36 : "Backstage"Backstage36"Gemma, hey." Gage leaves his arm around my waist and hugged his sister briefly.But her eyes were super glued on me and she wasn't even paying attention to Gage talking and hugging her. The way her serious eyes look at me could kill."I see it that you've introduced her to everyone aside from me." She tells him.Gage looked remorseful before he faced me."This is Tate. She's my... Friend." Gage introduced me to her.She looks at me impassively but I still tried to smile at her even though I kind of have the feeling that she doesn't want me near around her little brother Gage. I just wanted to be polite to her even though I was already nervous as hell deep down inside and even though she makes me feel like she loathes me."Tate, meet Gemma. My older sister." He gestured to her.Gage kept his eyes glued on me and Gemma was looking at me too. I don't know why they're both looking at me like that."Hi." I finally said. "It's a pleasure to meet you." I offere
37 : "First Concert"First Concert37When they went out and sang their first song together, the entire stadium was filled with earsplitting shrieks once the crowd saw the boys. I think I was the only one who was calm on the front row to see them sing on stage while the girls that were next to me and behind me were screaming their hearts out.Gage's eyes were wandering around and he was busy walking around the entire stage. The four of them split to the corners of the stage while Nathan was the one right in front of me. He waved at my direction and smiled while singing. I couldn't say if he was waving directly at me but I was sure enough that he saw me.When the first song came to an end, Peter greeted the entire crowd and asked how they were, everyone answered with deafening screams that almost made me deaf. I see Nathan walking up to Gage and then he whispered to his ear. Gage's eyes began to wander around the large crowd and when he spotted me on where I was, he smiled.He tapped N
38 : "Favor"Favor38I began to pick my clothes from the floor while I watch Gage dressing himself up again. He pulled his hair back as he puts them in a bun, so easily. I put my clothes back on myself while I try to fix my hair too."Whose room is this?" I ask."Mine." He answers as he puts his shirt back on him. "Each of us has our own rooms aside from the group's dressing room." He adds."Can we turn on the light so I can see what you have in here?" I ask curiously."It's not much but... Sure."Then the next second, I hear a flickering sound and the lights turned back on. My eyes travelled to everything that was here and I was surprised to find a three pairs of his boots on the corner underneath his rack of clothes. There was a posh brown couch on the other corner, a small fridge, some candles probably it's scented because it made the room smelled like a spa salon. There was a mini drawer with an electronic kettle on top of it. I noticed that the mess that he pushed off from his t
39 : "Bathroom"Bathroom39I was so confused on what I should do as I sit here on top of the toilet still locked inside this cubicle. I wanna go out of the bathroom. I wanna see if it's really Gage. I wanna know if it's really the Gage Stockholm that I've been looking for the entire night since I came here. But a huge part of me don't wanna be here while they have sex outside of the cubicle where I am.I hear the sound of a belt unbuckling as it clangs as soon as it landed the bathroom floor."Bend over for me." He instructs.She moans.My heart raced quickly when I heard the female moaning. "Argh God Gage you've got a huge cock." She moans."I know baby. Just shut up while I fuck you."I felt my heart pounding hard against my chest, it's like I'm watching porn but it's a porn I don't want to watch. I carefully open my door just a little bit so I can take a quick peek from what's happening outside. My hands covered my mouth even before I could and my tears fell over my cheeks right a
40 : "Paraphernalia"Paraphernalia40I quickly ran to Gage's door as soon as they were about to close it. Once it slammed at my face, I knew I had no chance of going inside.I cursed at myself for still wanting to go beyond that door when I've already witnessed too much from a while ago.But I won't be able to help myself if I won't know what they'll be doing inside Gage's room. It will bother me for the rest of my life if I won't know what is really happening there and what things they are already doing. I might sound creepy or clingy right now and I know I'm not his girlfriend, but from where I stand, I have the right to know. At least.How can he welcome two random girls inside when he hasn't even let me in there?I grabbed the knob and tried to open it. I slowly tried twisting it and to my surprise they were too drunk to lock it, I guess.I sneakily swing it open, hoping they won't notice me entering. As soon as I opened it, thank god the coast was clear. I walk by the dark foyer
