All Chapters of IF ONLY: Chapter 31 - Chapter 40

-  Did you miss me? -   “Have you confessed yet?” Joseph asked. It was a short break time in the afternoon. The teacher hasn’t arrived yet thus some students were frolicking around, some even cut class. Joseph decided to chitchat to the listless Wayne. “Nope, it’s none of your business.” The young man replied. He glanced at April which brought a smile on his face. The blonde hair’s bliss returned; it was all thanks to him. He wanted to take things slow, giving her space enough for her to love herself better. He didn’t want to give him an answer but he kept pestering him.   “Come on! Just tell me.”   “I don’t think I’m prepared yet.” Wayne 

- The end of the self-proclaim gang -   The monster within him finally made out. The sense of euphoria while he beats each one them leaked out. The nightmare that he always had came into a reality. He was left nothing but hate and regret towards himself. What can make it worse? Her friend Jill stood 5 meters away from him. Her eyes revealed the state of surprise, after all she saw everything. The ominous laughter and the violence that he showed in the forest where the light weakly passes.     “What have I done?” The sense of defeat and hopelessness. After all he tried to hide his past away, but no matter how deep he tries burrying it. It seems that memories has it’s own way of escaping.     The girl slowly approached him. He didn’t want to see her distraught eyes thus he looked down. Jill held fidgeting hand and said, “Let’s go back. We already finished cle

- The stalker -     Today was the awaited day for her. The date that she asked, just few minutes and she’ll see his face once again. Jill walked in the endless seemingly road. Early in the morning where the sun hasn't fully risen. The two agree to meet at the center of the town at exactly 8 am. She was prepared and everything she needed was in her pouch. Hills and wide array of farm land can be seen. Carabaos and their owners, farmers pulling out weeds and wives delivered food to their hard-working husband. A scenery of the slice of life of the farmers. Flipping pages as she walks vividly, however every sight felt redundant. From afar there was a silhouette of a person, creeping from tree to tree with aura of lust, like a hyaena on a scavenged, he followed Jill from afar. Jill was unaware of the stalker thus she walked clueless of what's to come. The young man wasn't that smart that he followed her closer, the distance betwe

-The True Jill part 2-   “PLEASE!! DON’T DO THIS JILL!” Jm never felt this fear and despair in his entire life. He looked at Jill’s eyes and saw a monster standing in front of him, with the chuckle that could kill him.     “Don’t do what?” The girl looked at her with innocent eyes, as if she was clueless about the situation. “Hehehe, what are you talking about Jm?” The girl giggled, before she intended to expose her bolo examining it carefully. It was sharpened, she didn’t even start yet but JM felt it the slit feeling from his throat. This could be his last day, that what he felt.     “C-come on! We can talk about this Jill, y-you don’t have to do this.” “Do what? What do you mean?” “Don’t make fool of me!”  Jm shouted, he lost his temper from antics of Jill. “You’re going to far”

The confession     “Wish I could take a further step.”  Jill whispered in the dead asleep Wayne who laid on top of her lap. The young man finds her proposal embarrassing but he quickly fell asleep the moment he rested on her soft thighs.   People didn’t seem to bother them. They simply looked like a couple flirting in public terminal, which is common scenario. Plus, it was a busy day for a lot of people.  Jill watched him pant his breath. She played with his soft hair and admire, how he was groom properly. He was in the midst of deep slumber, exhausted. That’s what she describes him.   “I wish you could tell me what happen, but I’m pretty sure you won’t.” She gave him a kiss in the cheeks and giggled. “I hope you’d never notice.” She continued to watch him sleep until he wakes up after 5 hours. They both stayed in the terminal f