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Chapter 22: Break free from the cycle of pain
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YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 23: Pursuit
(Divine's Perspective) I never thought I would find myself in this position—seeking justice and revenge against the man I once loved. The pain of Ronald's betrayal still lingers, but it has transformed into a burning determination to make him pay for his actions. As I navigate the complexities of my emotions, I realize that my father, his biggest enemy, may hold the key to unravelling the truth and exacting my form of justice. The remnants of my broken heart haunt my every step. The loss of Ronald feels like death, a deep wound that refuses to heal. But I understand I must let go of the past and embrace the future. It's not easy, but I channel my pain into productive outlets. I find solace in the words of self-help books, meditation, and pouring my emotions onto my journal pages. Slowly, I begin rebuilding myself, emerging more vital than ever. Ronald's actions have left scars, both visible and hidden. I cannot let him walk away unscathed. Determined to bring him down, I turn to the
Last Updated : 2020-12-11YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 23.1: Colliding Fates
Time has marched on since I decided to part ways with Ronald. It has been a challenging journey, but I'm sure it was the right choice. My focus has shifted to my work, and my business is flourishing. While the scars he left behind still ache, I'm determined not to let them dictate my future. Life keeps moving forward, and so do I. Ronald's absence lingers in the back of my mind, a constant presence that I can't entirely shake. I find myself wondering how he's dealing with our separation and if he's come to regret the path he chose. However, my resolve remains unshaken—to leave him and Tola behind and carve out a new way for myself. I owe it to my happiness to step away from the wreckage of our past, even if it means stepping into uncertainty. In the meantime, Ronald appears to have thrown himself into his role as a father to his children and his relationship with Tola. Jealousy pricks at my heart whenever their image flashes in my mind. Yet, I remind myself I deserve more than someon
Last Updated : 2020-12-16YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 24: My father
Dee's Point of View: Growing up without my father was a void I carried for years. It wasn't until recently that I finally embarked on a quest to find him, to unravel the missing pieces of my identity. During my final year of high school, fate intervened, leading me to my father's doorstep. Ronald, of all people, unwittingly played a role in revealing the truth that had eluded me for so long. This past week has been a whirlwind of emotions, ranging from the highest to the lowest. Meeting my father for the first time was both exhilarating and terrifying. It dredged up feelings I never knew existed and shed light on the actions that had shaped my life—actions that were both protective and questionable, yet somehow understandable. My upbringing was defined by my firm, independent mother, who instilled in me the values of self-sufficiency, education, and self-preservation. Her teachings propelled me forward, encouraging me to explore the world and stand independently. Yet, beneath the su
Last Updated : 2020-12-18YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 25: She is pregnant
I paced anxiously outside the doctor's office, trying to make sense of the unfolding situation. How did everything spiral out of control so quickly? I couldn't wrap my head around the events that led to Divine being rushed to the hospital. Finally, the doctor emerged, and I wasted no time bombarding him with questions. I needed answers to understand what had happened to the woman I loved. "What seems to be the problem with her, Doctor Jones?" I asked, my voice trembling with worry. The doctor sighed, clearly concerned. "Well, I've conducted some tests, and it appears she's pregnant. But I'm trying to determine the cause of her current condition." Should we wait for her to wake up and provide more information?" I suggested, desperately hoping for some clarity. The doctor shook his head. "She needs rest. I've administered medication to help her sleep. We'll have to rely on you for more details." Reluctantly, I realized I had no choice but to share what I knew. The doctor needed the
Last Updated : 2020-12-29YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 26: The Aftermath
As consciousness gradually reasserted itself, I found myself ensconced in the sterile environment of a hospital room. The low murmurs of medical professionals drifted around me, their words a distant blur against the backdrop of my fragmented thoughts. My last coherent memory was the heart-wrenching image of my father's tragic demise, a surreal and painfully vivid reality. Struggling to make sense of my surroundings, I strained to eavesdrop on the hushed conversations of the medical staff. Their deliberations centred around medication and treatment plans, their significance clouded by my groggy state. As the haze began to lift, I summoned the strength to address the doctor who stood by my bedside, seeking clarity amidst the fog of my confusion. "What's happening?" I managed to croak, my voice feeble yet tinged with urgency. The doctor's demeanour shifted from concern to sympathy and relief as he responded, "You've been through quite an ordeal, Divine. But rest assured, the procedure
Last Updated : 2021-01-04YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 27: Our connection and intimacy
Ronald's POV: Ever since Dee was admitted to the hospital, my mind has been consumed with thoughts of how life would be without her. She's more than just someone I care about; she's become an essential part of my world. Despite the complexities of our situation, her absence feels like a void that can't be filled. With Tola in the mix, I'm balancing on a tightrope, trying to keep everyone happy while holding onto my sanity. Dee occupies my thoughts relentlessly. She's on my left, slipping away like sand through my fingers. I can't force her to stay, nor can I mend the wounds I've inflicted on her heart. It's as if she's not just pulling away from me but from the essence of the love we once shared. Our connection and intimacy are all dissipating, leaving me with a hollow ache that I can't escape. On my right stands Tola, a woman who once held my heart but now struggles to maintain her grip. Her efforts to keep us together are futile, for my heart belongs to someone else, someone who i
Last Updated : 2021-01-06YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 28
A few weeks later. ...Divine's pov.I have weeks since I came back home but I still don’t feel like home. Tola and her children are around the house. Everything feels wrong. I kinds feel like I am getting in between a happy family. Ron does enjoy being a father to his children. He sure will be a good father to put children as well.The only problem with him is that he’s always away working. I just hope that this week won’t be the same as last week when Ron was away. I am sick of fighting. I haven’t told Ron what Tola did to me because I feel like it’s not my place to tell. I just hope he finds put soon.Last week flashbacks.As I was sitting on the couch with my legs crossing over the other side, Tola's child came and set on top of my legs.“Baby, please don’t sit on top of my legs. I know you like this couch but will you please sit on the other one?” I spoke to the little me
Last Updated : 2021-01-12YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 29: Who is Tola??
