PROLOGUEHe is different when he's around his billions of fans. He makes sure he smiles, waves, and never forgets to say thoughtful things to all of them.He is different when he's performing on stage. He makes sure that the fans are having fun and makes sure that they are all okay from where they are standing.He is different when he is having an interview or being around the paps. He makes sure he keeps his cool and keeps his life as private as he can.He is different when he is in public, he makes sure he keeps his composure and he is careful with his actions. He knows that people are attentive to his every move.He is different when he is spending time with his family, he is sweet and loving when he is around them. They are on top of his priority list.He is different when he is with his band mates or friends. He makes sure they have fun and stays away from the media doing the fun things they do in secrecy.He is different when the cameras and lights are out. He is different when
1 : "Party""I am sure they're here. If not all of them then at least one." She says so surely as she drags me.I pulled myself away from her and worried about how I looked tonight.A mess.Yes.My blonde hair in a bob cut had streaks of paint at the ends since I just came from our wall painting mural session with my co-boarders at our apartment building. It's like a Friday tradition there, it's where we vent our fits of anger onto mural art. It's cool though. Really one-of-its-kind kind of thing. Aside from the fact that it's highly messy, it's fun.Anyways, I was wearing my old blue denim coverall, a white crop top that obviously had finger-wiped red, blue, and yellow paintings on it, and a pair of worn-out black converse shoes.I looked like a fucking mess and where we were heading?Well, we were heading to this HUGE VIP Party that Monique forced me to go with. She was begging since last week and since she heard her most favorite band, Silver Spade, were going to be here, I'm in an
2 : "British Man"I flinched when a glass filled with alcohol was handed to me. I still kept my head bent down. I was getting nervous about my fake tickets. I don't know who it was but I'm sure it's a man base on his voice.My eyes ran over his arm. He has so many tattoos on his left arm as he holds out the glass. Those were familiar tattoos. I've seen them before. He has a tiny cross tattoo in between his thumb and forefinger. Those rings are familiar too.And damn, that's one hell of a huge hand.I gulped. I wish this man won't be a drunk maniac who doesn't want to fuck or drug me while he drags me upstairs so he can tie me up like fifty shades. I take a deep breath and finally pulled my head up.I think my eyeballs jumped from my eye sockets the moment I found out who it was. I was immensely surprised to see him again, the man who was looking at me while I was dancing alone a while ago.Gage Stockholm.He smiles, and his dimpled smile is very dangerous. If his smile could get me pr
3 : "Superstar"Superstar3A part of me does not want to be with him but another part of me is curious. I want to be with him too even though I try not to forget that he is famous and he is always being followed by cameras around him. I am aware of how popular he is and I am aware of the fact that I am way out of his league to be with him. I mean look at me?Jesus Christ I look like a mess next to this man dressed in branded clothes.But despite that, here I am, casually speaking and drinking alcohol with Gage. To be honest, I have never been entertained by a celebrity as popular as Gage. No A-lister has treated me the way Gage is doing right now because he treats me like I am just his friend. He seems casual too and he does not seem like he wants something fancy schmancy kind of treatment from anyone around him. I know I hate being with him because of so many reasons but deep down inside there is this tiny spark that makes me want to be with him.Even just for one night.Just once
4 : "Skinny Dip"Skinny Dip4"S-skinny dipping?" I ask nervously.It's been seven fucking months since the last time I've seen an actual penis.Gage nods. "Yeah, it's gonna be fun for sure." He says seriously.Holy shit, he's not fucking serious right now, can't he?"Are you crazy?!" I gaped. "I'm not gonna swim naked in front of you!"He grins. "Who says with the lights on?"All of the lights from the room started getting dimmer and my eyes were scanning through the entire place then he begins to pull out some towels and probably those are robes too."Lights off if you don't want me to see you get naked." He says while the lights were already a bit dim."And you're gonna swim naked too?" I ask."Probably. Yeah. That's what skinny dipping is for." He grins at me teasingly.Holy fuck. This guy is such a tease. He's really definitely and undeniably flirting with me. I don't know if I should say yes to his idea because in the middle of this I'm sure something will happen between us. I'm
