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Chapter Thirty-four
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After Nikolai said those words he left in front of me and left me. I hurried to follow him but he didn't look at me even when I called him, he just kept walking until he disappeared from my sight.
I stopped walking. I went there and sat on a swing, there are no kids here now because all the kids are in school. It is fun maybe goes back to childhood, you care nothing but just playing with friends.
I looked at the calm sky, clouds are seemed moving in one direction. I closed my eyes at wished for better days. Since I met my classmates, every day feels like hell. They made me feel like I don’t deserve to be in this world. Like I am some kind of trash. At first, I don’t have a clue why they treat me like that but I have realized that they are insecure about me, they envy me a lot because I can do something that they cannot do.
I went here to study, to become a nurse in the future. I want to study at pe
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XIENNEI looked at them annoyed because I knew they were accusing me. It is true that I killed two of my classmates but I did not killed the others. I am not the perpetrator of the accidents. I may really have the intention to retaliate, they are not wrong about that but they don't have to blame me for everything.“Why are you looking at me? Do you think that I am taking revenge on you and that I am responsible for everything?” I asked.“It is not like that, Xienne. We’re just thinking of possibilities. We never forget that we have done something wrong to you so we can't help but think that you are taking revenge,” said Clark.If they hadn't oppressed me then, it wouldn't have happened now. It wouldn’t have gotten to the point where I had to kill just to get revenge on them. I wish they had just befriended me, I wish they had just been kind to me. I am full of wishes and hopes but I couldn't do anything.
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XIENNEI quietly followed George, it was four o'clock in the morning and he had just finished work at a convenience store. I don't know if he still sleeps well because he is a student during the day and works at night. He looks very drowsy based on his appearance and he doesn't seem to know anything around him. It will be morning but it is still dark. I was wearing a hoodie jacket and its hood covered my head. I also look everywhere to see if there are any CCTVs. I saw nothing but outside the convenience store he worked at and I tried not to went through the camera so they couldn’t see me.George entered an alley causing me to smile, there was only one house at the end, his house. I heard the news that George is an orphan, his parents died in an accident when he was in highschool. His parents was supposed to go to his graduation from work but could not make it after their car was hit by a ten wheeler truck. What a tragic.
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XIENNEI can see you from behindYou can hear me in your mindNow I know what is my favorite song. It always plays on my mind. There's something in the lyrics that urges me to kill. Kill everyone who degraded me."Will you stop singing that song? Creepy head," she said. No matter how hard she tries to be brave, I know she's afraid.I laughed. What a pitiful creature? This is her last day, won't she make anything good? Say anything nice to me? She's facing her death now."Psychopath!" she shouted."Indeed, I am."I licked the knife I am holding. I tasted the blood. It's tasty, I'm thirsty for it.Run so fast as you can goTime will catch you before you knowYes, run until you can. Run as long as your feet can standstill. Hide, Beatrice. But I can't promise that she can hide well. Ther
A Killer’s Diary Chapter Two
XIENNE“Hey? Are you really going to be slow? Hurry up, we are hungry here! ”Clark shouted from their table.I am here at the counter waiting for my order to be served or should I say, their orders. I did not bother to answer him. I waited patiently for the canteen staff to give me the food I ordered.His shout was heard by many students. I am used to it. It is like their everyday routine to order me some things they can really do but chose to make someone do it for them. I'm still confused if it is still normal for a college student to act like a kid.They made me as their laughing stuff. I can't fight back. I do not have enough courage to do that.But that was before.I can play them through my hands. I can make them dumb and fool. I can kill them.Do all the things like this until they can because, in the end, I will make them beg.They wil
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XIENNEA sudden flashback came up to my mind.“You are beautiful, Xienne. But you know what? There is something with you that I didn't like,” said Samantha.I looked at her. Did she approach me in my sit to say that thing? However, I just looked at her. I did not speak. I do not dare to fight back on the things they do. I don't have the courage.She knew in herself that she could not get any answer from me. “You are also smart. There’s a lot of reasons to envy you. But you’re pathetic,” said Samantha.I will never retaliate. Because revenge is only for people with narrow brains, the capacity of the mind is small. I am not that low. I won’t stoop down on their levels.I was so annoyed when she hit my forehead with her index finger.“What? Won't you say anything? Say something. Make me mad,” she said. Emphasizing every word that comes from her fucking mouth.
