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Loneliness is my new friend
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2024-10-29 19:42:56"How could you? When you are the problem."
I couldn't believe what he was saying. I was confused and as far as I know, I didn't do anything wrong. But it still hurts what he said.
"I ... I don't understand." I couldn't form proper words because of shock.
"That's the problem. You cannot fathom to understand anything but you just like you do which is frustrating. You will never understand me so stop following me and leave me alone." He said hitting the table with his hand in anger which startled me. I have never seen him get angry with me. He was always sweet and nice to me, so his words hit me hard.
I thought I was trying to help him. I thought maybe me being with him makes him feel a little better. I just... I just didn't want him to
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