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22. Confessions & Regrets
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In preparation for the storm, I was told it's already stocked with food."She met his gaze. "My first name is Deja. Amanza is my middle name.""Okay, can I still call you Amanza?""Yes. Sure."Then Holland walked ahead of her through the cottage and tried to turn on the lights, “I have some bad news." He chuckled, flicking the switch on and off."What is it?" Amanza clenched her hands, listening to all the strange sounds forming outside as the weather increasingly worsened."I know I'm a little tipsy, but I think we are fresh out of electricity.""Call the front desk and ask when the lights will return. Holland, if this place doesn't have electricity now, will they continue to have water?""Don't panic. I'll call the front desk."When he hung up the phone, he said, "Well, we are fresh out of electricity, and they only have cold water right now. It's understandable. Listen to that wind howl out there.""Oh, I hate this!" she said, rolling her eyes frustratedly. The frustration came fr
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Collin has the skills to make her slowly surrender. His gentleness broke through every barrier Olivia erected. The night he was experiencing was going more smoothly than expected. Fireworks were going off in the depths of his soul. He hates to admit it, but it happened when he first saw Olivia. But an inkling of guilt begins to surf within him. Collin tells himself it’s only natural to be attracted to someone attractive. Collin looks directly into Olivia's eyes, feeling genuinely taken by her. He says softly, “Besides, Deja would want me to show her friend a good time.” He tells himself this to ease his conscience.“You look deep in thought. Have we gone too far?”Collin let out the most genuine laugh, his head falling back at the directness he loved. “I see you have good perception.”She eased her leg free from his hold. “I should have known you were already spoken for. I don’t believe in taking another woman’s man. I’m not that kind of girl.”His heart tried to calm after her words
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Olivia completely unraveled all her inhibitions from the inside out. His words made her assume he had to be talking about them having this drink together, or was he? But somehow, it felt more personal than just a nightcap.Collin then gave out these seductive and tantalizing instructions step by step."When you're ready, first take in the color, then inhale the smell, now part those sweet lips, and let the warm liquid slip inside and slide down your throat."Collin orders hers in a nonabrasive tone. It is challenging and sexy, something no woman can commit to. Olivia obeys, parting her lips. She lifts her glass, admiring its rich red color, swirls it under the dim lights, and handshakes the rich aroma."Mmm...It looks potent...I. I can't.""It can make you feel again, baby. Breathe it in, taste it, and let it blow your mind. Let it take you far, far away. It'll make you feel alright. You gotta crave it and taste it. Let me give you what you need; I can give you what you need; take my
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"The hotel is about five blocks away, and looking at how congested the traffic is, I suggest we walk there?"He was right;—the traffic hadn't budged. The cars were in complete gridlock! They decided to walk to the hotel to escape the traffic and the cold. Olivia looked down at her red bottom pumps and began walking. She wrapped her coat tight around her body. Collin embraced her as they braved the frigid cold of snowy New York.When she entered the hotel door where she was staying, a long line had developed from the front desk clear to the hotel entrance. There were dozens of people, all frustrated, all tired, and all stranded.Collin got in a line that was barely moving. Olivia didn’t want to seem forward, nor had she considered spending the night with this man. Though it was very tempting, he was a friend of her best friend and brother-in-law. It all felt strange, in her opinion. Thank goodness the line started moving; Collin hoped to get a room for the night. Finally, it was his tu
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Holland stretched, turning over to hug his lady, but his bed was empty; "Amanza, baby, are you here?" No answer.She was gone. Holland wallowed in sadness because there was no one to give a sweet morning kiss to. He got up and wasted no time getting dressed. "She couldn't have gone far maybe I can find and catch her." But he couldn’t find her, not even a trace.He came back to the empty cabin, closing the door behind him, as he sat on the edge of the sofa. Holland groaned quietly. He just stared into space for a long moment. Disapproval filled his gaze as he slid his hands into the pockets of his dark slacks. "It wasn't cool for her to run away before we could discuss things." Holland’s deep voice filled with pronounced hurt. Well, it’s time to go home. Maybe it was best, I have a lot to get together back home. But I can't believe the very thing I didn't want to happen, it happened anyway." He thought smiling, it gave him a measure of hope.*******Manhattan:Susie felt her blood boi
