All Chapters of His Soul & His Shame: Chapter 11 - Chapter 20

We were still standing kissing the hell out of each other. Ezra's hands were all over my body squeezing and pulling me closer to his body. I have never felt this good and the main reason behind me feeling more intensity is because of Ezra. I always dreamed of us together, I am his first and he will be mine but he didn't wait for me as I waited for him. My heart broke when he told me about how he lost his virginity to his then-girlfriend. " You feel so good, baby girl," Ezra murmured between kisses and pulled me from the sad thoughts. Ezra slowly pulled my t-shirt and tossed it somewhere in the room. I am not wearing a bra but only standing in my panties in front of him. I covered myself with my hands feeling self-conscious and shy standing in front of my best Friend practically naked. " Don't cover yourself, Fay, not in front of me. You are so beautiful and I love to see you like this every day." He huskily whispered before removing my hands which are covering my boobs from his

I woke up feeling sore and happy at the same time, a smile on my face and warmth spreading throughout my body. I opened my eyes to blinding sunlight creeping into my room. The curtains were opened, indicating someone opened them. The place beside mine was cold, making me confused because Ezra will never leave without saying goodbye, especially when we shared a bed last night. I checked the clock for time, making my eyes go wide, it was already noon, and no one woke me up! Maybe Ezra is in the kitchen making breakfast for me. I got up from the bed butt naked and dashed to the bathroom to take a long warm shower to soothe my muscles. After taking a bath I took out jeans and a hoodie to keep me warm in the chilly weather and applied a thin layer of makeup before going downstairs. I didn't hear anything in the kitchen making me halt in my steps, what if Ezra left me way before I thought! Is he in guilt? Did he regret it? Every kind of thought entered my head making me feel dirty in my

It's time for me to go home and I don't want to do that but I don't have another choice other than to go home. I have to answer the questions my parents will ask because I have never behaved like this before and most importantly I have never avoided Ezra as I did yesterday. I need to come up with a good excuse and a lie." If you need me just give me a call and I will be there." Joanna hugged me tightly letting me know that she is serious. I know that she is serious about it and I am grateful. " I know Joanna and I will give you a call if I need you." I hugged her one last time and stepped inside their garage to get to my car. My phone is still in my car and I don't even know how many times my parents have called or texted but Joanna has talked to them so I am relieved but I am afraid of turning on the phone because of Ezra and I am sure he will leave voicemails and texts. I hopped in my car and reversed it and left the garage waving at Joanna and started driving towards my house. M

Ezra's Pov: I am driving like a mad man not caring about the red lights or even about getting into an accident. How can she reject me like that? How can she push me away from her? And how can she try to ghost me? I can't believe she is the same Fay I have known all the years. My Fay was so sweet and shy and she will never raise her voice on me and most importantly she will never push me away. Something has changed in her and I am planning to find out what changed or who changed her. My eyes narrowed at the thought of someone changing my Fay, Maybe her friend! What was her name? Ah! Joanna, maybe she brainwashed my Fay to behave like this with me but I know Joanna doesn't have that much cunningness to change someone's mind and especially Fay's. I know I may sound like a jerk because of what I did to Fay, leaving her alone in the bed after I took her Virginity. That was a jerk move but I had to do that to save her from me. I regretted it the second my eyes opened, I don't regret

" Yo! What was so important that you called me and asked me to meet you?" Joanna grumbled out, still annoyed that I disturbed her introverted time with herself." Woah! You don't have to be so mean to me, you know!" I muttered slowly trying to make her feel guilty and it worked. Her face softened which was gloomy. A big grin spread across my face."Okay, so where are we going?" she asked with a small smile. I know I am going to change her mood again by telling her about the news that I am going away for the internship. There is a lot of time in our university but still, I can't stay here where I will be getting hurt. I just can't face him, especially after he brutally broke my heart. " You need to stop the car somewhere before I can tell you anything," I said, not meeting her eyes. I heard her gasp." Don't tell me you are pregnant!" it's my turn to gasp at her words. My mouth is still wide open with my eyes wide like saucers. " How can you think that? Joanna!" I yelled out, strikin