I found myself trapped in a whirlwind of frustration and desperation. Every ounce of my being was consumed by the need to win Ronald's affection, but my efforts had been in vain. Divine's unexpected return had shattered the carefully crafted plans I had laid out to secure my future with Ronald, and it tore me apart to witness him being drawn back into her arms. Resentment burned within me, fueled by the belief that the Divine was an obstacle between me and the love I deserved. Despite my relentless attempts to win him over, I couldn't comprehend why Ronald was so infatuated with her. Doubt seeped into my thoughts, making me question the power and effectiveness of my manipulations. Were my actions simply not potent enough to sway Ronald's heart? A wave of realisation crashed over me, and I was forced to confront the harsh truth—I needed to let go of the children I had used as pawns in my desperate game. They had served their purpose as tools to gain Ronald's attention, but now they on
Last Updated : 2021-01-16
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YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 70: TikTok Videos
As I entered our rented house, the sun dipped below the horizon, casting a warm glow across the room. Ronald was seated on the couch, engrossed in a book, his presence a comforting anchor in the tranquil space.I couldn't contain my excitement as I approached him, a smile tugging at the corners of my lips. "Ron, you won't believe the incredible morning I had!"He looked up, his eyes meeting mine with curiosity. "Tell me all about it," he said, bookmarking his page and setting the book aside.Settling onto the couch beside him, I launched into the tale of my encounter with Neo—the shared connection, the laughter, the TikTok videos, and the heartfelt conversations that flowed effortlessly between us.Ron listened attentively, his expression a mix of interest and concern. "It sounds like you had a wonderful time," he remarked, a hint of a smile on his lips."Oh, it was more than wonderful," I gushed, remembering our morning filling me with joy. "Neo is amazing, Ron. We connected on many
YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 69: I wonder
**Time Gap: Several Years Later** The African savanna stretched before me, a vast and untamed tapestry of nature's beauty. The sun's warm embrace painted the landscape in hues of gold and amber, while the gentle breeze carried with it the symphony of nature's melodies—the rustling leaves, the distant calls of wildlife, and the soft murmur of a nearby stream. Seated on a blanket spread atop the earthy ground, I watched with a contented smile as our children explored the wilderness. Their excitement was palpable, infectious as they ventured into the unknown with the curiosity and wonder that only the African landscape could ignite. Our daughter's laughter filled the air as she playfully chased after a mischievous monkey, her eyes alight with youthful joy. Our son's voice joined the chorus as he pointed out the elephants bathing in a nearby watering hole, his face illuminated by the awe of discovery. A short distance away, Ronald worked with skilled efficiency at the grill, the aroma o
YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 68: Consider leaving
The aftermath of the confrontation with Uncle Ben weighs heavily on my mind. The tension in the air is palpable as Ronald, and I sit in our dimly lit living room, surrounded by the comfort of our home. Our children play nearby, blissfully unaware of the storm in our hearts.Ronald's face is a mask of determination, but I can see the flicker of doubt in his eyes. I know he's wrestling with the consequences of the heist, just as I am. We had thought we were invincible, that no one could touch us, but Uncle Ben's actions have shaken that belief."What are we going to do, Ronald?" I ask, my voice trembling with uncertainty. "We can't go on like this. Uncle Ben won't rest until he's taken revenge."Ronald sighs, running a hand through his dark hair. "I know, Dee. I know we've stirred up a hornet's nest, and we must be careful."As I watch our children play, my heart aches with worry. They are so young and innocent, and I fear our actions have put them in danger. We had thought we were prot
YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 67 : Who was it
Uncle Ben's Point of ViewThe sun rises on a new day, but all I see is red. Anger consumes me as I wake up to the shocking discovery of the heist. My prized machinery, the very heart of my power within the mafia, is gone, replaced by a haunting note that warns of consequences. Ronald and Dee, once friends I thought I could trust, have crossed a line they can't come back from.As I read the words on the note repeatedly, my anger intensifies. "This is a reminder of the consequences of crossing Ronald." They've dared to challenge and humiliate me and will pay dearly for their treachery. The rage inside me threatens to explode like a volcano, but I must control it. I can't let my emotions cloud my judgment; I must plan this carefully.Strategic planning has become my sole focus. I know a confrontation with Ronald might be dangerous, and I can't afford to be reckless. I need to strike when he least expects it when he feels safe and secure.Gathering allies is my first step. I reach out to
YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 66: Uncle Ben Down
The sun rises on a new day, casting a golden hue over the cityscape. As I step into the morning light, my mind races with the events of last night's party. The thrills of the celebration and the tension of Uncle Ben's unexpected appearance still linger in the air, and I can feel a storm brewing.I know I can't let Uncle Ben's intrusion go unpunished. My reputation in the mafia is at stake, and I can't afford to show weakness. I need to teach him a lesson he will never forget, something that will remind him of the consequences of crossing me.But as the excitement of the heist plans takes hold, I can't help but feel a tinge of unease. Dee senses my inner turmoil and places a comforting hand on my shoulder. "Ronald," she says softly, her voice steady, "I understand why we need to do this, but let's not lose sight of who we are. We're better than resorting to this kind of violence."Her words resonate with me, and doubt creeps into my mind for a moment. But I push it aside, reminding mys
YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 65: Lets get down....
