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30. Guilt Filled Bedroom
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When Regret Isn't Enough 31. The Storm
Good morning, Miss Olivia;I wanted to wake you and thank you in person for being the perfect roommate. But you slept so peacefully that I didn't want to disturb you. I had a wonderful time despite the inconvenient circumstances that brought us together. I want to thank you for all your kindness. It's still freezing, so wrap up warmly when you get ready to leave. Here's my phone number: (010) 213-7880. Give me a call as soon as you can. Please don't think I'm referring to the $200.00. I trust you already, remember. Collin Halston. Take care, and I hope to hear from you soon, maybe over a cup of coffee one day.******Collin reflects on what happened. When awake, he felt cold air fill the room. Daylight found its way through a slant in the drapes at the window. The line of daylight beams on my face caused me to begin to stir awake. "Something else was right on my face," he heard a soft voice say. “Why are you in my bed?” She asked breathlessly.“No...this is my bed,” I responded, no
Last Updated : 2025-01-07When Regret Isn't Enough 32. A Private Storm
Amanza stirred as the temperature dropped even further as the night went on. While still sleeping, she felt chilled to the bone. She had no idea how long she had been sleeping in the cold cabin until she suddenly awakened! Her eyes popped open as she heard a strange roaring sound. She sat up, looking around. Amanza realized there was no Holland. Fear immediately overcame her because she was almost sure she had heard something.Listening carefully, only to be reminded of the blizzard outside, pounding in its fearsome but quiet way. She realizes it isn't anything but the storm itself until you hear the strong stormy gust of powerful winds. But she wondered where did Holland go. ‘Maybe he went to sleep in the bedroom.’But strange noises could be heard, which wasn’t like any sound she had ever experienced. ‘So this is what it's like being in a blizzard!’ Amanza, with rattled nerves, curls back up on the sofa, wrapping her arms tightly around one of the pillows. It gave her a sense of sec
Last Updated : 2025-01-08When Regret Isn't Enough 33. Flames & Blazing Fire
She immediately reached down and embraced him, embracing him as he lay on her front porch in the snow! Half of his body was sprawled out on the porch, and the other half was partially over the door sill. Tears poured out of Amanza's eyes like pools of water as she held herself close to him.The snow and strong winds met her face, pelting it with tiny ice as she came to reality. She quickly rose off of Hand. “Can you get up?”Holland's lifeless attempts to lift his head were the result of him being too weak, so he let it fall back weakly into the pile of snow.“No! No! Please, Holland, you gotta get up! Please try to help me get you inside.”She pushed him upright by his shoulders and back with all her might, asking him, “Can you stand?”He doesn't utter a word; he just struggles to stand up. His face is frozen, his lips pale, shrunken, and chapped. His lashes and eyebrows are covered with hard ice, and his cheeks are red.“Put your arm around my shoulders. Come on, come this way.”She
Last Updated : 2025-01-08When Regret Isn't Enough 34. The Closer I Get To You
Amanza sat there in this unintended place, time, and position, gazing at every inch of him. His intense magnetic pull caused her to vocalize her emotions and attraction to him willingly. Holland's bare flesh drew her closer to lhim as she lean against him and whispers in his ear, "Holland, is it possible that I still love you? What are these feelings?”Only the light from the fireplace shown on his beautiful upper body and gave off an amber glow. He looked so appealing and appetizing. Amanza could not withhold the emotions or tears from falling at the thought that she could have almost lost him. Getting a grip on herself, wiping her tears.She undressed him, wrapping his neck in a dry, warm towel. He was exhausted! Holland had not opened his eyes once since entering the house. Removing her leg from around him, she realized that she had to remove those wet pants."How do I get these wet pants off?" Hesitating and hesitating to touch them.Amanza convinces herself to be brave. 'After a
Last Updated : 2025-01-09When Regret Isn't Enough 35. A Delicious Body
He was lying on his stomach with his head and one arm wrapped over her thighs and the other arm wrapped around her waist and back. His face was under her sweater, pressed against her bare stomach, seeking warmth from her flesh.Realizing this, Amanza feels currents of fire blaze through her body, waking dormant parts and beaming them to life! Unpredictably, she moans lightly. Holland makes no sounds other than light breathing. She looks down at him, unknowingly awakening thoughts of their past times. His hand is now under her cashmere sweater, touching her bare skin again. Amanza breathes in profoundly, trying to contain the ignition in her core. She says, "He's sleeping and has no idea what's happening."A few minutes pass, and she can feel him changing his position again. He was like a child in his mother's lap, trying to find warmth and comfort. He turns on his side, placing his hands securely on both sides of her hips around to her backside.His other arm is positioned around the
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Amanza stood in the doorway, watching him prepare the food. The delicious smell of breakfast filled the cabin. She couldn't wait to taste what he had prepared. He intently watched the food as he stirred and flipped the eggs while calmly telling her what he needed next:“Baby, I need our plates.”Hearing him call her baby initially felt odd and uncomfortable, but Amanza decided to relax and enjoy the moment. It made her think about what their marriage should have felt like. She permitted herself to smile inside whenever he called her baby and promptly responded, “Coming right up!”They sit in front of the fireplace and eat breakfast together, stealing glances at one another. Amanza struggles with all her mixed feelings.“Holland.........either this is tasty, or I'm starving."He slides closer to her, his knees touching hers. With each bite she takes, he smiles. Holland enjoys the movement of her mouth.“I'm never going to be able to finish my food if you are going to stare at me like th