41 : "Done"Done41G A G E "Gage! Come let us go. We need to hustle!" I hear Lewis calling out to me.I cuss. "Why isn't she picking up?" I ask myself as I walk inside the plane and settled myself on a vacant chair."Where's your little girlfriend Gage?" Peter asked me as he takes the seat across mine.I glared at him. "She isn't." I chimed instantly. I tried calling her again for the nth time but she isn't picking me up and answering my messages. I wonder where in hell she is. Ryan told me she left him alone last night at the club.Fuck, maybe she waited that long that's why she's mad at me. I thought.I should have gone down to party with her and maybe taken her to the VIP section so she could at least join my kind of crowd. But all those women were so distracting and they were all too hot and tempting me. I couldn't resist. They didn't want to let me go even if I want to.Most especially Jamie.Fuck, she was all over me last night.I can't believe I really fucked her in a public
42 : "Confused"Confused42G A G EMy heart skipped a beat when I read her message over Twitter. I went totally blank for almost five seconds and then I tried to gather my thoughts up with me, recollecting the things that I have done when we were in Indonesia and I can't think of a single thing I did wrongly, aside from leaving her at the club after inviting her over that night.My eyes reread the message she sent me over and over again because I can't believe that she want out from this thing we have. We just started off. We were already having fun. We were even having a good time then all of a sudden she want out that easily? Just like that?@Gage_Stockholm: I don't understand.@tate_kvngh: Then that's your problem if you don't.@Gage_Stockholm: Why so suddenly? Why do you want out? What did I do Tate? Fucking tell me! Stop making me guess things! Tell me straight at my face what I did wrong.@tate_kvngh: Try to get to your senses Gage because there's no need for you to explain thi
43 : "Nine Days"Nine Days43T A T EApril 5, 2015SundayMy entire class was all excited for our Machu Picchu field trip by April 8th, this Wednesday. I mean who wouldn't get excited right? It's Machu Picchu and it's the best field trip her there is. Even I was excited for it too, I even invited Monique over my apartment so she could help me pack my things up for the trip. But sad to say the pregnant woman was no help at all, she was just eating chips the entire time she was here then she fell asleep on my bed.Lately I've been keeping myself busy with schoolwork. I've been trying to catch up with the things I missed at school and aced my exams because I missed a few when I was gone to Los Angeles and Indonesia. Since I left the thing I have with Gage, I didn't want to think about him anymore or the things that happened in Indonesia. I left those bad vibes there and I don't want it back again filling my thoughts.I haven't been updated to my Twitter. I don't stalk him anymore or Goo
FINALEI watch as Tate teach Beatriz in perfectly cutting the cookie dough out of the Santa Claus head shape-cutter. She was asking a lot of questions to Tate if they'd make flower cookies tomorrow or a small chocolate cake the next day. Beatriz had a lot of questions in her mind and I wonder where she had inherited that kind of interest in baking since my mum doesn't really bake, but then maybe this trait must be coming from Tate's mom. She had mentioned that her mom loved to cook and bake and that she was a great cook.As they finished all of it, they began to press down tiny chocolate kisses over the dough and as I watch my five year old little girl having fun making cookies with her mother, I know I've chosen the right woman to spend a lifetime with."Dad! Don't just stand there. Share duties with us. C'mon!" Beatriz calls out.Tate chuckles. "You heard the boss, Gage."I laugh with Tate and jogged my way closer to my two favorite women as I kiss Tate's cheek then she flashes me h
103 : "First Birthday"First Birthday103T A T EMy heart is pounding against my chest as soon as we arrived at the venue. I'm sure that there's going to be trouble because Miller is here. I know he wants to be a part of his daughter's first birthday party but Monique said days ago while we were preparing for this party that she won't even let Miller come near Tarry.I just don't want Miller to be ruining this day for his own daughter. I've prepared days for this day to be perfect and I've tired the hell out of myself the past week just for my godchild. Gage even helped with the preparations too and he even lavished voluntarily money for this event. I know he doesn't want this day to get ruined too. And I can't let Miller ruin this day for both Monique and Tarry."I'm nervous." I say to Gage.Both of us hopped off of the car and walked inside the hotel. He fixes the button of his polo as he pushed his hair back to his forehead and says to me, "Don't worry about it."I exhale heavily.
