Simula

Nanginig ang tuhod ko habang papalapit ako sa gilid ng bangin. Maging ang paghinga ay tila nagiging mahirap na para sa akin. Everything is suffocating, and it feels like it was a crime to do it. With each step I took closer to the end, my hands shivered in fear.

My mind went blank, and my tears blurred my vision. I look down at the rocky end of the cliff as my heart hammers inside my chest and reality sinks in. I swallowed hard as my gaze settled to the dark sea. The dead end.

If my head slammed into those huge sharp rocks, would it be really painful? Waves of laughter filled my mind because of that thought. Why was I behaving so foolishly? You're fucked up, Reign. The cold wind of night puffs against my skin. Hanggang dito ka na lang ba, Reign? I know you're more than this.

"Come on! Are we going to stage any more dramatic scenes here? I can't wait any longer! Jump off the cliff, or I'll shoot your head! You choose!" An irritating voice screamed in frustration. She's impatiently waiting for my end. I didn't move even a bit. But I was cut off from thinking when something touched the back of my head. For a moment, it made my body completely stiff.

It's a g-gun. It is cold, I can feel the coldness of the metal that sent shivers down my spine. It's like it was made to kill, to kill me; to plant its cold metallic bullet inside my head. I forced myself to stay unbothered, not minding how my knees wavered. I moved my left foot, letting it dangle in the air. And I can feel myself almost stop breathing.

"Yeah, that's right, now move your right foot," she said, her devilish laugh creeping me out. What now, Reign? I assumed you wanted it as well. Just be grateful that someone like her is here to assist you. Isn't that what you want? To die just to get out of this hellhole and live your dreams, to die just to get out of this nightmare and live your dreams.

Then why hesitate?

"I said, move! You idiot!" With that scream, everything flashes in my mind, how she has been the villain of my life, how she ruined everything I had, and how she took away everything from me. She took things that were supposed to be mine and made me suffer on my own property. At this very moment, I suddenly feel the desire to live.

I still want to fucking live! When I was going to step back and fight, she pushed me off the cliff. A loud scream escapes my lips as I feel the wind against my skin.

Mabilis akong bumubulusok paibaba, without considering what I'm about to fall into I just stared at her until she looked down on me to make sure I was dead by the time my body hit the massive rock beneath the collapsing waves. Her lips formed into a victorious smile, satisfaction drawn on her face. It was as if she had succeeded in clearing the thorn out of her throat, as if she had breathed a sigh of relief when she had finally finished what she thought shouldn't be in her life.

Tears escaped from my eyes as I struggled not to fall, pero sino ba ang niloloko ko? Wala ng paraan pa para hindi matuloy ang pagkahulog ko. And upon realizing it, I slowly shut my eyes as her image remained in my mind.

Ipanalangin mong mamatay ako matapos ng gabing ito, dahil kapag nabuhay ako, babalikan kita at ipaparanas ko sa 'yo ng mas higit pa ang lahat-lahat nang naranasan ko!

Babalik ako...

Crisanta Muffin.

And right after I said that, naramdaman ko ang pagtama ng likod at ulo ko sa isang matigas at matalas na bagay.

I started to feel a searing pain in my back. It's like my body was torn into pieces by such an impact. I drowned deeper, the water engulfed me, and my body became paralyzed to the point where I couldn't move a muscle.

I can hear a painful sound, tila tunog ng nasisirang makina na bumibingi sa akin. My head aches because of too much pain, I tightly shut my eyes. The pain is unbearable. I almost lost my senses.

I badly want to struggle and swim, but I know my body has given up. My body has reached its limit.

I have completely fallen.

________

I woke up from a nightmare.

Another nightmare? No, because it's the same nightmare I've had since the day I woke up three years ago. My head ached as I moved and made my way downstairs.

Dumeretso ako sa kusina at uminom ng tubig.

Anong oras na nga ba?

3:45 am

Agad kong naikuyom ang kamao ko at mabilis na bumalik sa kwarto at nahiga. It became my routine, matutulog, mananaginip, magigising ng bandang alas tres bababa ng kusina at iinom ng tubig, titingin sa orasan at babalik dito sa kwarto hindi para makatulog ulit.

Napatulala lamang ako sa kisame habang pinapakinggan ang tibok ng puso ko, kasabay ng tunog ng orasan na para bang sinasabi nito na nauubos na ang mga oras ko.

Different memories flash in my mind.

I shut my eyes and got up from my bed and walked towards my window. Hinawi ko ang may kakapalan na itim na kurtina at bumungad sa 'kin ang madilim na labas. Pinagmasdan ko lamang ang paligid, habang tumatama sa 'kin ang liwanag ng buwan. The cold wind touched my skin, I closed my eyes and let myself drown in the feeling of peace that I've always wanted. But then again, in this kind of world, I don't think I could still have it.

This is the best part for me.

Kung saan wala akong ibang maririnig, na tila ba lahat ay napapagod din, lahat gustong magpahinga, sa nakakapagod na umaga, papalipasin ang gabi bago magsimula ulit ng panibagong yugto sa buhay nila. Magsisimula ng panibagong ingay na maglalaho rin.

Everything in this world has an end, even happiness. Do you know what the thing that will never last in this pathetic world is? It's the greed and cruelty of its people.

A desire to be powerful among all beings. Some people are blindfolded by lies, beautiful lies that the world has made up. Without knowing the truth and harsh reality, that this world is selfish, full of deception, greed, and manipulation.

Who would be happy to live in this kind of world? Well, Of course, those people who live in their fictitious kingdom and identity. Those who have a kind of determination to make a change in their lives. For fame, fortune, and power. Believing that money is the most important thing.

Look at how foolish people are and how cruel the world is-executing crimes just to have the life they want.

Some people yearn for justice and fairness, but none of these things exist. They say no one is above the law, that every individual, no matter how wealthy or powerful, is equally subject to the law, but we all know that's one big fat lie. Many people pretend to be deaf and blind to see and hear the reality behind their walls. Laws exist solely for those who can bail their asses out. Laws are just for those who have power and wealth to escape them as if they hadn't done anything.

I only open my eyes to see the sunrise, that iris of fire, so beautiful in its mascara of pure light. It blooms across the horizon, like a golden petal spreading out into the deep blue. My lips curled slightly, and I chose to close the curtain before turning my back and entering the bathroom.

After taking a bath, I walked inside my walk-in closet and chose my very unwanted and unattractive clothes as I did my morning routine. Pagkabihis ko ay agad na rin akong bumaba at lumabas ng bahay, and when I was about to ride my Ducati Panigale V2 when someone appeared in front of me.

"How long do you want to run away from me, Reign Mcdemort?"

Pursed lips, closed brows, a deep set of enigmatic steely gray piercing eyes, a pointed nose, black piercings, and messy gray hair greeted me. When I realized who he was, I groaned.

"Sage Frost, how have you been?"