All Chapters of Why Are you Still In My Brain?: Chapter 21 - Chapter 30

I love your sweet smile more than I love the coffee smells in the morning. Let me wake up next to you forever, have coffee in the morning, and wander through the city with your hand in mine and I'll be happy for the rest of my fucked up little life. My day starts next to you in your arms; nothing can be enough to tell you how much I love you. Staring at you when I woke up next to you makes me happy, I couldn’t ask more. “Hey, good morning sleepy bird…” I say in a raspy voice. “Good morning baby” Lena stares at me and smiles. “Is it me or we woke up early today?” I say in a slow breath. “Ugghhh… Let me check my phone” Lena reaches for her phone on the bedside. “It’s 6 AM, babe…” Lena says while staring at the phone screen. I yawn and stretch my body “How sweet the morning air is! See how that one little cloud floats like a pink feather from some gigantic flamingo” I say while pointing to the window. “Wow… bu

The sun hits my eyes and the birds sing along; I woke up and realized that I’ve been wearing the same clothes for over 20 hours. I reach the bedside and I haven’t seen Lena next to me, bet she woke up early. I roll over and wake myself “Ughhh…” I'm stretching my body, and my back hurts. I walk to the window and open it so the fresh morning air could refresh the room, I look around from the window and see two small birds in a nest waiting for their mother to come home and feed them, I could felt the little birds and how sad it is to wait for someone that we love to return to us. For the first time, my morning went differently because I woke up without Lena next to me and her kisses. I walk to the bathroom and I clean myself. The freshwater couldn’t erase all pain in me, all pain that Lena just scratched in my heart. I have no idea what should I do… should I be mad at her? Or should I understand her? My mind is full of questions right now… are we in the relationship turn-off phase? I d

I ain’t sleeping in my bed… I can’t get these thoughts out of my head. I am on my way to work… and I listening to music to distract the pain inside my chest. “Ughhh…” Sigh me. The fake scenarios keep playing in my head, it’s like the drama series on TV. I can’t stop thinking of Lena and what happened between us. I parked my car and walk to the office, same as yesterday morning… I’m not seeing Lena’s car here. ”Where the fuck is she” I mumble. I walk to the workplace and I see Alaia sitting at her desk. I come to Alaia and ask her to accompany me… “Hey… would you like to accompany me after work, I need to buy things in Walmart,” I say. “Yeah…sure… I’m about to buy monthly things too” Alaia says. “Sounds good!” I say while my eyes keep looking around the workplace. “Hello… you okay?” Alaia says. “Mmm… yeah,” I say. I get closer to Alaia “Have you seen Lena?” I say in a whisper. “Yeah…

“Unbelievable! You were already cheating on me?” Lena yells as she grips my wrist tightly. “Ouchhh… You hurt me” I say as my left-hand tries to move Lena’s hand from mine. “It’s not as hurt as you did to me!” Lena says as her eyes balls are about to come out. “Jeez… fuck off” I released myself from Lena's grip. “I thought we were on pause!” I say in a high voice. “Jeez, fucking Christ motherfucker… you can’t just decide to fuck the first volunteer that comes along!” Lena yells to me as she points her finger at my face. ”You know…I don’t need a woman who says things like ‘butthurt’ and makes me feel that I’m not a part of her life” I say as I raise my eyebrows in anger. Lena clenches her hand fist and stares at me, she sighs and inhales deeply “Listen…” Lena holds my shoulders as her eyes are looking at me “YOU ARE THE PART OF MY LIFE… YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE” Lena says in a low voice. I look away and sigh “It is, I just don’t feel like I’m part of it,” I say as my eyes point to h

I get up every morning and I never thought my day is going to be a great day, I never know when it was going to be over but today I refuse to have a bad day. My today goal is to spend all the time with the people around me, the ones I love, the ones that I care about, and the ones who always be by my side. You know… when we have each other, we have everything. My family loves me so much… and now I have Lena as the love of my life. I start my day by seeing Lena’s smile… the smile that came out of her face reminded me of the sunshine that shore the world every time we wake up in the morning. “Why are you looking at me like that? And you’re grinning in front of my face like a high school crush” Lena says. “Jeez… is that bothering you?” I state with annoyance and a slightly raised brow. “No… that’s not… I like it and that’s kinda hot” Lena says. “Jeez fucking sick…” Rosa says as she cuts the chicken. “Damn why…? Rosa” I say as I shrug my shoulders. “Please… I don’t want to hear or see you