Last Updated : 2025-01-10When Regret Isn't Enough 37. Let's Go Deeper
Holland's arm came around her without any reservations as he held her head to his shoulder, the way a small child is comforted. Holland held her in his arms until her sobs weakened and slowed. The way a thunderstorm fades away on a summer day. Tears, like rain, still fell, but the power of her fears was relieved.Amanza uttered. “I know you have a kind heart, Holland. I’m just sad it took all of this for me to see this side of you again. But I want to thank you for making such a willing sacrifice to help me. All I could think about now was that you didn’t return. It frightens me to death even now. Thank goodness you made it back to me.”Sniffling as the tears drop. Holland takes her in his arms, pulling Amanza closer and hugging her tightly. He softly says in her ear. “I know, I felt the same way. I was so worried about possibly freezing to death all alone. I couldn’t fail you again since I was in our marriage. But I promise you, I'm here now, and we're together.”Holland's hand cares
Last Updated : 2025-01-10When Regret Isn't Enough 38. What You Deserve
“How can you say that? The very reason we are divorced is because you let Susie interfere in our marriage and life. And now she's having your baby. What a month for now! Holland, it sounds like the cycle has been repeated. If you think about it, isn't that how Collin came along?"Holland hung his head."You are right, Holland; apples don’t fall far from the tree. You're exhibit A,” Amanza stated, staring at him.Holland shook his head no, feeling ashamed. For the first time, his eyes were opened in a way that had never been before. He never thought deeply about what had occurred and that his father was equally at fault for demolishing his happy childhood. He felt awful about allowing the same thing to happen again in his marriage to Amanza."Amanza..." He took her hand, holding it tight. Holland was grateful she didn't pull away. "Honestly, I never gave it a thought. I feel so embarrassed that I allowed this to happen again."Holland knew any sane man would want Amanza as their wife, a
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When Regret Isn't Enough 88. Why Collin?
Holland smiled at Amanza this evening, so happy that all that had happened was now behind them. “Baby, you sure are looking good this evening.” He stated, watching Amanza get dressed.Amanza POVI knew he had been standing there the whole time as I slipped my feet into my 5-inch pumps and fixed my pencil skirt and silk blouse before putting on my black fitted coat and matching hat. I smiled as Holland continued to eye me."Wow, you look beautiful, what's the occasion?" Holland's natural reaction was to hug me. But it wasn't just any kind of hug. Instead, I got a big bear hug that lifted me off my feet into his muscular arms."Where are you going? Should I let you go?""Yes...I'm going somewhere very important. I shall return, and then I will be all yours."I barely squeaked out the last few words before Holland set me down, planting a kiss on my lips that I had no time for but couldn't resist. That's when I heard a car horn honk outside. I looked up, shimming myself free from Hollan
When Regret Isn't Enough 87. You Have A Right To Fight
Amanza PovOnce I was home. I let the phone ring for a solid minute. Then, when I got no answer, I immediately sent a text.Holland, I know you will see this text since you refused to answer my calls.But you will ignore it because you think I will understand your care for the weak and naive Susie.Soon, you'll learn that you are mistaken. Amanza Ended the Text.I promised myself I wasn't going to cry. Tears didn't help. They had never helped in the past, and they sure weren't going to help now.Nothing would help but get justice. But, like serrated blades, the memories of what has happened in such a public way. He has sliced into me and tore at me. Had I been so naive that Holland would never return to Susie? And how very wrong I'd been.Weary and broken, I lay in my bed, reflecting on all the pain that has filled my heart."God didn't create fools. Fools are something you let others make of you."I have to free myself from all the games and free myself from all the pain. I'm so tire
When Regret Isn't Enough 86. Shock and Awe
Amanza smiled and said. "Yes, I'm ready even though this day has been like a dream, dad. I don't know how to describe it."Amanza's father smiled and said. "Holland seems to have come to his senses; your mother and I are happy for the both of you."They continue to walk. Amanza felt this overwhelming nervousness and excitement come over her. It was a good thing her father held her arm tightly. Amanza didn't know Holland would go this far to prove his devotion and love for her. It wasn't expected. It just keeps getting better and better.All eyes were on her again. "Dad, thank you for everything you've done for me. I love you and mom dearly. I'm so happy you got to be a part of my wedding this time."Her father smiled back and said. "We're always here for you. I will always be with you like I am today. Ready to support you if you need me to. But I'm confident Holland will take good care of you. Look, we both are getting emotional."Amanza's father opened the door. He stepped out first
When Regret Isn't Enough 85. Secrets
