Later that night, the guys are taking the meat off of the grill as I finish up in the kitchen. I laid out a blanket in the yard, so that Ricky, Val and Van could have a picnic as they requested. I fix their plates and then carry them outside to them, passsing them out. Ricky runs and gets them each a can of Dr. Pepper that Wyatt bought. I make sure they have everything they need before I move over to the guys at the grill. I watch as Wilder flops the last burger on a plate.
“Let's eat.” Wyatt says, giving me a smacking kiss on the lips, before he heads into the kitchen. I shoot a startled look at Wilder but he looks unfazed by it. He just grins and gestures for me to go before him. Wyatt just kissed me in front of my brother! What does that even mean? I kind of thought what we were doing was more of a casual, don't let anyone know type of deal. Yet, here he is, kissing my
“What? Seriously? Are you sure?” I screech at him, shocked. He must be mistaken. There is no way that we have that much money in our possession. I stare at the money and the papers, hardly believing my eyes. The last thing that I ever expected to happen was for Isolde to show up, bringing us money. The fact that she acted responsible enough to bring documents regarding the kids was an even bigger surprise. Wilder gives you an annoyed look. “Callie, I can count. There are six hundred and twenty one hundred dollar bills. That adds up to sixty-two thousand. Just as I said.” I wasn't doubting his ability to count. I was just surprised that the most selfish person I ever knew was able to do something generous for once in her life. For once, Isolde thought of her children, putting them before herself.
Wyatt looks at me strangely, repeating “Upstairs?” I nod and point upwards. “You know, where my room is?” “Um.. Are you-” “Wyatt. Do you want to? Yes or no? Clock's a tickin'. Think long.. think wrong.." I'm out of expressions now, so I lapse into silence, waiting for his answer. “Of course I do, but-” Oh, good Lord, this boy is going to talk it to death. I grab his hand and pull him up from the couch. “Good. That's more than enough thinking for the night. Come on.” I pull him up the stairs and into my room, shutting and locking the door behind me. The
The next four months of summer flies by, filled with good times and laughter. Wilder cut back his hours at work so he's around more and we were able to do things with the kids. We'd spend the days at the lake, swimming or fishing, laughing and enjoying life. Wyatt would take the kids to his boss's clinic and let them pet the animals. We even took a little of the money and went on a weekend vacation to the ocean. Wyatt went with us, since he's practically a permanent fixture at our house these days. Wilder and I made weekly deposits of a hundred dollars each into a our joint bank account, finally getting all the money out of the house. We haven't seen or heard from Isolde since that night that she came by. We submitted the paperwork she gave us to a lawyer that goes to Grandpa's church. He said it's legally binding, so we are offici
“Um-” I freeze up. Is this when she gives me the dreaded 'talk'? The one I see in movies where the nice mother suddenly tells me that I am not good enough for her son. Where she tells me that he has a bright future ahead of him and that by being with me he is jeopardizing it and that if I really cared for him, I would cut him loose? “Well-” “I think it's wonderful that you two are finally together. I've thought for so long that the two of you would be perfect together. You are such a sweet and loving girl and he's so, well, himself. Besides al that, he has liked you for years.” She breaks off, giving me a huge smile. “I guess what I'm saying is that it's about dang time.” “I thought you'd think-” I stop. I'm so surprised by her words that I don't even know what to say. “I thought you'd think that I'm bad
Three days later It is the first time that I have left my room in hours. Or days. Grandpa asked me to come with him and I know he needs me. Not that I'm going to do him any good. I can't offer him comfort or support. I can't offer him anything. Instead I sit quietly beside him as he handles the arrangements. The funeral director gives me a curious look before he turns to Grandpa. “I was advised by police that it is best to have a closed casket for-” He looks down at a paper on his desk - “Wilder.” He clears his throat. “With the extent of the damage done, it is in the best interest that there are no viewings.” My whole body tenses at his words and I want to scream out in pain, but I can't. I have no more tears or sc
Hearing these words are like a knife to my heart, kill ing any last hope that I had that this was all just a huge mistake. Hearing these words breaks what little part of my heart that has remained intact into a million pieces. Tears brim in my eyes and I try to blink them back. His words ring in my ears, taunting me for my stupid belief that maybe this wasn't really happening. "Wilder passed away.." I stand up and rush from the living room, heading upstairs to my bed. Behind me I hear my name being called but I ignore it as I flee. I have to make it to my room before I break down. I just have to make it through the service without breaking down, I keep reminding myself. This is the hardest thing you will ever have to do, I repeat, but once it's over, it's over.
