CRYSTALI'm running.That's all I can process right now. Each time I blink, there's tears in my eyes, blinding my vision and making a veil like the one John had put over me throughout the years.No, he didn't do that.I did! I refused to see. Even when I saw the signs, I turned the other way, afraid of letting him go, afraid of what'll happen if we go our separate ways.I was afraid that it wouldn't be me. He wouldn't come to me, he wouldn't pick me. I wanted it to be me. How could I let him go after all the years I've invested in our relationship?I rush to the parking lot, heaving with deep loud breaths as I get into my car. I fumble with the keys, my hands are shaky."Come on, come on, come on- ugh!" I'm biting my lips, quivering as I step on the gear and drive out with a force.With this knot in my heart and stomach and how the tears can't stop flowing, I know I'm in no position to drive but I put that last. I have to get home fast.I gave up everything!Everything! I'm the disgrac
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