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Volume 2: Ch.11
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2024-10-29 19:42:56- Did you miss me? -
“Have you confessed yet?” Joseph asked.
It was a short break time in the afternoon. The teacher hasn’t arrived yet thus some students were frolicking around, some even cut class. Joseph decided to chitchat to the listless Wayne.
“Nope, it’s none of your business.” The young man replied. He glanced at April which brought a smile on his face. The blonde hair’s bliss returned; it was all thanks to him. He wanted to take things slow, giving her space enough for her to love herself better. He didn’t want to give him an answer but he kept pestering him.
“Come on! Just tell me.”
“I don’t think I’m prepared yet.” Wayne
LeGrinchThis chapter feels bland sorry about that. Don't worry I'll make it up in the next chapters!
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