What are these feelings? Frustration? Agony? Anger? I don't know but all I can say, I am being torn inside. His voice earlier wasn't familiar. Very unlikely unfamiliar compared to the previous tone, that I am familiar with. All of our previous conversation with him through my phone was kinda normal, I would say. But it wasn't soothing, still, I fell in love with him immediately. However, now, the voice was unfamiliar, heartbreakingly unfamiliar. Why? And how?Was he acting with me? Was he using his fakeness to keep a healthy relationship with his father? By betraying me? I don't know. I can't think of any positive answer as well. He is abandoning me. That's all, my heart is screaming. I am pathetic. I don't deserve a healthy and happy family. I don't deserve to be someone's only one. All the time, why did he have to act like a gentleman? That face with endearment, those gentle touch with care, the way, he tried to hide his embarrassed face whenever he held my hand. What's with a
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