The sun dipped below the horizon, glowing warmly over the vibrant decorations adorning the house. Guests began arriving at the much-anticipated South African heritage party, their eyes immediately drawn to the captivating tapestries and paintings that adorned the walls. Laughter and chatter filled the air as old friends reunited and new connections were forged. As the guests entered the kitchen, they were greeted by the enticing aromas that danced in the air. Ronald, beaming with pride, served platters of boerewors, marinated chicken, and tender lamb chops, each dish infused with the rich flavours of South African spices and cooking techniques. The guests couldn't help but marvel at the colourful array of dishes, engaging in enthusiastic discussions about their favourites and the unique tastes that defined South African cuisine. As everyone settled down at the beautifully arranged table, their eyes lingered on the African-inspired centrepieces and the traditional woven baskets fille
YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 64: The party preparations
As I wake up on the day of the party, excitement courses through my veins. The house is buzzing with anticipation, and I can feel the energy in the air. Today, we will bring our vision to life and create a celebration that embodies the vibrant tapestry of our South African heritage.I step into the kitchen, where Ronald is already hard at work. The enticing aromas of spices and grilled meats waft through the air, creating an irresistible allure. The fragrant embrace of coriander, cloves, and cinnamon tickles my senses, mingling with the earthy aroma of rooibos tea brewing on the stove. The tantalising scents envelop the room, making my stomach growl in anticipation and filling me with a deep sense of contentment.The kitchen is alive with the sounds of sizzling meats and bustling activity. The rhythmic crackling of boerewors on the grill serenades my ears, accompanied by the sizzle of marinated chicken as it dances on the hot grates. The occasional clatter of pots and pans, the gentle
YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 63: The party details.
As I sat with Ronald at our kitchen table, notebooks and recipe books scattered before us, excitement filled the air. The preparations for our upcoming party were in full swing, and we were fully immersed in the joyous whirlwind of planning."Ronald, let's start with the menu," I suggested, a playful smile tugging at the corners of my lips. "We can't celebrate without some mouth-watering South African dishes."His eyes lit up with anticipation as he leaned closer, his voice filled with enthusiasm. "Dee, this is our chance to showcase the diverse flavours of our heritage, to treat our loved ones to the delicious tastes that make South African cuisine so special."I eagerly flipped through the recipe book pages, my heart fluttering with anticipation as I landed on the section dedicated to traditional favourites. "Boerewors, Cape Malay curry, Malva pudding, Chakalaka & pap, Braai/Shisa nyama, Bunny chow, Amarula Don Pedro, Vetkoek, Sosaties, Sambals... We have a treasure trove of options
YOU MAKE ME INSECURE Chapter 62: The bully I knew
As the car pulls into the driveway, relief washes over me. It has been a long day, and I'm eager to reunite with Ronald and share the unfolded events. I gather the shopping bags filled with the items I've chosen for the upcoming party.Entering the house, I'm greeted by the comforting scent of home-cooked food wafting from the kitchen. The sounds of laughter and chatter float through the air, wrapping me in a warm embrace. Ronald stands at the stove, tending to a delicious meal that awaits us."Hey, honey," Ronald says, his eyes lighting up as he sees me. "Welcome back. Dinner is almost ready."I smile, grateful to be home with my loving family. "Thank you, Ronald. It's good to be back."Our three-year-old twins run towards me, their tiny arms outstretched. I lift them up, peppering their cheeks with kisses. Their giggles fill the room, momentarily lifting the weight of the outside world.After settling the children down to play, Ronald and I find a moment alone in the living room. I
