All Chapters of Have you seen me?: Chapter 11 - Chapter 20

____________________________________________________________   Exhausted /ɪɡˈzɔːstɪd/   adjective   very tired. "she returned home, exhausted from work"   ___________________________________________________________________  12  /  08  /  2021     Its that moment….   It is that moment when you know you can no longer go forward. Not because I do not want to , it is because I can not. An unmovable object is implanted in my way , and no matter how much I try I can never seem to get around it. It just stay there ; mocking me as it sees me climb and harshly fall down. It’s mocking laughter p

    ___________________________________________________________________________  Indomitable /ɪnˈdɒmɪtəb(ə)l/ adjective impossible to subdue or defeat. "a woman of indomitable spirit"   ___________________________________________________________________________ 16  /  08  /  2021   “Ready!” I whisper yell to myself. After tucking my shoelaces inside  my blue training shoes , I get up from the floor and straighten myself. Shoe laces are something I can never perfect , no matter how many times I have practiced and no matter how many people teach me ; tying my shoelaces are just something that I can never do. After trying for a few minutes – 3 minutes to be exact – I finally give up and decide to just  tuck them into my shoe so

  ___________________________________________________________________ Night terrors noun plural noun: night terrors; noun: night terror feelings of great fear experienced on suddenly waking in the night.   __________________________________________________________________________  Continued….   Over and over again…I see them doing the same thing to me   Everyday I see them – I lay on the wooden floor and stare out of the window. I see how the days pass me. I watch the sun rise and I watch as the stars begin to twinkle in the evening. Days go by in my dream , it happens so quickly that I can not truly experience the tiredness of the same

  ___________________________________________________________________________ Commencement /kəˈmɛnsm(ə)nt/   noun the beginning of something. "the commencement of the trial" ___________________________________________________________________________ 1 / 11 / 2021 I guess what I am about to do is something someone might call humorous. I mean I think at one stage , I also considered what I am about to do quite silly – but now look at me. It is the first of November – the first of this month. Counting this month , there are only two months left till we all wave goodbye to 2021 and say hello to 2022. At the beginning of 2022 , everyone will make up some goal checklist – or write down something they wish to change about their life , add to their life or even learn something new.

  ___________________________________________________________________________ Alpha female An alpha female is a powerful and successful woman, often in a leadership role. Alpha females are often described as intimidating by men and women alike. ___________________________________________________________________________ 4  /  11  /  2021 One could easily call herself a alpha female – sure , she could lift her head a bit higher , walk with power but does that truly make her an alpha female. Of course it does not! Being an alpha female has so much to do with her mentality. Looking at the mirror once again , I do not see her. I honestly do not see the alpha in me ; all I see is a terrified little girl who wants to hide behind a strong yet caring person. What if that is my problem? What if constantly wanting someone to