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Collin felt exhausted as he stood there, not believing he was in this situation with Deja's friend, the woman he adores. “Look, I need to take a seat.”After taking his wallet from his back pocket and keys from his front pocket, he decided to get as comfortable as he could for the moment. Collin finally dropped his long frame to the chair by the bed, so weary he could no longer stand. He shoved his fingers through his hair, and with sleepy-lidded eyes, his silky hair fell toward his face. He looked pretty disturbingly sexy. “I need sleep more than anything else right now.”He propped one and then the other sockless foot on the mattress. He settled back, lightly linking his hands together low on his flat abs. Then he let out a long, shuddering sigh. She stared at more than five feet, almost six feet of raw power and testosterone, in disbelief. She stared more at him, but he didn't appear to care. "Thanks, I appreciate this, Olivia." "Oh, you're not sleeping yet?" With a deep breat
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Olivia smiled, feeling her emotions swirl inside her. He seemed very, very nice. She tried to convince herself he was a pleasant man and that it was nice to meet a new person. 'I've talked to him, and he doesn't seem like a creep. Deja introduced him as her friend. He must be a respectable guy. ' Olivia began to feel guilty about having the king-size bed for herself. "Should I share this massive bed with him? No...well..." she thought, her guilt making her feel terrible. A few minutes later, he went into the bathroom to freshen up. She saw him pulling the two chairs together and stretching out. She pulled the bed covers up to her chest and pondered for about five minutes what to do as he tried to get comfortable in the two narrow chairs.“Collin.” Olivia softly called his name, sounding unsure of herself. “Yes.” He said quietly with his eyes closed as he was lying on his side on the chair. “I feel guilty about you sleeping on those hard chairs.” “Don't worry, I'll be fine.” Oliv
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When Regret Isn't Enough 88. Why Collin?
Holland smiled at Amanza this evening, so happy that all that had happened was now behind them. “Baby, you sure are looking good this evening.” He stated, watching Amanza get dressed.Amanza POVI knew he had been standing there the whole time as I slipped my feet into my 5-inch pumps and fixed my pencil skirt and silk blouse before putting on my black fitted coat and matching hat. I smiled as Holland continued to eye me."Wow, you look beautiful, what's the occasion?" Holland's natural reaction was to hug me. But it wasn't just any kind of hug. Instead, I got a big bear hug that lifted me off my feet into his muscular arms."Where are you going? Should I let you go?""Yes...I'm going somewhere very important. I shall return, and then I will be all yours."I barely squeaked out the last few words before Holland set me down, planting a kiss on my lips that I had no time for but couldn't resist. That's when I heard a car horn honk outside. I looked up, shimming myself free from Holland
When Regret Isn't Enough 87. You Have A Right To Fight
Amanza PovOnce I was home. I let the phone ring for a solid minute. Then, when I got no answer, I immediately sent a text.Holland, I know you will see this text since you refused to answer my calls.But you will ignore it because you think I will understand your care for the weak and naive Susie.Soon, you'll learn that you are mistaken. Amanza Ended the Text.I promised myself I wasn't going to cry. Tears didn't help. They had never helped in the past, and they sure weren't going to help now.Nothing would help but get justice. But, like serrated blades, the memories of what has happened in such a public way. He has sliced into me and tore at me. Had I been so naive that Holland would never return to Susie? And how very wrong I'd been.Weary and broken, I lay in my bed, reflecting on all the pain that has filled my heart."God didn't create fools. Fools are something you let others make of you."I have to free myself from all the games and free myself from all the pain. I'm so tired
When Regret Isn't Enough 86. Shock and Awe
Amanza smiled and said. "Yes, I'm ready even though this day has been like a dream, dad. I don't know how to describe it."Amanza's father smiled and said. "Holland seems to have come to his senses; your mother and I are happy for the both of you."They continue to walk. Amanza felt this overwhelming nervousness and excitement come over her. It was a good thing her father held her arm tightly. Amanza didn't know Holland would go this far to prove his devotion and love for her. It wasn't expected. It just keeps getting better and better.All eyes were on her again. "Dad, thank you for everything you've done for me. I love you and mom dearly. I'm so happy you got to be a part of my wedding this time."Her father smiled back and said. "We're always here for you. I will always be with you like I am today. Ready to support you if you need me to. But I'm confident Holland will take good care of you. Look, we both are getting emotional."Amanza's father opened the door. He stepped out first a
