I’ve lost all sense of reason. That’s the only explanation I’ve got for my actions. Two days ago, I made out with Aidan and let him finger me in a coffee lounge. And now? Now, I’ve not only kissed Isak but did so ON CAMPUS! I don’t want to think about how many people beyond his nephew saw us. I’d been doing so well, and I let myself give in to the feelings and need Aidan’s touch elicited. And now I’m on a slippery slope. And no, I don’t mean that as a pun. I’m not making punny sex jokes. I’m not Silvercloud or André. Logically, I should’ve been glad Harris showed up. However, I wasn’t feeling very logical and was mentally punching the Nephilim for his intrusion. Isak’s kiss was different from Aidan’s. I expected that. An incubus demon and an angel were bound to have different styles. And while they are best friends, they have very distinct personalities. Aidan kissed like it was a battle, not complaining because Pam was right. We flirt-fight, so it made sense our kissing would be ano

I didn’t want the date to end, even if I knew it should. We were at the natural conclusion of the date. Plus, if it ended now, I wouldn’t potentially end up in a situation where things could heat up with Isak like they unintentionally did with Aidan Friday night. I don’t know if I can trust myself alone with Isak. If I could lose control and let things get to where they did with Aidan, I wouldn’t want to think of how far I might let things go with Isak. I’m not saying I’m more attracted to Isak than Aidan. They are very different men. It’s like comparing apples and oranges. I like both fruits and for various reasons. Being alone with Isak is dangerous because his mannerisms and this whole date make my emotions out of whack. I can’t let my feelings run things, and I know if he gets me alone, they’ll be harder to shove down. It was already a struggle during dinner, especially at dessert, when I wanted to lick the bit of the cream from the corner of his lips. Yet despite all the logic