"UKININANA kitdi ti kastoy nga biag, makauma!" I exclaimed in jest, causing me to roll my eyes.The Serene and Loud Restobar was bustling with activity as I made my way through the crowd. The restaurant was situated beside the pristine waters of Moalboal, and the sound of the waves mingled with the chatter of the patrons. I greeted the regulars with a smile and a wave, knowing most of them by name after a decade of working there."Who is it now?" I asked April as she followed my steps. "Bakit kailangan pa ako roon?" We are walking our way to the VIP floor to attend to some guests. Inayos ko ang neck tie kong kulay asul."It's Sir Almerino," Avril replied, and my heart skipped a beat."S-sinong Almerino?" I stuttered. "Si Koko?" "Not Koko, but Jacques Almerino," Avril clarified, her voice tinged with excitement. "Kanina pa nakapag-out si Koko."My mind raced as I tried to process the news. Sandali akong natigilan ngunit hindi ako nagpahalata kay Avril. Kinalma ko ang aking sarili. Ja
Warning: This story contains mature scenes, explicit sexual content, and sensitive topics that are not suitable for young readers. Reader discretion is advised.CHAPTER 1"SARDINGAN nak man, Janus. Kaaabot ko lang sa 'yo ng pera noong isang araw. Umayos ka!" ("Stop it, Janus. I just gave you money the other day. Get your act together!") Nangagalaiti ako sa bunso kong kapatid habang ka-videocall ko siya sa kabilang linya. Humihingi ng 5,000 pesos gayong kabibigay ko lang ng allowance niya. Katatapos lang ng capping and pinning ceremony nila na dinaluhan ko noong Biyernes. He is now a student nurse at SLU-La Union."Sige na, Manang. Kulang din 'yong ipinadala ni Tatang noong nakaraan." Alam kong naglalambing lang siya base sa tono ng boses niya ngunit ayaw kong sinasanay siya ng ganoon. Kada hingi, bigay agad. Mamumulubi talaga kami dahil sa kursong kinuha niya at sa private university pa talaga nag-aaral!"Haanak agtaktakki ti kuwarta, sinalbag ka nga talaga nga ubing!" Galit kong sa
Chapter 2"Mukha lang siyang bata pero bente-uno na 'yan, mga kuya. Papasukin n'yo na kami, please?"We had arrived in front of The Euphoria. Nagmamakaawa si Melvina sa harap ng dalawang bouncer habang tinutulungan ako ni Olivia na hanapin ang ID sa backpack ko. Hinarang ako dahil mukha raw akong menor-de-edad. And I needed to show them my ID to prove that I was of legal drinking age to enter the nightclub.Pero kasalanan ko rin. Paano ba naman kasi? Naka-denim shorts lang ako at vintage jacket, then I paired it with sneakers. Parang mamalengke lang ako sa suot ko. Wala naman kasi akong ideya na hahatakin na naman nila ako after our graveyard shift.I don't get it. What's wrong with these people? Just because I have a youthful face doesn't mean I'm not an adult. Being small can make me feel and look even younger, which can be both nice and annoying at the same time. I'm already mistaken for someone younger than my actual age, and being petite only adds to that.Agh! Nakakainis maging
Chapter 3"Ma-nang, ag-agriing kan. Na-bangsit tu ta ang-saw mon."Instead of being irritated, I smiled as my brother strongly shook my arm and told me to wake up. He is mimicking how I always wake him up; I tell him that if he doesn't get out of bed, his breath will stink.My eyes were still closed, and I could feel him lying next to me. His lips pressed against my arm. Every morning, he kisses my arm. "M-morning, ma-nang." His words are soft, causing him to mumble on every letter, but I understand what he's saying because we've been together since birth.When Josue was four years old, he was diagnosed with Angelman syndrome. Kinukonsidera ang sakit niya bilang ‘syndromic’ form ng autism spectrum disorder. All these years, he has attended speech therapy and received cognitive-behavioral therapy. Kaya medyo nagagawa niyang makipag-usap at makihalubilo sa amin. At the age of 10, doon pa lang siya natutong maglakad mag-isa. I can understand the hardships and exhaustion that my parents
