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2021-11-05 21:36:01"I see that you two were really getting along and getting close to each other."
I did not stop my smile from Sew because it was pretty obvious that what she said was right. And she knows that I have feelings for Jinx. She might now ask about it, but she already know from the start. It was just that she was so good noticing things.
"We have to, Sew. The feelings were mutual, you know," I shrugged my shoulder like it did not made my cheeks to blush.
She agreed. "Yeah, you have a good live life."
"Eh? We were not together yet!"
"But you will soon," she insisted and stood up from her seat. I was about to ask her about something when she turned to me and said, "I will look for my man."
My lips parted when she last say that then headed outside the unit. I know she will be out because of her work but I could not believe she said about her love life. I could not believe it!
I texted Jinx because I was bored. I just finished my class and earli
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"How does it felt like having a partner?" I asked myself. I opened my eyes in shock. My eyes and mouth widened as my heartbeats started pacing. Damn it! Did I just asked about being in a relationship? For real? No way, I was just dreaming! I would not be hunger just for a man! I will not rush having a partner! I shook my head, convincing myself that my mind will be stable, soon. But damn it, someone ruined it again. He mess with my mind. "Gosh, get out of my mind, can you?" I heaved a sigh and shook my head again. I should focus on doing one thing. Not this someone mess with it. I find it unfair. I stared at the paper while holding a pen. I am a bit tired of studying and I had to fresh my mind out. My lips slowly formed a smile when a thought came across. I stared more at the paper and winked. I want to write down his name here and so I did. I was like an idiot girl writing down the name of her crush. And gosh, I was smiling from ear t
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He always do things that he says, and I love him that way.Just like what he said, he will get me after he study. I was still talking to his cousin when he held my hands, making me stood up. He did not even say nothing to his cousin that was grinning and just dragged me off there like a bad boy."Hey, are you jealous?" I asked him with my pursed lips. Lately, he just look so fine but now, it was scary. He was too serious while looking at the road. We were walking towards his car."You look enjoyed with him," he said in monotone. I stared at his face and stopped myself from laughing out loud. Is he serious? Well, he looks but does he sound?"Because he was funny to be with," I responded with my creased brows and looked away from him. Damn this."Yeah, and I am not?""No, you are also funny to be with. Why? Is there something wrong if I will laugh with other men? You know, we were not in the relationship but you act like we were."He st
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I could hear my heartbeats beating so loudly and fast. It was like it would not stop from pumping just because what this man asked me. I did not even see that coming!The cold gentle breeze pass through us, our hairs was pulled aside because of it but that did not stop us from staring at each other. I just want to stare at him the whole time, or even for the lifetime.I would not get tire appreciating him."So, what?" he asked while we were staring to each other. His eyes... His eyes were different right now. It was like begging to get a nice and great answer, and I saw hope in it. That eyes... I would love to stare at it... forever.I cleared my throat and was about to look away from him when he held my chin and made me look up at him, again. He would not let my eyes spill to another. He was so selfish. He just want me to stare at his eyes this time, but after all, I love how being selfish he was. I want to be trapped by him and be forced to just love hi
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I could feel my nervousness and my heart were beating so fast. I did not know what would happen this night. I just wish that this will be over as soon as I can bear because I might collapse here, in front of Mister Adonis and madame Lucia. Damn it.When Jinx asked me about the dinner, I have no choice but to face them. I had to respect them because they were the parents of Jinx. I should and must respect them. They were a parent and they did not deserve to be escaped from.I stopped my hands from shaking and pretended that I was okay here.I will be fine."So, would you tell me if you really love my son?" Madame Lucia asked while raising her brows. I gulped. Jinx was about to say something when I stopped him.I want him to stop from defending me. I will be better. I want to face a challenges alone, because he will not be always here beside me for a support. No one would stay forever."Astra," Jinx warned me but I just smiled at him. I then t
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