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XIENNEI went to the dirty sink of the house. There are no left things here. I saw gallons of water at the bottom of the sink. It's good so that I can wash my hands later.I heard the door slowly open. A smile flashed on my lips."Joshua?" said Samantha.I slowly uncovered my head by lowering the hood of the jacket then faced her. There was a look of shock on her face, she did not expect to see me."Surprise, bitch."My two hands are inside the pocket of the hoodie jacket. I am holding the knife inside. I gave her a demonic smile.“What are you doing here? Are you alone?” she asked.“Have you seen anyone else here besides me? No one, right? I'm just alone. Stupid.”His eyes narrowed. She crossed her arms. "I am expecting someone here."She stood u
A Killer’s Diary Chapter Five
XIENNE"Seriously, why do you look frustrated earlier? Is there something that happened to you?" asked Nikolai.We are still here outside of the mini grocery. Silenced enveloped the both of us for I did not answer his question. I looked at him, never breaking it. I examined his whole face that is undeniably handsome though he looks like someone who should not be trusted easily.“Nothing. I just have a very personal problem and I don't want to talk about it. Quit asking.”He shrugged his shoulders and got some chips and immediately put them inside his mouth. He chewed it too noisy that I found it so infuriating.I rolled my eyes. He then laughed which made the chunks inside his mouth go out.Yuck.“What's so funny? And can you please eat cleanly? You're so gross. At least, serve manners while eating,” I said.He wiped the excessed chunks of the
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XIENNEI quietly followed George, it was four o'clock in the morning and he had just finished work at a convenience store. I don't know if he still sleeps well because he is a student during the day and works at night. He looks very drowsy based on his appearance and he doesn't seem to know anything around him. It will be morning but it is still dark. I was wearing a hoodie jacket and its hood covered my head. I also look everywhere to see if there are any CCTVs. I saw nothing but outside the convenience store he worked at and I tried not to went through the camera so they couldn’t see me.George entered an alley causing me to smile, there was only one house at the end, his house. I heard the news that George is an orphan, his parents died in an accident when he was in highschool. His parents was supposed to go to his graduation from work but could not make it after their car was hit by a ten wheeler truck. What a tragic.
A Killer’s Diary Chapter Thirty-six
XIENNEThree days after Sage’s accident, while we were quietly in class, George arrived. He just came in and now he wears his usual smile that is wide enough to see his complete set of teeth, it is as if there he has good news to tell us.“Sage was said to be awake last night, I went there before I came here. He was just stunned and looked so scared, he wanted to say something but he couldn’t say it because he was having a hard time,” he said.Our classmates were immediately thrilled to hear the news. While I'm sorry because Sage hasn't really died yet. Destiny does not want to be with me. Why haven't they died yet?Some of our classmates stood up and said they were going to visit Sage to the hospital today to say hello to him and ask. Didn't they understand what George said that man could not speak. I hope they let him rest first because they still have plenty of time to ask questions.C
A Killer’s Diary Chapter Thirty-five
XIENNEI looked at them annoyed because I knew they were accusing me. It is true that I killed two of my classmates but I did not killed the others. I am not the perpetrator of the accidents. I may really have the intention to retaliate, they are not wrong about that but they don't have to blame me for everything.“Why are you looking at me? Do you think that I am taking revenge on you and that I am responsible for everything?” I asked.“It is not like that, Xienne. We’re just thinking of possibilities. We never forget that we have done something wrong to you so we can't help but think that you are taking revenge,” said Clark.If they hadn't oppressed me then, it wouldn't have happened now. It wouldn’t have gotten to the point where I had to kill just to get revenge on them. I wish they had just befriended me, I wish they had just been kind to me. I am full of wishes and hopes but I couldn't do anything.
