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39. Is It Over
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The most adventurous thing Amanza ever did was marry a man without her father's approval, and then she had to hide her identity. Now, that feeling of being adventurous was returning, and she wanted to do something she might regret later. But her curiosity was begging to be let loose. She moistened her lips and became more straightforward with Holland, making it easy for him to follow his heart."Uhm, well..." Holland said excitedly as his heart thumped inside him. Hoping she was about to be all his for tonight. But he doesn't want to let go of what he's feeling right now. It doesn't want the feeling to be temporary. Or just one perfect night. “The storm will be over, and we will leave here in the morning. And I don’t know if you’ll wait for me or even return to me. I want to know that before we go any further.” Holland told her honestly.“Boy, the tables have turned.” She chuckled. “This is a discussion a woman usually has with a man. So, you’re saying what we have right now isn’t wha
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Before Holland could respond, Susie had flung herself into his arms, hugging him around his waist. Though heavily pregnant, she is aggressive, forcing herself on him. Limber and enthusiastic, she pulled him over to the couch."Take it easy. How are you feeling?" He asked, looking at her stomach, which is eight months. "I feel fine. Now that you are back home. I prepared a nice candlelight dinner for us.”“I’m not hungry.”"Come and have a seat at the table anyway. Let me pour you a drink?" "No! I said I'm not hungry! Do you ever listen to me?!" Holland said as he stood for a second, glaring at her. He was agitated and struggling with whether he should just say it. But every time, he looked at the roundness of her belly. He decided to relax. He took off his jacket and sat back down on the sofa.Susie came and sat close to him. "You've been gone for two days, and I had no idea whether you were hurt or in a hospital. Are you glad to see me? Me and the baby missed you. I was so worried
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Holland stood in the foyer with his suitcase, ready to walk out, and he stared at his mom standing in the doorway."What are you doing here, Mom?"Susie comes storming to the front door, wailing, holding her belly as if Holland had hit her in the stomach."I called your mom and told her how you were treating me and talking insane right now and that you want to leave me and this baby!” “Is this true, Holland?” His mother asked sternly."Susie, what impression are you trying to give my mom?! Mother, this is between us! Mom, we are two adults, and we have gotten things straight. Look, Mom, I think Susie is a nice girl, and like I told her, I was once in love with her before she ran off with my friend! I don’t think we will ever have that kind of relationship again. So it's time for me to move on.” “What about your baby? Who will be here any day now? My grandchild. Holland, this is real life, not some high school fling where you can break up with a girl when you don't like something. Th
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Wobbling with her large pregnant belly, yelling. "Wait! Wait, Holland!" She yelled in a panic. The fear of her leaving the house with nowhere to go was her main concern. Susie ran behind him to prevent Holland from walking out on their relationship. She headed out the front door, running down the long sidewalk in her Jimmy Choo slippers and robe flying open. Eight months pregnant! Susie refused to believe it was over, yelling at the top of her lungs."Holland, wait! Don't go!" But he kept walking, refusing to acknowledge her. Now, she went from hurt to angry at being ignored this way. She yelled after him, taking off her slipper and throwing it at Holland's back."Then go! I don't need you! You will never see this baby!" she shouted, Irene, Holland's mother, had her head snapped up, fear in her eyes as she stood in the doorway watching the awful scene.Nothing mattered anymore. Holland shattered Susie's dreams to pieces! She yelled, calling Holland all kinds of names under the sun!
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Holland spent time living in the lake house. He would wake up and start each day the same way. His first thought was that cozy cabin he shared with Amanza. It’s cold, and they’re snuggled under the down comforter. Her body is warm and soft as she sleeps in his arms. The scent of her shampoo surrounds him. A smell he loved and missed. His body responds to her nearness. Anytime he’s awake and naked with her, he’s ready to claim her.He could feel his hands move over her flat belly, up to her breast, toying with her and awakening them instantly with his touch. How badly he wanted to see and watch her reactions, but he was disappointed each morning. He’s not in bed with his wife. He’s alone, aching, and waiting for time to pass. The woman he has come to recognize that he loves beyond reason, to the point of blindness to a fault, is long gone. She divorced him, and now she doesn’t know if she will ever be able to forgive him. “Wait, that’s not true. I know she didn’t sleep with me, leavin
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“Deja, I know me. I won’t tolerate no family being involved in my relationships. Girl, you know I’m outspoken. And if he’s anything like his brother, he could keep stepping. I won’t let anybody treat me like I’m less than them. No point intended.”“Trust me, I didn’t take it that way. And Holland was so different at the start of our marriage. But Collin doesn’t have the same issues that Holland has with the family. The family has disowned Collin, and Holland is the beloved older brother. I think they all mistreat Collin because of the dread of stepmother syndrome. I would put my head on a chopping block, and she’d be behind the wedge between Collin, his dad, and Holland. Holland still has his issues, but I think that can be improved with time.” “Wait a minute. Why do you feel that way? Have you been talking to Holland, missy?”Amanza smiles. “I know my ex. He is a made jerk, not a born one. I just have a hunch. Collin is a good guy, and he’s open-minded. Hey Olivia, he said for me to
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"Hi, Deja." The masculine voice said with a hint of reservedness."Hey Collin, how are you?" “I’m okay.” “Thanks for inviting me out to dinner. I know this must be about Olivia, right?” She says, still staring at him strangely."Deja?" Collin calls her name.“Uhm, yes,” “What’s wrong? Why are you staring at me?”“O,h nothing."Ah, where are my manners?" Collin says, quickly standing to pull out a chair."Here, have a seat."Amanza takes a seat, still staring at him. She didn't know if Collin wanted to talk about anything serious with her or if he was just looking for a good time with his friend. But he wouldn't get anything from her that went on between her and Holland if that’s why he asked her for dinner."I ordered you a glass of red wine. Would you prefer white or something else?" "No red is fine. It's usually what I drink," Amanza says, still staring as she raises the glass to her lips. Collin sips his tequila, smiling nervously and showing a hint of curiosity about her behav
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When Regret Isn't Enough 80. The Invitation
Holland rolled over onto his back. "You mean we should get married again?" He chuckled. "Why baby, we are legally already husband and wife.""Yes, I know, but honestly, did you mean those vows when you said them to me?"The stress came over his face. His mind was in the thralls of making love for the first time in three years to his deliciously sexy wife, and now he's being stopped dead in his tracks! And he's a little bit shaken at her suggestion."You just said you would do anything to prove that you love me, and if you are sincere, I want to start over Holland. The first time was sudden, and it was a sham on your part. This time ,I want us to be seriously committed to one another and for everyone to know.""Is this everyone, meaning Susie Hubbard?""Especially her, Holland. You talked to her tonight and didn't mention anything to me. Other than what you thought I wanted to hear."He glanced at me. By the way, I held a frowning gaze with a healthy dose of curiosity and mistrust. Hol
