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Hating to love you chapter 40: Goodbye....
Anessa's point of view" It is just crazy and overwhelming the mixed feelings i am getting for this trip I am about to embark....I know I should leave and I am going to leave, cause this country has caused me more heartache than love on all my years of existence" I said hurriedly while I had the courage to do so, before I could stop my self from saying it out loud." How is it even possible,that my heart still yearns for a man, that treated me nothing like a human being with feelings,but just like a pun in some game of chess he had been playing with his friends" I continue, with pain in my eyes and hurt very obvious in my voice." And now about to get on this plane which is nothing more than an hour away, I find that I wish to see him again, even though it was just for a mili second, I know I am crazy right?" I hear myself say while chuckling lightly without any form of humor laced within it. " No you are not....infact it is only normal, you loved this man with every fiber of your be
Hating to love you chapter 41: Building hopes
Xander's point of view"Get the hell out of my office" I screamed obviously very pissed off at the man currently in front of me at the moment.My mind flashed to when I had seen his call earlier in the morning, I remember how happiness had surged through me just at the thinking of the fact that I had finally been able to trace or locate where Anessa had been hiding exactly.*FlashbackI groaned when I heard my phone suddenly buzz from the top of my coffee table, hissing as regards the fact that I could not help but get ticked off at the fact that I was awoke with another hang over, I moved my hand sleeping across the table to try to get phone from the table." Hello?" I inquired as I checked the wall to see the time on the wall to see that It was 5am in the morning, wondering who exactly it was that had the guts to call me as early as that time, I answered the call." Good morning, may I be into Mr Weston?" I heard the person inquire from the other side of the phone which made me squi
Hating to love you chapter 42: Get the hell out of my office
Xander's point of view"Good day Mr Xander Weston and Mr Andrew....How do you do today?" I heard the blonde haired private investigator inquire from me moments after he had stepped into my office, with a huge smile plastered across his face, which suddenly made me feel a feeling of relief at the built up tension that had been inside me just a few moments ago.I mean who the hell would be smiling so wide if the had not accomplished the task he was sent for right?Or so I thought......" Good day to you too.....but not to sound rather rude or anything, but I really do think pleasantries should not be one on the agenda right now....I mean can we just get to reason why this meeting was ever called upon in the first place already?" I inquired while continuously tapping my fingers repeatedly on my glass desk, as the last thing I wanted was for him trying to prolong the discussion with the least of unnecessary things." Seriously Xander?" I heard Andrew say why shaking his head and laughing
Hating to love you chapter 43: Starting all over
Aneesa's point of view" All passengers be ready to land...I repeat all passengers get ready to land" I hear the pilot suddenly say from a distance which seemed to snap me out of my little train of thought,as I suddenly became conscious of the fact that we might have finally arrived at our destination.It was crazy though cause it looked like just it was just minutes ago when I boarded the plane.But then again,who was I decieving right?It was not as if I was even conscious about my environment to begin with,as the only thoughts that seemed to parade my brains were thoughts of Xander,which no matter how I had tried hard to avoid kept up coming back into my tiny little head.Snapping back again into reality,as I realized that I was already slipping back into my train of thoughts once again, I sat up against the chair which I was currently sitting in the plane as I patiently waited for the plan to land at the airport."All passengers can now exit the plane" I hear the pilot say again a
Hating to love you chapter 44: what do you mean I'm missing?
Anessa's point of view"So what would be your next plan of action Anessa?" I ask myself out loud as I lay down on the king sized bed that was presently in the hotel I had louged into.The thing is when I had taken the plane,the only thing on my mind was leaving the city which had done nothing but bring me pain,I did not even stop to think about how I was going to fend for myself in this city where I knew no one at all.I cannot stay in a hotel for the rest of my life right?I mean hell I do not even have enough money on me to sustain me through that kind of expenses.Or I would probably just go out to find a job the next day.Heck where do I even start from. I continued thinking internally while made me chuckle out dryly when I suddenly hear my phone buzz in which I squinted my eye to check who it could be and found out that it was miss willer." Heyyy Anessa....how have you been holding up,and how was your flight?" I hear her ask immediately I pick up the call." Ohhh it was okay,at
Hating to love you chapter 45:who the let you in?
Xander's point of view" So what do you plan on doing now?" I hear Andrew say from the umpteenth time today since I had invited his over to my office.I had invited Andrew over earlier into my office to get me distracted as the only thing that seemed to invade my thoughts were the the thoughts on how to find Anessa and the feeling of guilt that continued to eat me up as the minute passed by,but that only seemed to worsen the situation as it looked like Andrew was also bent on not giving me any form of breathing space." I really do not know" I answered sincerely as I breathed in heavily.I also knew I was decieving myself to think that I could get myself a distracted even though it was for a single minute.I mean, how did I even think that possible when the only thing that consumed my thoughts of was the possible things that may have befallen Anessa wherever she was at the moment,also I just had the feeling that if did not find her anytime soon I was definitely going to loose my mind.
