chapter 5

Arianne's pov

After I send off Deacon, Mico and Trent at the airport for their flight, I decided to hit the mall.

It’s been a long time since I’ve been to such place.

I randomly look and bought some outfits that I will surely need for the future. I mean I’m planning to go to uni again so at least I needed some more decent outfits.

After I’m done shopping, I excitedly look for a restaurant to have dinner.

Few minutes later I enter an Italian resto, I took a table on the corner and ordered my all-time favorite, spaghetti bolognese. And when my food arrives, I happily dig into it.

I don’t know what came through me but when I turn my eyes to scan my sorrounding, near the entrance, I got surprised to see him, Jace, looking like a handsome devil as usual.

Sadly, he’s not alone. He’s on, I think, a date with a gorgeous blonde. My goodness she looks like she just went out of a magazine cover. Not like me in every aspect I guess! 

I felt a tinge of pain is coating my heart at the thought of them being together.

But I can't deny the fact that they look good as a couple.

And how was I to think that his date is probably the right one for him.

I mean I know for a fact that he likes Italy and it’s food so maybe this date and his companion meant special to him.

I wish I could say that I’m happy for him but I’ll just fool myself by then.

Before I let myself make a scene I quickly take some cash in my wallet, left it on the table and silently exiting from this place. I can still feel my tears rolling down as I took a cab to bring me home.

So much for trying to be strong for my loved ones huh!?!!

I spent my days crying my heart out inside my room. If only I could go back to the day that I still have him, I definitely will! But I can’t.

I’ve made my choice, and that is choosing my family over him.

Me and my family will only bring disgrace to his supposedly perfect family and life.

My life has been turned upside down.

The peace and contentment I used to feel before was somehow I realized as a plain illusion.

Everything in my life is surreal. I can never be good enough for anybody!

I just have to breath because I am afraid to cut my own life. And I'm quite sure there are still people who will be heartbroken if I do it. I still have my Dad, Deacon, Grandma and my other relatives in Philippines and also my bestfriends, Kristinn and Alexis!

I continue weeping when I got interrupted by a knock in my door. I quickly grab kleenex and wipe my tears before I say come in to I surely know is my dad.

“hi Dad!” I said smiling to him as he sit at the edge of my bed.

“Yanna you don’t look fine baby! Is there anything I can help you with?” he said worry all over his face.

“I’ll be okay Daddy! I just missed him a lot. But I promise, I’ll get over this.” I said as I look down so he wont see the fresh set of tears that decided to show up in a sudden.

“it’s okay baby! You don’t have to pretend to me. I understand! It’s better if you cry it all out. Don’t keep the pain in your heart baby. Cry and cry, you’ll see one day your tears will be all gone and it means you’re over it already.”

I nodded my head in understanding. “Thank you so much for believing and staying with me Daddy! I love you always!” I choose to say to him before pulling him into the much needed hug I badly needed right now.

“okay Yanna I wont ask for more but please take a rest now, try to sleep baby. Tomorrow when you wake up you come to me and I will show you something.”

“what is it Dad?”

He chuckled at my excitement. “it’s a surprise! For now try to free yourself from all the worries and take a goodnight sleep. Tomorrow will be a better day! Goodnight my lovely daughter!” he said then give my cheek a peck.

“goodnight Daddy!” I say as he take his leave.

I finish wiping my teary face then turn off my bedside lamp.

I close my eyes with a hope of a better tomorrow.

When I woke up the next day, I don’t know, but after crying a lot, I think I’m feeling a lot more better now. Upon thinking about my “surprise”, I quickly fix myself in the bathroom.

“Good morning Daddy!” I chirpily said as I took a sit for breakfast.

“Good morning Yanna! After breakfast I’ll take you to your surprise!” he said excitedly.

“oh my God! Daddy is that mine? Really?” I said in shocked.

“yes! I just thought you needed it you know!”

In front of us is a brand new white Camry. I excitedly come nearer and open it’s door while my mouth is still open with a big grin on my face.

“thank you so much Dad! Can I take it to a test now?”

“but of course my daughter! Your license and some documents are all inside the compartment! You can check it first!" he said grinning.

I just nodded and smile back at him. Then I enter my car and check everything it has. I have my test drive for over an hour.

Thankfully there’s no many cars outside  cause I'm a bit afraid to crash my new car. Well, I haven’t drive a car since I was sixteen so all of these still seems new to me.

When I felt tired, I went home and carefully parked my car inside our carpark.

Feeling refreshed and contented, I went to the kitchen to make lunch for myself because my dad already left.

“so how was it?” my dad asked as we were having our dinner together that night.

“it’s great! Thanks again Dad!” I said grinning widely.

“that’s good! But I also meant your heart Yanna!” he said and winked. “you’re still young you’ll meet more people in the future and maybe someone who will make you happy. Don’t stop hoping for better things daughter!” he said in a serious tone then he reach my hand and squeeze it.

“I’m not sure about it Dad! I don’t know if I can be able to forget him.”

“you two have been hurt by the past badly I know. Are you sure you don’t want to tell him all about what happened then? ”

“that I’m pretty sure Dad! I don’t want to involve him or even his family in this messy life that I’m having. Don’t worry I’ll be fine Dad!” I said reassuring him.

“well if that’s what you want! Anyways, have you check your emails, where are you going to study? I hope you stay here with me baby.” he said changing the topic.

“Ohh you know I would love to Dad. Later I'll check and promise I wont go that far father!” I said winking at him.

When we finished our meal, my father left me and went to his room while I clear the table and wash the dishes.

Then I decided to go to my room and open my laptop to check for some emails.