Chapter 4"Kahit nasa 21st century na tayo, uso pa rin pala ang arranged marriage. Does that mean you don't love each other and were forced to marry by both of your mothers?"Hindi ko napigilang itanong noong itinutupi ko na ang mga towel na ginamit ko sa pagma-massage. Curious kasi ako.Kasasabi lang kasi niya kanina na magpapakasal pa rin sila dahil utos ng mga mommy nila. Kawawa naman silang dalawa kung mapipilitan silang magsama dahil lang sa family tradition. And they both have two months to enjoy the freedom of being single, though they both agreed to keep their freedom even if they are married. Sa papel lang daw sila kasal.Medyo TMI, pero hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko. Kanina disappointed ako, ngayon medyo magaan na ang pakiramdam ko.Natigilan sa pagtatali ng roba si Miss Faith at sinulyapan ako. Ngumiti siya ng mapait at wala siyang imik na lumabas ng kuwarto. Mas lalo tuloy akong naging curious.Ibinalik ko ang lahat ng massage oils and creams sa backpack ko, at inila
Chapter 5"Kapag nakita ko ang Mac na 'yon, makakatikim siya sa'kin ng salita. Pasalamat siya't hindi ko naabutan."Tita's irritated voice woke me up the next morning. I could have slept a little longer, but the sound of my brother's retching roused me from my slumber.I found him in the bathroom, throwing up repeatedly. I approached him and scolded him, "Ano ang napala mo sa sobrang pag-inom kagabi?" I ran my fingers through my slightly curly hair as I reprimanded him.While my brother continued to vomit, Tita comforted him by rubbing his back.Tumingala siya sa akin, matapos punasan ni Tita ang bibig niya. "S-akit u-lo, sa-kit tiyan ko, ma-nang," sabi niya sa kaawa-awang tinig. Bahagya pa siyang nakalabi, and his gentle face showed signs of discomfort."Ikukuha kita ng tubig," sabi ko. Tumayo ako. Napasinghap ako dahil bumangga ako sa matigas na bagay, pagkaatras ko.The man with the alluring charm has come! He was wearing his executive suit and holding a glass of water by his side.
Chapter 6"Bakit nagpalit ka ng suot? Umuwi ba kayo?" tanong ko para mapagtakpan ang pagkakahuli niya sa pagtitig ko sa kanya. Bahagya niyang ipinilig ang ulo habang sinisimulan niyang imaniobra ang kanyang marangyang sasakyan. "The pet store dog peed on me from head to toe. Nasa taas siya ng estante kaya hindi ko napansin."Hindi ko napigilan ang sarili kong humalaklak, pati si Josue ay nakigaya rin sa paraan ng pagtawa ko. "Hindi nga?" Natatawa at hindi makapaniwala kong tanong."I'm speaking the truth. Fortunately, the owner had some extra new clothes that he gave me."Kinagat ko ang pang-itaas kong labi at tumingin sa labas ng bintana para pigilan ang sarili ko sa muling pagtawa. Baka kasi mainis siya sa 'kin. "Don't hold back your laughter. Mauutot ka, babaho rito," sabi niya na ikinagikgik kong muli. Sa pagtawa ko'y hinampas ko ng ilang ulit ang braso niya. Kagat-kagat naman niya ang inner cheeks niya habang nakatuon ang pansin niya sa dinadaanan namin. "I'm driving, Alyn. S
Chapter 7"Mmm."I hummed and place the glass on the counter. My right hand caressed his cheek, while the other was entwined in his hair; my heart continued to pound, my toes curled, and I felt sparks in my stomach.Halu-halo ang nararamdaman ko, nakalalasing ang banayad na paghalik niya sa labi ko. His kisses were so soft yet sensual, gentle yet powerful, that I craved more of his flavor. Ramdam ko ang pag-iinit naming dalawa ngunit nagpapasalamat akong hanggang sa bewang ko lang ang mga kamay niya. I could tell he was holding back from touching me more.Manigurado ka muna bago ka magpahalik. Hindi ka puwedeng basta na lang nagpapadampi ng labi sa lalaking committed! Nagsusumigaw ang sermon ng utak ko, kaso hindi ako nakinig.I tried to sneak a peek, and his eyes were closed, and it struck me how lovely he was. He looked so calm and content while kissing me.I tiptoed more and wrapped my arms around his neck and felt his soft tongue probe my mouth. I felt like my body was melting,