Hating to love you chapter 46: setup interview
Xander's point of view " Are you seriously sure you want to go on with this absurd plan of yours" I hear Andrew ask for the umpteenth time today which made me roll my eyes skywards. It's been few day after I had told Andrew about what I had plan to do to find Aneesa and he did not fail to let me know how crazy and absurd he thought the plan to be.I mean,who wouldn't right?I also thought it very crazy but hear I was about to try out one of the most craziest thing in the world yet again. " yes I am...and honestly I would really appreciate it if you stop this annoying complaint of yours and just support me on my quest" I reply wanting so hard for Andrew to support me despite knowing it was another one of my crazy plans yet again. " you really should start taking my advice you know?" I hear him continue almost like he did not hear anything I had just said some moments ago. "Ohhh not again Andrew" I say rolling my eyes as I was not ready to hear one of his Countless advices today, I
Hating to love you chapter 46: Getting a new look
Aneesa's point of view "Are you sure you would want to do that Nessa?"I hear Miss willer ask me again over the phone and I almost rolled my eyes. I was currently in front of salon and I was actually there because I was planning to get a new hair cut.It's not like It was something I was also excited to do though,i mean really did love the look of my brunette hair and the last thing i wanted to do was change the colour as well as the length,but then if would help serve a bit of disguise cause every one was on the look out for me after the interview Xander gave onlineAnd if this would help me gey some kind of privacy back,then i almost do not have any choice at the moment as i was in a very tight position." Yeah I am sure....it's not like I got a better option right?" I ask her instead over the phone firmly,making it obvious in my tone that I had already made up my mind and I was not backing down."Ohk....I mean at the end of the day its your choice right?.....not like I can change
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Aneessa's point of view.What the fuck just happened?Why did I chicken out all of a sudden?I thought I was so happy that he made it back alive,so why do I still feel this uneasy with him around me.What exactly is the problem with me?I mean it is still obvious the chemistry is there,I can feel it like a burning flame which is ready to burn anything that comes into its part.But then why was I reluctant to have sex with him,why does my mind still call me back even though it is obvious that my heart still loves for him?I stay at the balcony while looking through thin air and asking myself series of questions as I could not bring myself to understand why I had suddenly chicken out and ran out on him just like that,but it helped me to realise one thing. Eventhough I badly wanted to forgive him,eventhough my heart was calling out for him and I could not thing of a world without him in it,I was still too scared to be in any sort of romantic relationship with Xander,because no matter ho
Hating to love you chapter 99: I'm not in the mood for this
Aneesa's point of view. I could not help but feel my heart suddenly tighten at the sight before me at the moment. I saw xander along with a lot of tubes connected to his body,almost looked like he was hanging on them for his dear life.No matter how I tried to reason that it was not my fault, I still could not bring my innermost mind from accusing me causing what had happened to him some moments ago." I'm so sorry, I did not mean for this to happen. I'm sorry for only thinking about myself and not even giving the chance to explain things" I say through sobs as I take my hand in his." But please do not dare die on me like this,cause I do not think I would be able to live with myself if you do" I say again, hoping he would hear me even though I was not sure how it would have been possible for him to do that." it's fine,take it easy on yourself okay?" I hear a voice say from behind me and I look back to see it was Brielle, and i could not help but wonder how long that I had been cryi
Hating to love you chapter 98: somebody please help me!