5 : "Bloody Mary"Bloody Mary5We begin to walk inside the room and obviously my eyes were everywhere while my heart was thumping against my chest, I mean come on its one room with Gage Stockholm for goodness sake! But I think the room temperature is making me even more nervous. It's freezing here or I'm just literally wet and naked that's why it's cold."We're going to share a room?" I ask.Of course I'm worried that I'll be sharing a room with him. I'm naked underneath this bathrobe, and he's also naked underneath his bathrobe. And he's planning on drinking again, what the hell? We might end up having sex if we get too drunk! Surely we won't be able to help ourselves once we feel hot."Yeah. Aren't you comfortable with it?" He asks me as if it was nothing to him.Uhh, hello? Who wouldn't? I know how huge you are but I just met you a while ago. We just met Gage! Of course it's not comfortable to share a room with someone I never knew. I'm not a woman like that. And even if you're Ga
6 : "Doses & Mimosas"Doses & Mimosas6Gage grabs two square-shaped glasses, placing some ice in it and started pouring some Johnnie Walker. We drank it together too and I didn't know that Gage Stockholm was a massive alcohol drinker. I don't remember if Monique didn't tell me about this or maybe I missed hearing this one out or maybe she forgot to mention it but I was surprised that Gage Stockholm loves to drink."One more?" He asks.I whooped. "Pour it up." I dared.He refills my glass and his glass again. We clinked our glasses and chugged it all down. I think my face grimaced because of the after taste.Gage chuckles. "I love that face you make when you drink strong liquor." He says.I cough once. "I feel my throat burning."I stand from my bar stool and walked around the counter, standing next to him."Teach me how to mix drinks." I tell him."I'm not good. I only know the basics.""It's ok. I just wanna know the basics so I can show it off to my friends." I smiled."Alright. I'
7 : "Anonymous"Anonymous7I woke up with something heavy pounding on my head. I felt something was placed on top of my forehead like a cemented brick or something. I groan with pain as I pull myself up from the bed."What the hell happened.." I muffled.I widened my eyes and stared at everything that was around me. I try to look around and then that remembered I fell asleep last night in one room on top of one bed with...I gasped.Gage Stockholm.I quickly moved my head to my left and saw no one there next to me. Gage wasn't here.Was it all a dream?But I was sure that I've been with Gage last night. I was sure that I spent the night with him till the dawn. I was sure we drank a lot last night and we were mixing drinks too. I was so sure what happened last night. It's still emblazoned in my head. I was sure that Gage ate me last night.Fuck.Gage really did eat me last night.I hurriedly hopped off from the bed and felt my stomach churning. I ran to the bathroom then headed to the
FINALEI watch as Tate teach Beatriz in perfectly cutting the cookie dough out of the Santa Claus head shape-cutter. She was asking a lot of questions to Tate if they'd make flower cookies tomorrow or a small chocolate cake the next day. Beatriz had a lot of questions in her mind and I wonder where she had inherited that kind of interest in baking since my mum doesn't really bake, but then maybe this trait must be coming from Tate's mom. She had mentioned that her mom loved to cook and bake and that she was a great cook.As they finished all of it, they began to press down tiny chocolate kisses over the dough and as I watch my five year old little girl having fun making cookies with her mother, I know I've chosen the right woman to spend a lifetime with."Dad! Don't just stand there. Share duties with us. C'mon!" Beatriz calls out.Tate chuckles. "You heard the boss, Gage."I laugh with Tate and jogged my way closer to my two favorite women as I kiss Tate's cheek then she flashes me h
103 : "First Birthday"First Birthday103T A T EMy heart is pounding against my chest as soon as we arrived at the venue. I'm sure that there's going to be trouble because Miller is here. I know he wants to be a part of his daughter's first birthday party but Monique said days ago while we were preparing for this party that she won't even let Miller come near Tarry.I just don't want Miller to be ruining this day for his own daughter. I've prepared days for this day to be perfect and I've tired the hell out of myself the past week just for my godchild. Gage even helped with the preparations too and he even lavished voluntarily money for this event. I know he doesn't want this day to get ruined too. And I can't let Miller ruin this day for both Monique and Tarry."I'm nervous." I say to Gage.Both of us hopped off of the car and walked inside the hotel. He fixes the button of his polo as he pushed his hair back to his forehead and says to me, "Don't worry about it."I exhale heavily.