I am so grateful that you've reached this point. Thank you so much. May we all realize, especially the young generation, that anchoring yourself into positivity and self-growth is never selfish.Epilogue "How about you, Jacq? Naniniwala ka ba sa 'love at first sight'?" tanong ni Maximus habang inaabot sa akin ang isang shot ng Jack Daniels.I am doing my thesis in my study room, and here they are, invading my privacy. But it is fine with me; bihira na lang kaming magkita. They are all studying in Cebu; I am here in Manila.I scoffed. "That's bullshit." Nag-pass ako sa alak. Seryoso ako sa pagtatype ng conclusion sa laptop na nasa harap ko."Sinasabi mo lang 'yan, pero baka kapag tinamaan ka, wala ka nang kawala," Maximus said as he passed the glass shot to Miles, my half-Irish friend."I also don't believe it; crush at first sight, puwede pa," si Leon."Who believes in that? We belong to the new generation now; more girls, more fun!" Miles, who's beside me, takes a look at what I'm
Chapter 47This is the final chapter. Thank you for being with me on the journey with my babies. Please also support me in my next series! Abangan ang epilogue!"You look nervous, baby." Jacques tilted his head while gently holding my hands. "Come here." Hinila niya ako upang kumandong sa kanya."I am..." Yumuko at pinaglaruan ang engagement ring na nasa daliri ko. Isinuot ko iyon kanina pagkatapos kong maligo. Jacques also touched my ring. I could hear his breathing in my ear, and it tickled me."I promise you everything will be okay, hmm?"I pouted, trying to push back the fear that was threatening to overwhelm me. "I'm nervous. I don't know what to expect.""I'm here for you, sasamahan kita hanggang sa loob."We just arrived at the airport and boarded our special flight to Manila to visit my mother. Hindi ko maiwasang makaramdam ng pagkabalisa."What if I trigger her emotions? Baka kung ano na naman ang sabihin niya sa akin Jacques..." Tiningnan ko ang kanang kamay kong magaling na
Chapter 46"I love you, too, Jacques. Nagsinungaling ako noong sinabi kong hindi na kita mahal. Ang totoo, mahal na mahal pa rin kita nadaig lang ako ng galit noong makita ulit kita," I sniffed, and he held my hand gently. "I'm sorry if I push you away. I wasn't there for you; I'm really sorry."I still couldn't stop myself from crying while my breath came in ragged gasps. Parang pinipiga ng paulit-ulit ang puso ko.Jacques tenderly held me close and soothed my back. "I'm doing great now, baby. It was a lot to take in, but I healed myself for you; I healed myself because I want to be strong for you."I sniffled as I drew away from the hug. Jacques stared at me intently as he wiped the tears from my eyes. "I love you so much, Jacques," halos pabulong kong sabi."I know, and I love you too," he replied, placing a kiss on my forehead. "I'm so grateful to be back with you now."Jacques' touch was gentle and soothing, a balm to our wounded hearts. His words were like a magic wand, soothing
Chapter 45Nanginginig ang kaliwang kamay ko nang pulutin ko sa sahig ang nahulog kong mobile phone. The words from Leon bring a thud to my heart. Hindi pa iyon agad rumihistro sa utak ko."This can't be. You are lying," halos pabulong kong sabi sa kanya. "I'm telling you the truth. Jacques was kidnapped when your family was killed. Dalawang taon siyang pinaghahahanap ng mga tauhan nina Auntie Thylane. She never announced it to the media because it would jeopardize all of their businesses."Napaupo ako sa sofa sa sobrang panghihina. Niyakap ko ang dilaw na throw pillow, umaasang makaaamot ako roon ng suporta.Umiling ako ng maraming beses. No! This can't be, nagbibiro lang si Leon! Jacques was healthy when I saw him. Pumayat lang siya ngunit maayos pa rin naman ang anyo niya."He was so thin when Clytius and Deukalíōn finally found him tightly tied up in a dessert building somewhere in Santander, Cebu. Halos hindi na siya makilala dahil mukha siyang pinaglaruan ng mga taong kumuha sa
Chapter 44Kinakabahan ako habang paupo kami sa right-side balcony. I saw many familiar faces while we were entering the concert hall a while ago. Almost all of the royalties from all over the world attended."Sis, umayos ka nga!" Nala pinched my side.Ngumuso ako. Hindi ko siya sinagot bagkus luminga ako sa paligid namin. Wala naman akong nakikitang bantay ni Jacques. May isa akong napansin kanina, pero hindi niya ako nakilala dahil nakasalamin na itim at may balabal pa ang aking ulo."Parang hindi ka pa sanay manood ng concert niya, e halos siya nga ang pinupuntahan mo tuwing dumadaong ang barko sa mga concert events niya," dagdag pa niya. She then held me the binoculars. Medyo malayo kasi ang puwesto namin. "Baka nga mahuli ako," sagot ko."Bakit ba kasi ayaw mo pang magpakita? Ilang taon na rin, ah?""Wala lang. I'm still enjoying watching him from a distance." Sumilip ako sa binoculars. "Sus! Ang sabihin mo, na-enjoy mo na ang pagiging single. Mukhang ayos ka na kahit hindi ka