Fall “It's Halloween.” Wyatt says to me, anger in his voice. “Damn it, Callie. Come on! The kids want you to come with them. Get your shit together and do this for them.” I stare at the wall, ignoring his words. Over the last few weeks his words have gone from softly spoken and sweet, to pleading, to flat out annoyed. Now, he's angry. Still, I don't respond. I have nothing to say to him. I have nothing to say to anyone. I haven't in weeks. “It's bad enough that you wouldn't go with them to get costumes. The least you could do is bring yo
Over the next month I spend my time in my room still except for the times that I leave to go with Finn. I discovered that the nice guy of that night is actually a bored rich kid with a wild streak of rebellion. He does some crazy shit and the times when he takes me along for the ride are the only times I feel alive. It's a week before Thanksgiving and Finn asked if I wanted to hang with him while Harper is at work. So, here we are on a gravel road miles outside of town. Finn is sitting on the hood of his car, smoking a joint, as he always seems to be doing. I'm walking down the road, letting the cold wind bite into my skin. It's a surprisingly cool day and it matches my mood. Today I woke up in pain at the thought of Thanksgiving quickly approaching. My first Thanksgiving without Wilder.
Christmas Eve Eight Months Later “Die Hard is not a Christmas movie!” I shout at the boys but Wilder and Wyatt both laugh. “I think it should count.” Ricky says, teaming up with the guys against me. “Ricky.. It's not too late for me to call Santa and tell him that you've been a horrible kid, not to bring you any gifts.” I tell him with a wink and he laughs, throwing up his hands. The twins laugh at him, teasing him about getting coal.
Three months Later “Come on Mommy!” Val demands and I groan. “Val, don't rush. They literally can not start without us!” I assure her, but she is still dancing around impatiently. “If you do not stand still you are going to mess up your pretty hair. Or even worse.. your dress.” I threaten her and she immediately goes still. There is nothing she takes more seriously than the protection of her flower girl dress and her recently finished hair. “Has the nausea passed?” Wilder asks me gently, rubbing my back in comforting motions.
“Callie!” I hear my name being called and I open my eyes to see a familiar face above me. No, it can't be him. He's dead. Tears rain down my cheeks and I shake my head. “How? You can't-” “I'll explain it all do you. But first, are you okay?” Wilder asks me, pulling me into his arms. His arms are so familiar around me, a loving feeling that I missed so much. With a deep sob I cling to him, crying hysterically. “Callie?” Wyatt rushes down the stairs but stops in his tracks when he sees who's holding me. “Wilder?”
“Adopt them?” I repeat. “I have actually been thinking about this for a while now. I know it sounds crazy, but you have custody of them and they have no other family but you. If, God forbid, something happens to you, they would go to foster care. But if we, you and I, legally adopt them then they are our children. We go on their birth certificates as their parents, my parents will legally become their grandparents. We would be the family that we are but it would be, I don't know, more finalized. If that makes any sense.” “Wyatt.. That's wonderful of you to want this, but it's such a big step.. I know you love them but you would be taking on so much-”
Wyatt drops Grandpa back at the hospital because he doesn't feel like going out to eat with us. Rose and Brian leave to go to get Sara and they take Val and Van with them. Ricky rides with Wyatt so it's just me and Lucy in my car. I drive home to park my car and I have just gotten Lucy out when Wyatt pulls up. He comes to put the baby in her car seat and we leave. “The kids were so cute today.” I comment, to make conversation. The silence was killing me. “I loved hearing the reasons why the love us.” Ricky has headphones on in the back, mumbling along to a song under his breath and Lucy is playing with a toy Ricky handed her, being really good. “Van's reasons for loving people often involved food.” Wyatt gri
Monday morning dawns bright and sunny, looking like a gorgeous day. Val and Van wake up in a wild mood, so excited that they can hardly sit still. They triple check the plan with us, making sure that we will all be there on time. We have to confirm the time with Val six times. As I'm doing her hair, she asks again. “What time are you coming?” “Val, honey. We will be there at eleven.” “You might want to get there a little early.” She tells me, as if my time management skills are so bad that I need a six year old to tell me when to arrive places. “We will get there at ten fifty.” I tell her, putting the bow in
I spend every day by my grandfather's bed and I am there when he opens his eyes four days later. He blinks, looking around confused. “It's okay Grandpa. You're okay!” I tell him, leaning over him to give him a huge hug. “Cal-” His voice is dry and cracky from lack of use, but his words feel stilted. The doctor waned me that he might have to relearn to speak, just as he will have to learn to walk and move correctly. “I love you, Grandpa.” “I- love.. you.” Tears roll down my face. I lean over to kiss his cheek
“Callie.” “Don't ever leave me again.” I sob. “I would stay with you forever, if you'll let me.” He tells me. He sits in the chair, pulling me in his lap. I always love when he holds me like this. I curl into his chest, my hands around his waist. “Callie-” “Let's not say anything.” I tell him softly. Every time we say something, it gets misconstrued or misinterpreted and we use the misunderstanding to push each other away. I don't want that. Not now. I just want him. Like this, I want to be in his arms. I don't want anything to potentially jeopardize that.
He says this, moving closer to me. I have to fight the urge to get up and run away from him. I really don't want to be near him, but I won't back away like a coward. “So much that I could hardly stand it.” I say in a monotone. Actually, I haven't given this slime ball a single thought since my black eye faded and quit being a constant reminder of my stupidity. “Harper cut her hand on broken glass and I have to wait while she gets stitches.” He moves over to me about to sit down beside me. “Unless you want another broken nose, I suggest you stay the fuck away from me.” I sneer at him.