All Chapters of When Regret Isn't Enough: Chapter 31 - Chapter 40

Amanza stirred as the temperature dropped even further as the night went on. While still sleeping, she felt chilled to the bone. She had no idea how long she had been sleeping in the cold cabin until she suddenly awakened! Her eyes popped open as she heard a strange roaring sound. She sat up, looking around. Amanza realized there was no Holland. Fear immediately overcame her because she was almost sure she had heard something.Listening carefully, only to be reminded of the blizzard outside, pounding in its fearsome but quiet way. She realizes it isn't anything but the storm itself until you hear the strong stormy gust of powerful winds. But she wondered where did Holland go. ‘Maybe he went to sleep in the bedroom.’But strange noises could be heard, which wasn’t like any sound she had ever experienced. ‘So this is what it's like being in a blizzard!’ Amanza, with rattled nerves, curls back up on the sofa, wrapping her arms tightly around one of the pillows. It gave her a sense of sec

Amanza sat there in this unintended place, time, and position, gazing at every inch of him. His intense magnetic pull caused her to vocalize her emotions and attraction to him willingly. Holland's bare flesh drew her closer to lhim as she lean against him and whispers in his ear, "Holland, is it possible that I still love you? What are these feelings?”Only the light from the fireplace shown on his beautiful upper body and gave off an amber glow. He looked so appealing and appetizing. Amanza could not withhold the emotions or tears from falling at the thought that she could have almost lost him. Getting a grip on herself, wiping her tears.She undressed him, wrapping his neck in a dry, warm towel. He was exhausted! Holland had not opened his eyes once since entering the house. Removing her leg from around him, she realized that she had to remove those wet pants."How do I get these wet pants off?" Hesitating and hesitating to touch them.Amanza convinces herself to be brave. 'After a

Amanza stood in the doorway, watching him prepare the food. The delicious smell of breakfast filled the cabin. She couldn't wait to taste what he had prepared. He intently watched the food as he stirred and flipped the eggs while calmly telling her what he needed next:“Baby, I need our plates.”Hearing him call her baby initially felt odd and uncomfortable, but Amanza decided to relax and enjoy the moment. It made her think about what their marriage should have felt like. She permitted herself to smile inside whenever he called her baby and promptly responded, “Coming right up!”They sit in front of the fireplace and eat breakfast together, stealing glances at one another. Amanza struggles with all her mixed feelings.“Holland.........either this is tasty, or I'm starving."He slides closer to her, his knees touching hers. With each bite she takes, he smiles. Holland enjoys the movement of her mouth.“I'm never going to be able to finish my food if you are going to stare at me like th

“How can you say that? The very reason we are divorced is because you let Susie interfere in our marriage and life. And now she's having your baby. What a month for now! Holland, it sounds like the cycle has been repeated. If you think about it, isn't that how Collin came along?"Holland hung his head."You are right, Holland; apples don’t fall far from the tree. You're exhibit A,” Amanza stated, staring at him.Holland shook his head no, feeling ashamed. For the first time, his eyes were opened in a way that had never been before. He never thought deeply about what had occurred and that his father was equally at fault for demolishing his happy childhood. He felt awful about allowing the same thing to happen again in his marriage to Amanza."Amanza..." He took her hand, holding it tight. Holland was grateful she didn't pull away. "Honestly, I never gave it a thought. I feel so embarrassed that I allowed this to happen again."Holland knew any sane man would want Amanza as their wife, a

The most adventurous thing Amanza ever did was marry a man without her father's approval, and then she had to hide her identity. Now, that feeling of being adventurous was returning, and she wanted to do something she might regret later. But her curiosity was begging to be let loose. She moistened her lips and became more straightforward with Holland, making it easy for him to follow his heart."Uhm, well..." Holland said excitedly as his heart thumped inside him. Hoping she was about to be all his for tonight. But he doesn't want to let go of what he's feeling right now. It doesn't want the feeling to be temporary. Or just one perfect night. “The storm will be over, and we will leave here in the morning. And I don’t know if you’ll wait for me or even return to me. I want to know that before we go any further.” Holland told her honestly.“Boy, the tables have turned.” She chuckled. “This is a discussion a woman usually has with a man. So, you’re saying what we have right now isn’t wha