Lahat ng Kabanata ng Hating to love you: Kabanata 31 - Kabanata 40

Aneesa's point of view"Heyy babe please open up the door.... let's talk about it please" I heard Xander plead for the umpteenth time,since I looked myself inside the four walls of the guest room.I was currently confided in the guest room for close to the third day now and refused vehemently to get out of the room, cause I could not stand seeing Xander's face,as it only did as much as infuriate me further.It made me hurt to the core of my energy that I was doing this to myself,but what hurt more was the fact that I still felt like my stupid heart still loved him regardless.I knew I had to leave the apartment,but what I didn't know though was where exactly I was going to go if I left the apartment,as there was know one I really knee that well.I would have gone to stay at Reena's,but I could not do that because I could not stop the continues feeling of betrayal I felt anytime I thought of her and what she had done to me.I suddenly heard the door bell ring,which indicated that someo

Xander's point of view"Thank you very much Andrew.....I would be very grateful if you could help me find her, cause I do not know how I would be able to cope without her" I said finally before hanging up,not at all Caring if I sounded desperate in anyway.I suddenly heard the door bell ring out and went to open it,as I already had the idea of who it might have been even without checking it who it was."So what ever where you explaining over the phone.....i hope it be me that did not hear you correctly" she said immediately she stepped into the house, totally forgetting any pleasantries as it was not really important at the moment,and moving on to the main issue at hand was exactly what was needed."I can not find her" I said simply, trying my best number to to talk or think more on the situation, cause I felt like it was tearing me apart gradually, even though I knew very well that it was not possible that I would not ponder on the issue at hand."And what the fuck do you mean by tha

Anessa's point of viewWhere do I go from here?What next do I from here?That was the thoughts that consistently consume my brain.It has been three days since I had left Xander's house out of anger and I still did not have the slightest idea of where exactly I should be at the moment,and I could not call someone to be able to get a place to stay, cause asides from the fact that I had left my phone atop the table and had made sure to destroy the Sim thereafter,I did not also have anyone to reach out to even if I had the phone in the first instance.I groaned as I felt pain suddenly surge through my back region, coming from the impact of having laid on the hard floor in the open air consecutively for the past three days.I would not lie to the fact that I felt totally uncomfortable while laying on the floor for the past three days,I could not deal with it anymore and I knew I needed somewhere comfy to rest my body even though it was just temporary or I felt like I could loose it."Ex

Aneesa's point of view"Heyyy....so how have you been doing Anessa?....hope you are enjoying the ambiance of the orphanage for the time being?" I heard Mrs willer ask which earned her a smile from me.I was currently in the refectory where the children in the orphanage, as well as the staff in the orphanage."Very well....but I have been better though" I say wondering how my life got from good to worse in just a blink of an eye."So want to tell me what is going on?" I heard her inquire while giving me a smile making me know that she cared about how I was feeling at the moment."Nothing" I say simply shaking off my head as I was not in the mood to talk about all the drama that had been going on in my life very recently."Are you sure ?...... cause it definitely does not look like that to me" I heard her say again showing that she did not at all believe what I had just said to her."Yeah I am sure it's nothing" I say further,but deep inside me I felt myself start to contemplate if I sh

Anessa's point of view" It is just crazy and overwhelming the mixed feelings i am getting for this trip I am about to embark....I know I should leave and I am going to leave, cause this country has caused me more heartache than love on all my years of existence" I said hurriedly while I had the courage to do so, before I could stop my self from saying it out loud." How is it even possible,that my heart still yearns for a man, that treated me nothing like a human being with feelings,but just like a pun in some game of chess he had been playing with his friends" I continue, with pain in my eyes and hurt very obvious in my voice." And now about to get on this plane which is nothing more than an hour away, I find that I wish to see him again, even though it was just for a mili second, I know I am crazy right?" I hear myself say while chuckling lightly without any form of humor laced within it. " No you are not....infact it is only normal, you loved this man with every fiber of your be