of mismatched parts from varying textiles that were scraped out from the anguishing memories of all of his past lovers.Strang
"What the fuck is that?" He mumbled quietly, precisely questioning what was that that he just felt earlier. His heart was still fluttering like a butterfly until now. The stare was still like the oddestfive seconds of his entire life, it was as though a moment from a romance series where the lead actor accidentally stared at his leading actress and the time suddenly went into a slow phaseof motion happened to him. This was, as far as he knows, the very first time that something like that happened and it was undoubtedly unexplainable that made his heart tramble, jerk and flutter.He walked out of the shower room then went to dress himself. Hardly aware that he had moved, he found himself lying motionless back in his own bed in which he had spent the latter of thecold night, slowly and lazily scrolling down onto his social media accounts. Fortunately, thanks to several groups of fandom that follows him, the girl who posted their kissing photos receivedmyri
Denny was promptly fished out from the short film of bittersweet memories that he was virtually viewing in his mind by a loud ring coming from his cellphone. He came to his sense and tardilypicked up the call. It was Bradey."Hello?""Where are you?" asked Bradey."At home, why?" His voice was soft and broken."Why you sound like that?" Bradey asked inquisitively."I'm watching Korean drama" Denny lied, he doesn't want to but it appears that Bradey doesn't remember that today is Jesse's death anniversary."Oh, I didn't know you watch those stuffs" Bradey knew that Denny hated dramas and he was baffled that Denny is watching Korean dramas."Now you know, now can you please spit the reason why you called because I'm really busy crying about this sick drama" Another lie. Denny truly hated dramas, too much that without beingaware of it, he became one."Er, I just want to ask help from you""Proceed""I'm calling here fr
Jayler decided to stay outside of the guidance counselor's office. He was quivery and unsteady; he kept on moving around, back and forth, doing random things that he thought might keephis nervousness down. Anxiety was sending several swift arrows of thoughts inside his brain. Can Richard make a good bargain with the guidance counselor? Will he be successful? Will hebe convincing enough to act as his uncle? All of it was softly and slowly killing the very most of him and the longer he waits, the more queasy he gets. Slowly, he was losing the dull light ofhope he have and was already on the verge of detaching himself from present towards the future of what will probably happen to him. Finally, the squeaking sound of an opening door awakenedand pulled him back to his sense."How did it go?" The uneasy anticipation of a good answer forced him to run instantly in front of Richard."Shush" Richard shushed him, pulling him into the farthest corner of the b