102 : "Olivia Tate"Olivia Tate102G A G E SPAINThe following morning, Tate showed me around Spain too like how I showed her Cheshire. I've been to Spain before but not as fun as I have with her and I've never been toured this much around this place. I didn't even know there were places around here that existed and I never even knew about it if Tate didn't showed me around. And when we were here, we never got to see Spain that much because we were on tour.Tate showed me off to some museums, some art galleries, magnificent sceneries that truly wowed me, amazing cathedrals, we even went to the school she went to when she was in elementary and so many other places that we enjoyed till we got tired. There were fans who crowded us though when they saw me and walked up to us to ask for my picture and autograph but my good thing Sam and Ryan were there to secure us.By almost six in the evening, Tate wanted to go to this last place that she wanted me to. Of course I wouldn't say no to he
101 : "Kavanaughs"Kavanaughs101G A G E After we had dinner, I was still nervous. Even though I've talked to them and her father seemed nice to me, I am still nervous.With her two brothers.I know they're really worried about my relationship with Tate. I know they don't want me to be with her because of my fame and it will be a great hindrance between us. I know that but I won't let them ruin what I have with Tate. I've already done too much to save us.And I know how families get so overprotective and they're just like Gemma. But they're the boy version of Gemma which is crazy. I know how Gemma gets so worried when I'm seeing someone new because she's worried that the past might happen again and I know how her brothers are also worried for her because she's a woman and that's just normal.I sigh. I just wish they see that I am really serious with Tate."Hey..." I hear Tate's voice from behind me.I stare at her over my shoulder and smiled. I feel her hands holding onto my shoulde
100 : "Spain"Spain100T A T EWhen we landed Spain, a lot of people took photos of us the second we arrived at the airport. We hurriedly got inside Gage's car and quickly drove to my home. Gage has been silent since we landed and he hasn't talked much too. He was looking straight ahead to the road while the GPS was teaching him where to go."Hey..." I placed my hand over his hand that was holding the clutch.He travels his head to me. "Yeah?""You're awfully quiet. What's up?" I ask.Gage exhales. "I'm just so nervous to be meeting your father and your two brothers. Like seriously how huge are they?""Hulk-like." I answer.He gapes at what I said and I could see now how nervous he really was to meet my family. I didn't even know that he was anxious this whole time. He tries to keep his cool after what I said but I really had no idea that the reason why he's been quiet all this time since we got here was that because he's nervous to meet them.I laugh softly."It'll be okay." I say t
99 : "Holmes"Holmes99T A T EWhen dinner was ready, we walked to the dining table to have eat together."Aunt Josie is a really great cook. I must say she's better than mum." Gage playfully says."Don't tell mum I said that." He adds.Aunt Josie and I were laughing together but I as I look at Gemma, she was just plainly looking at me while she was already starting to eat."Oh Gage you always compliment my cookings. Thank you but I think you just miss it." She says while chuckling."No aunt Josie, it is really good." Gage insist.I smile."You gotta try this sweetheart." Gage placed a piece of tenderloin on my plate. "That's a family recipe." He smiles at me."Thank you." I tell him."So, what are your plans tomorrow?" Aunt Josie asks."Well, I'm actually planning on touring Tate around town. I wanna show her where I grew up. I'm also planning on introducing her to my cousins so I hope Jake is around." He answers her."Oh don't worry. My son just got back from university and I'm sur
98 : "Small Town"Small Town98T A T E"Here's your order sweetheart." Gage placed my macchiato in front of me after grabbing it from the counter. I smiled to thank him but I was inwardly distracted.We were sitting inside Starbucks, just having an afternoon date together. It wasn't like it used to and now he'd always sit away from me. We were actually sitting right across each other now and letting all people look over our table. I watch as Gage signed some autographs and talked casually to some fans who came up to our table. I watched him do his thing and I was so amused that he's still so calm at how he treats his fans. No, he doesn't treat his fans as fans. He treats them as if he had known them for so long. "Thank you Gage." The little girls bids goodbye.When his fans had left our table, he turned to look back at me again. "What's wrong?" He asks.I shake my head sideways. "Nothing. I'm just always amused at how you treat your fans."He smirks. "Well they all have a special pl
97 : "Once Again"Once Again97T A T EGage groans as I hear him shifting on top of my bed just next to me. I was facing my back to him while his arm was loosely wrapping around me. He slowly pulls me in as I felt him pressing his self against my body which felt great. I was happy having him here again. I mean waking up so early in the morning having him here just makes everything feels okay. It feels like nothing even happened and us just continued.All of a sudden I felt him kissing the back of my head and it just makes me smile. It maybe just a simple gesture but it shows love. It shows that he still loves me so much despite the shit stuff that happened all these months. And I am so happy just being like this with him. I feel so grateful because he's here and he's just here."I love you Tate." He speaks to me softly. He tightly wraps his arm around me just a little bit quick and it really makes my heart flutter even ten thousand times happier than it already is. I just kept smili
96 : "Eli"Eli96G A G EI have never been mad and disappointed in my entire life at someone this much. I really hate all of the people that composes the Scanty! Management. Eli has always been right since the beginning of this, they're all liars. I can't believe we stayed to such people for a long time and actually trusted them that they can actually give us the real happiness. I was so wrong about them. All of them. They always make us want to lie to the fans, to our family, to the people around us and even to our own selves.They are all so selfish.I know every signed artist has rules to follow because of the contract but I just couldn't believe that I let them rule my life all this time and all these years. I've never been this happier when I signed for Jeff and finally left them. I am glad that he has my back unlike how Scanty would actually do dirty things without our knowing.When I look back at it now and the things that they did to my life and the mess that they've caused n