Secret desires are those things we deny ourselves, perhaps because we think it’s not something we should do because, in some kind of way, we feel it’s wrong. Or possibly bad because it just feels so good. Or could we feel it’s someone we didn't think we should be with because of their background or lifestyle? Olivia tried to abstain because she knew that once she had gone all the way, she would never find her way back. She shook her head. ‘Deja kept secrets from me, too, and she hasn’t told me out of her mouth that she wants to get back with her ex-husband, Holland. So why shouldn’t I keep a little secret of my own.’She was thrilled about her new life with Collin. But she grappled over how she was going to control her needs. Olivia realizes how much she desires this man in every way.‘I guess I will focus on the celebration of this wedding, where it all will come out at the ceremony. I would never do anything to take away from my best friend's happiness. So, I will continue to work
When Regret Isn't Enough 84. Inexplicably Married"
"I see you are still a little uptight. Relax, we didn't sin." She nodded rather than trusting herself to agree or speak because she was unprepared to interact with this good-looking flesh and blood of a man she assumed she had sex with and for sure he was her husband.Olivia sat down at the table across from him. "Tell me what you remember? Don't leave out anything."She said in a remarkably calm voice, breathtakingly beautiful even first thing in the morning. 'I knew I made a good choice.' He mutters."Okay, promise me you will remain calm like this?"He took her small hand, his thumb caressing the soft flesh over her knuckles. As he lowered his head, his lips replaced his thumb."Now, if you don't remain calm, dear, I’m not going to tell you anything, you got that?" She could feel him tighten his grip the instant he touched her, attempting to extract her fingers. His head came up slowly."Take a sip of your coffee first." Those sable eyes met and captured his pair of dark brown
When Regret Isn't Enough 83. Disturbing Pull Of Desire
Olivia's eyes popped open, startled out of a deep sleep, hearing her blaring alarm clock go off, blasting the words! "If you liked it, you shoulda put a ring on it!" It was Beyonce's song screaming in his ear. She closes her eyes and turns off the pink and black alarm clock on the night table beside the bed. But that’s when a body next to hers begins to stir. Collin opens his eyes, disturbed by the blaring alarm. He looked around the unfamiliar room as the song loudly repeated itself. He grabs his chest and lets out a deep sigh of relief once the music stops.Collin turns his head, and instead of seeing the other side of his empty bed. He sees a head full of long hair. With a soft pink sheet wrapped around her body. Collin thought he must be dreaming as he asked himself, "Is this the mother of my babies?" He quietly lifts her hair from her face. He lets out another sigh of relief once he sees it's Olivia. Collin goes to wipe the pebbles of sweat from his face and notices a wedding
When Regret Isn't Enough 82. Ready To Share His Love
"Yes, give me one second to pull up this song on my playlist." She stood there smiling, looking up at how handsome he was under the moonlight while listening to the water caress the shore. A song she never heard before came on; Collin took her around the waist and settled his hand at the small of her back as they began to sway slowly and softly to beat to the song called "Paris in the Rain."He sang the song in her ear as they were moving in sync with the beat. His lips caressed the tender parts of her earlobe, and his voice melted her body, leaving it like whipped butter. Closing her eyes, it felt as if she was floating away; it felt like a dream that she didn't ever want to end. Collin continues to sing, placing his lips ever closer to her ear singing, fondling her earlobe with his lips and making her soft release moans of ecstasy. The love sounds she made were more exhilarating than the thrills of fans screaming his name. He wanted to call out her name over and over. When he gaze
When Regret Isn't Enough 81. Be My Lady
Olivia honestly felt no pressure, just happiness, being and talking with Collin. She sat here tonight with him at candlelight dinner. There were sides of him that she simply loved. His cute, talkative way about him. And then there was this other side of him, this masculine, sultry, sexy young man sitting here with her, possessing a magnetic force that was making it difficult for her to resist him sexually.Even though, reluctantly, she was helping Holland have a surprise wedding for Deja, her best friend. She had her own decision she needed to make in regard to her and Collin. Since they spent time together, it was almost as if he could tell over time that she was surrendering without verbally saying it. Their conversation with him last night was quite intriguing."Yes, you know I'm not a traditional guy, nor am I average, so why live an average, ordinary life? Why waste time dating while at the same time being committed to only one person? That sounds like marriage to me. So why can'
When Regret Isn't Enough 80. The Invitation
Holland rolled over onto his back. "You mean we should get married again?" He chuckled. "Why baby, we are legally already husband and wife.""Yes, I know, but honestly, did you mean those vows when you said them to me?"The stress came over his face. His mind was in the thralls of making love for the first time in three years to his deliciously sexy wife, and now he's being stopped dead in his tracks! And he's a little bit shaken at her suggestion."You just said you would do anything to prove that you love me, and if you are sincere, I want to start over Holland. The first time was sudden, and it was a sham on your part. This time ,I want us to be seriously committed to one another and for everyone to know.""Is this everyone, meaning Susie Hubbard?""Especially her, Holland. You talked to her tonight and didn't mention anything to me. Other than what you thought I wanted to hear."He glanced at me. By the way, I held a frowning gaze with a healthy dose of curiosity and mistrust. Hol
