Two years

More pain in my heart than in my body as I walked into my bedroom. With the tingling pain in my elbow, and being unable to step on the floor, I somehow made myself in.

Behind me, No one was there but my father-in-law who respected my wish.

I am thankful.

However, as soon as I got myself in, I felt the clutch of my husband who followed me inside without making a noise and closed my eyes.

" Why did you act tough? To show everyone that I don't care about you?"

He snorted with anger. But I didn't respond. I am just too tired to deal with this.

" Oryx! Look! I know I am not in a position to talk. But I want to clear myself. I have no intention of carrying the relationship further!"

Pain washed over my heart when he spoke. He has no intention to carry on. Does that mean he is going to abandon me finally?

" Why?" I asked quietly.

" What did you say?"

" Why did you act like a gentleman? Why did you play with my heart before you married me? Why did you agree to marry me in the first place?"

I yelled, not being able to stop myself from asking lots of questions. I need to know. I have to understand his reason for being an a-hole.

" You don't know?"

" No. I don't fcking know. Do you know how long I had to wait? I didn't want to be in love with anyone but my husband because I wanted to call him mine. As my only family. Why did you use my feelings if you didn't have -"

" Ask your parents!"

He shut me before I could break down. Do my parents know? About what?

" What are you talking about?"

" The marriage is nothing but a convenience Marriage. Do you think my father or your parents are happy to see us marry each other? No. They are happy because they can get what they want. We both are victims of -"

" I don't care. If you know everything why didn't you tell me everything? Why did you act so passionately."

My heart is breaking into pieces. It's screaming that everyone is fake. Everything is fake.

" It was fun."

" Marquis!"

" There is no need to talk about it. Even if it wasn't an arranged marriage, I wouldn't have married you. You aren't my type. So divorce me. I will send the paperwork after three months!"

"Divorce? You can't say that. Why can't we just try to make it up and fix our marriage? We both are married already!"

No. I can't divorce him. Even if I am nobody to him. But he has already become an important chapter in my life. I am in love. So in love that I don't know how I am going to live without him.

" Sorry. But I have someone else who I am in love with. Don't waste your time! Leave and find your right one!"

" Marquis! Please. You don't know how important this marriage is to me!" I begged.

If I get divorced, I will be killed without any hesitation. My Mom will destroy everything.

" It doesn't matter to me. Do you know why?"

My entire body felt a shock that hit my brain and heart. I couldn't believe my eyes when I looked at the phone screen when he held it in front of me

" My daughter. She is two years old. Although my parents don't know. But I wanted to make sure you understand me. Of course! You don't want to see a family being destroyed because of you!"

Haha!!! That's right. I should have known that what I wish that never comes out as true. I wanted him so badly.

But I have become someone who doesn't have any chance to stay with him in the end.

" Two years!" I spoke...

" What did you say?" He asked coldly.

" I need two years. After that, I will personally divorce you!" I said in a serious tone. This marriage is important to me. Die or protect the marriage.

" You must be kidding me!" He scoffed.

" Then I will tell my parents and yours right now about the divorce!" I threatened him looking directly into his cold eyes.

I am determined. I am not going to divorce him until I can save myself. I'm scared. I am terrified. I am lost. Right now, this marriage will help me to get out of the hell that has cut my wings.

" You are threatening me!? This is so cheap."

" Why do you care!? Also, I can tell everyone that you have a daughter and lover yet you married me!"

" Enough!!" He growled at me.

Seems like I hit his weakest point. Yeah! That's great. I am going to be the villainess in your life. Not only I will save myself but also I will disappear from everyone's life.

" Fine!"

He sighs, rubbing his temple. I am pretty sure if he could, he would have killed me.

" Only two years! You are going to divorce me right after two years. During that period, you can stay in that Villa you are in now. You will get a monthly allowance and other facilities. Just don't cross my road!"

I didn't expect him to agree so easily. But it's the plus point.

" Fine. Between us, from today, there has been nothing. Even if we meet family gathering, I won't disturb you."

I nodded at his every word. Although His words are like sharp needles pricking my soul in the worst way.

" Fine then. Treat yourself!" He said, leaving the room.

I wanted to kiss him, hold him, hug him, and cry when I fell. Sharing the footsteps of our ages, watching our kids growing up slowly and beautifully, holding his hand, and spending the rest of my life. I dreamed of all of them.

But everything is shattering into pieces in front of me. The person I like is standing in front of me. But I don't have any right. I want to say that. Please love me. Please love me for once.

But I know that Love can't be happened by force. His beautiful eyes don't sparkle for me. His heart doesn't beat for me. His beautiful smile doesn't belong to me. His sleeping face doesn't belong to me.

I am envious of that woman. She is lucky. Lucky to be the mother of his child. Lucky that she can see him walking up next to her. She got his goodnight kiss, his morning kiss, and his all love.

How lucky! Does he smile when he looks at that woman? Does he hug her when she cries? Or calm her down with a soft kiss on her forehead? How does he show his affection?

Does he touch her face and brush her lips? Does he choose her dress too? I can't think anymore. Why couldn't I be that girl? Why?

And I never got the answer. I am not perfect. I also have some secrets. Maybe that's why God doesn't think I am going to be the best option for him. Maybe, after all, I wasn't the best in any aspect.

.......

" How are you feeling?"

When I looked at my Father-in-law, suddenly the same amount of hatred I do have for my parents, filled my heart.

Aren't we human too? Don't I have the right to choose the life which we want to lead? Why are they designing our lives the way they want?

We aren't some experimental toy to play with. Yet, because of their greediness, we became the sacrifice.

" It doesn't hurt, Dad! Anyway! We made up. Marquis told me that I can live in his penthouse and he will visit me anytime!"

I lied. I need to stay as calm as possible to leave.

"That's great news. I knew my son wouldn't leave as soon as he found you beautiful!"

" Yeah. My daughter likes your son too. That's great"

Everyone is fake. Everyone...

" Mom! Can we talk? Privately!"

I looked at her coldly. She looks away and laughs at my words.

" Sure! Baby."

My Mom looks at me annoyingly. But it doesn't affect me anymore. Right now, All I care about is myself.

" What is it? We can talk later. Are you going to humiliate me in front of everyone?"

She growled as she didn't like when I talked to her coldly in front of everyone.

" I need to talk. You said you would give me the address once I solve everything. Everyone is happy and satisfied. So give me the address!"

" What address? Do you think just marriage is enough? Who knows if you mess up in the middle? Let your father-in-law pass the election first. Then I will let you know about the address!"

" Mom!!!!" I shouted. She is crossing her line and breaking every promise.

SLAP!!!!

" Lower your voice! Girl. Why are you so excited to know about your sinful results? You should be ashamed and silently wait. Listen to me. Oryx! If you dare to disturb me before the election, I swear to God, I will make sure you never get the address!"

Can I curse on my mother? Can I promise myself that I want to see her downfall? I'm hurt. I am hurt. And every pain I am enduring is turning into hatred towards them.

I don't know. But one day if I can't get what I am looking for. I will kill them and then myself. I swear.