Chapter 43"Nag-usap na kayo?" Lucas whispered at me as we fell in line to board the cruise ship. Malayo sa amin si Jacques, nasa pinakadulo siyang pila. Sinadya yatang magpahuli."Hindi," maikli kong tugon. Marami nang passengers at napaaga ang balik nila kaya nakapila na rin sila para mag check-in. Some were so loud that I even put on my airpods to not hear them. Naintindihan naman agad ni Lucas na ayaw ko ng kausap, kaya tinigilan niya ako.I fight the urge to look back again and search for him.Nang matapos ay dumiretso agad ako sa cabin. I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and take a bath. Natulog ako pagkatapos na matuyo ang aking buhok. Pang-gabi ako ngayon, kaya gigising ako mamayang hapon.When it was time, I got up and took a shower. As usual, ay marami nang customer noong magclock-in ako. As soon as I entered the restaurant, I immediately stepped back into the mode of working under excessive pressure. I love mingling with passengers and serving them.It's never a dull
"Ukininana kitdi ti kastoy nga biag, makauma!"Umirap ako sa hangin habang sinusundan ko si Avril, ang waitress namin paakyat ng VIP floor kung nasaan ang sinasabi niyang mga bisita. Habang naglalakad kami ay nadadaanan namin ang ilan sa aming mga patron dito sa Serene & Loud Restobar.Binabati nila ako, at kumakaway naman ako na nakangiti. Sa halos mahabang panahon na pagtatrabaho rito ay kilala na ako ng halos lahat ng mga customers."Sino ba iyon? Bakit ako pinatatawag?" tanong ko sa kanya."Si Sir Almerino," maikli niyang sagot. Lumingon siya sa akin at bakas sa ngiti niya ang panunudyo."S-sinong Almerino. Si Koko?" nauutal kong tanong. Biglang sinakmal ng kaba ang dibdib ko.Nagningning ang mga mata niya at sinabing, "Bakit naman mapupunta si Koko sa VIP Room, e, nag-out na siya kanina pa?""Sino nga?!" Nagsisimula nang uminit ang ulo ko. Ang daming hanash nitong babaeng 'to, hindi pa sabihin kung sino. Natataranta na ako sa loob-loob ko."Si, Sir Jacques!" Napahawak pa ang dala
Chapter 41Tinupad nga niya ang mga binitiwan niyang salita kanina. He didn't come near me, but he visited and dined in our restaurant around 7 a.m.Halos matulala ako sa kaguwapuhan niya nang makita ko siyang prenteng naka-dekuwatro sa labas ng restaurant. Doon daw niya mas piniling kumain ayon sa waiter na nag-assist sa kanya.Simpleng puting t-shirt at itim na boardshorts ang suot niya ngunit bakit ganoon? His hair was slicked back, which made him more striking. His neatly shaven beard gave him an impeccable look as well. Idagdag mo pa ang shades niyang itim, you could mistake him for a celebrity.A coffee was in front of him while he was typing on his laptop. A turkey patty, a sunny side-up egg, and one slice of Spanish tortilla were on his plate. Tutok na tutok ang pansin niya sa laptop, hindi namamalayang halos lahat ng kababaihan ay nakatitig na sa kanya."Baka matunaw, sis," Nala said, giving me a teasing look.Inirapan ko siya. Pumasok akong muli sa kusina. Sumunod siya haban
Chapter 40"Nala naman! Hindi mo man lang tiningnan! Inubos na ang alak, o!"I can hear Tina's voice in the background as I lay my face on the table. Umiikot na kasi ang mundo at paningin ko. Mabilis akong tinamaan ng rum na ininom ko. Naramdaman ko ang pagyugyog niya sa akin. Itinaas ko lang ang kanang kamay ko."Are you okay?" She asked, gently cupping my face and making me face her.Nakapikit ako, pero tumango ako. "I'm okay," I mumbled.Narinig ko ang isang tunog ngunit hindi ko alam kung sino ang hinampas ng kung sino. "Ikaw kasi! Nakatutok lang siguro kay Sir Almerino ang mga mata mo!" si Tina.I couldn't stop myself from curving my brow."Wait! You know him?" Nala asked excitedly. "Ipakilala mo ako dali! Kanina pa siya tumitingin dito sa gawi namin! Feeling ko, na-love at first sight sa akin..."Nagmulat ako ng mga mata. Inaninag ang kanilang mga mukha. Nakita kong hinampas ni Tina si Nala sa braso, hawak pa rin niya ako sa kaliwa niyang kamay. "Puro ka pogi kaya walang nagses