102 : "Olivia Tate"Olivia Tate102G A G E SPAINThe following morning, Tate showed me around Spain too like how I showed her Cheshire. I've been to Spain before but not as fun as I have with her and I've never been toured this much around this place. I didn't even know there were places around here that existed and I never even knew about it if Tate didn't showed me around. And when we were here, we never got to see Spain that much because we were on tour.Tate showed me off to some museums, some art galleries, magnificent sceneries that truly wowed me, amazing cathedrals, we even went to the school she went to when she was in elementary and so many other places that we enjoyed till we got tired. There were fans who crowded us though when they saw me and walked up to us to ask for my picture and autograph but my good thing Sam and Ryan were there to secure us.By almost six in the evening, Tate wanted to go to this last place that she wanted me to. Of course I wouldn't say no to he
101 : "Kavanaughs"Kavanaughs101G A G E After we had dinner, I was still nervous. Even though I've talked to them and her father seemed nice to me, I am still nervous.With her two brothers.I know they're really worried about my relationship with Tate. I know they don't want me to be with her because of my fame and it will be a great hindrance between us. I know that but I won't let them ruin what I have with Tate. I've already done too much to save us.And I know how families get so overprotective and they're just like Gemma. But they're the boy version of Gemma which is crazy. I know how Gemma gets so worried when I'm seeing someone new because she's worried that the past might happen again and I know how her brothers are also worried for her because she's a woman and that's just normal.I sigh. I just wish they see that I am really serious with Tate."Hey..." I hear Tate's voice from behind me.I stare at her over my shoulder and smiled. I feel her hands holding onto my shoulde
100 : "Spain"Spain100T A T EWhen we landed Spain, a lot of people took photos of us the second we arrived at the airport. We hurriedly got inside Gage's car and quickly drove to my home. Gage has been silent since we landed and he hasn't talked much too. He was looking straight ahead to the road while the GPS was teaching him where to go."Hey..." I placed my hand over his hand that was holding the clutch.He travels his head to me. "Yeah?""You're awfully quiet. What's up?" I ask.Gage exhales. "I'm just so nervous to be meeting your father and your two brothers. Like seriously how huge are they?""Hulk-like." I answer.He gapes at what I said and I could see now how nervous he really was to meet my family. I didn't even know that he was anxious this whole time. He tries to keep his cool after what I said but I really had no idea that the reason why he's been quiet all this time since we got here was that because he's nervous to meet them.I laugh softly."It'll be okay." I say t
99 : "Holmes"Holmes99T A T EWhen dinner was ready, we walked to the dining table to have eat together."Aunt Josie is a really great cook. I must say she's better than mum." Gage playfully says."Don't tell mum I said that." He adds.Aunt Josie and I were laughing together but I as I look at Gemma, she was just plainly looking at me while she was already starting to eat."Oh Gage you always compliment my cookings. Thank you but I think you just miss it." She says while chuckling."No aunt Josie, it is really good." Gage insist.I smile."You gotta try this sweetheart." Gage placed a piece of tenderloin on my plate. "That's a family recipe." He smiles at me."Thank you." I tell him."So, what are your plans tomorrow?" Aunt Josie asks."Well, I'm actually planning on touring Tate around town. I wanna show her where I grew up. I'm also planning on introducing her to my cousins so I hope Jake is around." He answers her."Oh don't worry. My son just got back from university and I'm sur
98 : "Small Town"Small Town98T A T E"Here's your order sweetheart." Gage placed my macchiato in front of me after grabbing it from the counter. I smiled to thank him but I was inwardly distracted.We were sitting inside Starbucks, just having an afternoon date together. It wasn't like it used to and now he'd always sit away from me. We were actually sitting right across each other now and letting all people look over our table. I watch as Gage signed some autographs and talked casually to some fans who came up to our table. I watched him do his thing and I was so amused that he's still so calm at how he treats his fans. No, he doesn't treat his fans as fans. He treats them as if he had known them for so long. "Thank you Gage." The little girls bids goodbye.When his fans had left our table, he turned to look back at me again. "What's wrong?" He asks.I shake my head sideways. "Nothing. I'm just always amused at how you treat your fans."He smirks. "Well they all have a special pl
97 : "Once Again"Once Again97T A T EGage groans as I hear him shifting on top of my bed just next to me. I was facing my back to him while his arm was loosely wrapping around me. He slowly pulls me in as I felt him pressing his self against my body which felt great. I was happy having him here again. I mean waking up so early in the morning having him here just makes everything feels okay. It feels like nothing even happened and us just continued.All of a sudden I felt him kissing the back of my head and it just makes me smile. It maybe just a simple gesture but it shows love. It shows that he still loves me so much despite the shit stuff that happened all these months. And I am so happy just being like this with him. I feel so grateful because he's here and he's just here."I love you Tate." He speaks to me softly. He tightly wraps his arm around me just a little bit quick and it really makes my heart flutter even ten thousand times happier than it already is. I just kept smili
96 : "Eli"Eli96G A G EI have never been mad and disappointed in my entire life at someone this much. I really hate all of the people that composes the Scanty! Management. Eli has always been right since the beginning of this, they're all liars. I can't believe we stayed to such people for a long time and actually trusted them that they can actually give us the real happiness. I was so wrong about them. All of them. They always make us want to lie to the fans, to our family, to the people around us and even to our own selves.They are all so selfish.I know every signed artist has rules to follow because of the contract but I just couldn't believe that I let them rule my life all this time and all these years. I've never been this happier when I signed for Jeff and finally left them. I am glad that he has my back unlike how Scanty would actually do dirty things without our knowing.When I look back at it now and the things that they did to my life and the mess that they've caused n