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chapter 32: To feel heartbroken
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Xander's point of viewI walked into the apartment,while wondering what changed about the whole scenery of the apartment, cause for some reason I could not bring myself to fathom, something seemed to look odd and very different about the apartment.I squinted my eyes as I noticed a note atop The center table, wondering what it was I picked it up,to be met with worst news I had ever come across in my entire existence.Furrowing my brows,as I cleaned my eyes from invincible dirts,I checked again to confirm if what I had seen on the letter was totally correct of just a figment of my own imaginations.But no what I had seen earlier on was still correct,as I stood in shock staring at the note Anessa had left me, telling me not to come look for her,as even if I did,I would not find her.Trying to process if what I had seen had been absolutely correct,I could not help but stare into space for almost five minutes, before I was able to snap myself out of my little trance,as I felt my feet move
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Xander's point of view"Thank you very much Andrew.....I would be very grateful if you could help me find her, cause I do not know how I would be able to cope without her" I said finally before hanging up,not at all Caring if I sounded desperate in anyway.I suddenly heard the door bell ring out and went to open it,as I already had the idea of who it might have been even without checking it who it was."So what ever where you explaining over the phone.....i hope it be me that did not hear you correctly" she said immediately she stepped into the house, totally forgetting any pleasantries as it was not really important at the moment,and moving on to the main issue at hand was exactly what was needed."I can not find her" I said simply, trying my best number to to talk or think more on the situation, cause I felt like it was tearing me apart gradually, even though I knew very well that it was not possible that I would not ponder on the issue at hand."And what the fuck do you mean by tha
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Anessa's point of view"Will I ever see you again miss Neesa?" I heard sandy say as she looked at me with the cutest puppy dog eyes ever,like she would burst out crying any minute any moment form then.I was currently packing my things to prepare to leave the city, as regards the fact that miss willer had helped me with the raise for transportation had she had promised earlier on."Of course.....I mean, I do not know when though but I am definitely sure about one thing and that is the fact that I would definitely see you again cause I would look for you" I said reassuring her while smiling towards her direction."Are you sure about that miss Neesa?" She inquired while pouting cutely at me, which made me break into a smile as I gathered her in my arms." Of course I am....have never lied to you right?" I continue further trying my best to convince her and hoping against all odds that she would take my word for the truth."No you have not, at least so far" she said as she mumbled inaudi
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Anessa's point of view" It is just crazy and overwhelming the mixed feelings i am getting for this trip I am about to embark....I know I should leave and I am going to leave, cause this country has caused me more heartache than love on all my years of existence" I said hurriedly while I had the courage to do so, before I could stop my self from saying it out loud." How is it even possible,that my heart still yearns for a man, that treated me nothing like a human being with feelings,but just like a pun in some game of chess he had been playing with his friends" I continue, with pain in my eyes and hurt very obvious in my voice." And now about to get on this plane which is nothing more than an hour away, I find that I wish to see him again, even though it was just for a mili second, I know I am crazy right?" I hear myself say while chuckling lightly without any form of humor laced within it. " No you are not....infact it is only normal, you loved this man with every fiber of your be
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