Xander's point of view " Williams?" I ask unable to believe the fact that my brother had been responsible for the kidnap in the first place." yes brother " he answered while smiling evily at me." what the fuck is the meaning of this!" I shout at the top of my voice at the moment as all I could see was red." ohhh please shut the fuck up Xander. What do you expect? That I stand and let you take what I want again like you do every fucking time?" I hear him say with total anger.Hell, if I was angry at the moment then he seemed to be in a rage for some reason I do not even seem to understand. " what the fuck do you even mean?" " So now you would pretend like you don't know right? Way to go Xander " he said while laughing sacarastically as he saw the obvious confusion in my eyes at the moment. " okay fine I would make it clear to you. Since we have been brothers, all you have done successfully is take. You fucking take and you just expect me to be happy with it every fucking time. Y
Hating to love you chapter 97: the kidnap (2)
Xander's point of view " fuck!" I exclaimed as I punched my hand right into the glass frame in my office thereby drawing blood.I could not believe that I had been so stupid by letting Williams cajole me into manipulating a whole company and to think it had to be Anessa's company of all company there where in the world. I knew I had to do something and I had to do it as fast as possible, but I honestly did not know what it was,cause what could I possibly say or do that would want to make her see me any longer.I just had to mess things up when it just started getting better.I move out of the office in a haste catch up with aneesa to see if there is anything I could do to try to make her listen to me to begin with. Not like I had any reasonable explanation though, but I did not want her to leave me just like that.I go to her office but I did not see any sign of her there any longer,as I moved to her assistants desk."Good day sir. Is there a problem? " I hear her say while smiling
Hating to love you chapter 96: the kidnap
Aneesa's point of viewI could not help the continous tears that kept streaming down my face as I tried so hard to get as far away from xander as I could.How could I have been so stupid? How did I even let him get to me. I should have know a leopard never changes it's spot right?. So how the fuck could I have been such a fool to let him deceive me yet again. I suddenly felt a car trying so hard to overtake me,and I could not help but get infuriated as I wondered what on earth was making the driver drive with so much speed and recklessness, I suddenly stop my vehicle preparing to give whoever it was a piece of my mind,as I get down from my car." what the fuck is wrong with you" I say shouting at the top of my voice,and even a blind man could tell it was merely a wrong transfer of aggression. I was suddenly startled when I saw two men with mask covering there faces and also along with very huge physical build moving towards my direction as I prepared to get into my car and run away
Hating to love you chapter 95: what the fuck is this!
Xander's point of view. I woke up smiling as I look at the very beautiful Aneesa that was currently sleeping peacefully beside me at the moment. I could not help but feel fulfilled that I finally had her all to myself and that there was no restriction hindering us from being together,and then something suddenly hit me as I remembered what I had done to get her to pathner with me to begin with.I knew the last thing I wanted her to do was finding that out,so I knew I needed to do something to urgently stop her from finding that out,and I needed to do that really fast.I felt her stir from beside me,as I watch her beautiful eyes slowly open up as she smiled sweetly at me,which made me remember the events of last night.My eyes travelled down to her nipples which was already stiff from probably being arose and I could not help myself, as I dipped my head down and took them into my mouth,while she moaned beneath me." okay I know what you are up to this morning, but I'm sorry to burst
Hating to love you Chapter 94: i love you so much
Aneesa's point of view" you look very beautiful mummy " I hear my son's tiny voice say from behind me as I look at his direction to see him smiling at me.I was still trying so hard to understand why I had agreed to go on a date with him in the first place,but then it was not like I was giving any choice at the moment. " Thank you so much darling " I say while smiles in his direction as I look at the mirror, hoping that I was not looking so overdressed. I heard my subconscious mind speak to me while telling me why I was trying so hard to impress someone I claim to have no liking towards, but I decided to shake the feeling away while trying so hard to ignore it.I hear my phone beep as I look towards it to see xanders annoying name plastered across the screen of my phone." heyyy" I hear his voice say the moment I pick up the phone." I'm on my way" I say simply before hanging up the call,not at all giving him the chance to conclude what he had started to say.I move toward the door
Hating to love you chapter 93: A date
Xander's point of view." heyyy mommy,I had a very nice time with daddy. You should have come with is too" he said happily while grinning from ear to ear,totally oblivious of the growing tension between his mother and I." I suppose you did" she said while smiling and kneeling to his level as she ruffled his hair." of course! dad said we would go out again one of this days,tell me you would come along too. Pretty please " I hear him say to his mother, and I almost laughed because I knew quite well that he was putting Anessa in such a difficult situation and the last thing she wanted at the moment was being in the same space with me." of course darling " I hear her reply through gritted teeth and at that moment I wanted to jump up in the air with joy,I mean it was not my intention to use my son as a ploy to get what I wanted,but that seemed to be the only weak point Anessa seemed to have at the moment. " Thank you momma!" he said while smiling so happily at her" you are welcome. So
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Xander's point of view I was constantly patting my legs repeatedly against my marble floor as I could not help but feel nervous about the fact that I got to see my son today.I mean who would have thought that Aneesa would finally allow me meet him and also very easily,considering the fact that she had vowed to do everything in her power to keep him far away from me.I suddenly hear the elevator bell ring as I could not help but take deep breath as I suddenly felt nervous of the fact that I was officially going to stare at my son directly in the eyes,being that the last time I had seen him Aneesa had made sure to get him to avoid me at every way possible. I stood up on my feet still nervous as I saw the elevator open up to one of the two most precious people to me in the world."Hey..yy how a..re you" I say stuttering lightly,looking at the one woman in the world that that made me very nervous no matter how much I try to avoid it." I'm good" she told me with her face clearly ice c