A Killer’s Diary Chapter Thirty-four
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XIENNEMonday morning, we were all quiet and waiting for the teacher to arrive when Cozy, one of my classmates, arrived. He seems like came from a fast run. He was breathing heavily now as he held his knees for support. We all looked at him with confusion.He looked nervous and at the same time, shocked. We waited for him to breathe normal and speak.When he calmed down he looked at all of us and what he said next surprised us all.“Clarisse! Clarisse hanged herself in her apartment!” he shouted. “Her body was found earlier this morning by her sister who was supposed to give her foods.”We all stood up because of his news. My eyes are wide, I cannot believe she can do that. Does she blame herself because of Rhiza’s death? I’m sure she really despise herself because of that. I looked around to see my classmates reactions, some of them are in the verge of crying. Some are silent, some are s
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XIENNEA few days later, our lives returned to normal. Rhiza has been delivered to her final destination. I didn’t expect that I would cry. I didn't notice that my tears were already dripping for the woman I had no love for. She is not even my friend so why I am crying? That is the question I had in my mind. I immediately wiped away the tears that dripped from my eyes and left them all there to mourn for the dead.Their tears could not bring back the dead person. The dead woman can no longer see the sadness of the people she left behind. Why are they wasting tears? They just make themselves look stupid.Clarisse has not been in school since Rhiza was buried. No one was looking for her.I don't talk to my classmates because I don't have time to pretend kind and nice to them, they don't talk to me either so it's just fine with me. With the exception of Ace and Clark, they always approached me and talked to me but they never heard an answer from me. I was just q
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XIENNEThe news about Rhiza spread like a wildfire the day after that said ‘incident’ happened. My classmates were shocked when they found out what happened. They mourned for her and they regretted not talking to her because they know that Rhiza has suicidal attempts since then.Clarisse was silent, our class was almost suspended because no professor showed to teach us. Maybe because they know that the student who committed suicide came from us.I just kept quiet while watching my classmates. What I did last night is still fresh in my mind. The guard immediately saw what had happened to her and reported it to the police. They immediately concluded suicide and no foul play occurred.They didn’t know that one of the students was responsible for why the pitiful Rhiza fell from the fifth floor. No one is talking to Clarisse now because most of them are blaming her for why Rhiza committed suicide. It was part of my plan, to make my classmates blame Clarisse. Funny
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XIENNEI just saw myself crying while listening to Nikolai. What was happening in his life was too much pain for him. He really wanted to be free but he did not know how. He is still dependent on his parents and does not have enough money to start living alone. He could do nothing.As I could see the tears welling up in his eyes, it was as if my heart was being stabbed. There seems to be something light there and I don’t know what it is— something unusual. That feeling is new to me. I wanted to hug him but I couldn't move. I could clearly see the movement of his shoulder as he bent down, signaling that he was crying.I just let him cry until he got tired, it took him a few minutes before he finally stopped crying. He adjusted himself as if nothing had happened and smiled at me, he was smiling but his eyes were sad.“Thank you for listening. Your presence is enough to somehow cheer me up,” he spoke.“You're welcome. When you need someone to talk to, don'
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XIENNEThat incident did not put me to sleep. I watched myself, afraid that when I opened my eyes, Beatrice and Samantha, who had been dead for almost a few months, were staring at me.I was just stunned in the bedroom while sitting, I was also shaking and I didn’t know what I was going to do to calm myself down. I had no friends to call, I was afraid they might call me crazy because I had the illusion that I was seeing Beatrice and Samantha.If I only knew this was going to happen to me, I would have just kept quiet and did not kill anyone. I wish I had just let them do to me what they wanted to do. I wish I hadn’t planned to retaliate, but I could do nothing. This is my destiny.I will still pursue my plans and nothing can stop me. This is my only option. I can't take back what I've done, I'll just continue.My cellphone rang. I picked it up trembling from the bed and looked at who was calling. Ace's name registers on the screen.I calmed myself
