Chapter 7

Micheal and I had been dating for a couple months. Things has been going good. Damien had got the divorce paper, and decided to sign the them.  He hasn't sign yet though. He has been trying to talk me out of going through with it. I haven't told him about Micheal.

I was at Damien's picking up the kids. He was rushing around the apartment trying to get the kids things together. 

"Shunshine, just go one one date with me."

"i will not. I told you I was past all that and besides don't you have some else you need to be worried about. Like signing our papers. Why is you making this so hard? I didn't ask for anything. You can see the kids when you want. I just want this to be done."

"But i just want us. I promise I have changed."

"Damien, I'm seeing someone, and it is serious."

He looked at me like I was lying. I don't wanna hurt him but it was time that he knew the truth. We was over. 

"But baby I still love you. I been waiting on you to come to your senses." 

I could see that his heart was breaking but my mind was mad up. I wanted to be with Micheal.

"Have you had him around my kids?"

"No, but I think it's time that they meet." I was no longer gonna keep Micheal a secret, He was becoming way too important to me. He was the first thing I thought about in the morning and the last voice that I wanted to hear before I go to sleep. My thoughts was consumed with him. I was infatuated with this man. My man. 

I could see the hurt in his eyes. It was time that he realize that it was done. Sign the papers and move on. I knew what I wanted at that moment. He was not about to change my mind. 

"We been through this. You messed up umyour family. For years, I waited on you to see that I was the only woman you need. Don't you got a baby on the way."

"I promise that is not my baby. She just wanted you to leave me. And you giving her what she want."

I just ignored him and called the kids from the back room. This was getting us nowhere. Besides, i was ready to go home and crawl in my bed. I had been running errands all day. I just wanted some peace and quiet. 

"Shunshine! If you do this, I promise I'll never forgive you."

I just stared at him. All the times that I had forgiven him. Now he wanted to make it seem like so was the one in the wrong. I had deal with him, for years, making me feel like I wasn't good enough. I remember crying myself to sleep some nights because he would answer the phone and I got mad.  

"Damien, I don't give a fuck how you feel. How dare you give me an ultimatum. You the one fucked around. I gave you everything. I gave you all of me. Not once, have I ever even thought about messing around on you. Now that I finally move on, you wanna act like some hurt dog. Where was you when you treated me like a dog? You never once cared  when I begged you to love me like I deserve. Yes, I have moved on and yes, he will be around the kids. You can fight this or you can accept it." I picked up my kids bags and walked out his apartment. i was heated. How dare he act like he was the one who got hurt. 

I want asking for nothing in the divorce. I just wanted my freedom and my peace. I would allow him to get the kids whenever. He was a good dad. I just wanted him to get over it. He didn't deserve me. I didn't care how many cards, flowers, or gift he sent to me. It was done. 

On the car ride home, the kids was all quiet. I guess the felt the mood I was in. I stopped and got them pizza for dinner because I was not in the mood to cook. 

When we made it home, I made sure everyone ate and bath. I decided that I needed some time with them. So i called movie night. We watched Remember the Titans and curled up in the big couch together. Time with my babies always made me feel better. I sit there, holding my babygirl, and felt like all was right with the world. 

Once the movie went off, I made sure they was sleep in bed before i called Micheal. I told him about me and my soon to be ex husband argument. He didn't really say nothing but he offered me words of encouragement. What I can say about him is he never said a bad word about Damien. He just listened and gave his honest opinion. 

"Well, I think it's time that you meet the kids." I told him. 

"I was wondering when you was gone let me. How can I love the momma, and never meet the kids."

That was the first time that he had said he loved me. I was shocked. A warm feeling instantly covers my body. I knew at that moment that I was not letting this man go. 

"Aw, baby I love you too. I been wanting to say it but i didn't wanna scare you off." I told him. I was blushing now that the words was finally out there. 

"Bae, nothing could keep me from you. Now that you said those words I am never letting you go. When are you planning on finally letting me meet the kids."

"I don't want the first time you meet then to be at the house. I was thinking about meeting at Incredible Pizza this weekend. Bring your niece." I suggested. 

"It's a date baby."