Chapter 10: I can’t

After admitting his feelings for me, he drove me home like he used to. The only difference for now is we became silent because of what happened. I don’t feel awkward after admitting his feelings to me. It’s just that I can’t process everything for now because of the problems I had which I need to solve first before I settle down.

I wanted to tell him everything about my problems so he could understand my side, but I couldn’t give my full trust to him. We barely know each other, but the feelings and bond we have are somewhat deeper. Still, it’s not enough for me to share everything. It’s too early for that and I’m still enjoying our memories, his presence.

I know it’s kinda unfair to his side that I didn’t even say something after he said those words. I feel like there’s some energy trying to stop me from talking, for reacting aside from I’m having a hard time processing his feelings. I don’t know. It’s unusual, but I’m happy that he loves me, the way he treats me, the way he does everything just to make me happy.

“It’s my day off tomorrow,” I said, breaking the silence between us. I couldn’t stand the silence, so I tried to start a conversation with him so he would not overthink about his confession.

“Mmm-hmm,” he said, nodding his head while his eyes were on the road. “Then I’ll be off tomorrow too.”

My eyes widened in shock and turned my head at his side to look at him, chilling while driving, “What? Why?”

“It’s your day off and I can’t fetch you or drive you home if we don’t have the same day off. I can’t let that happen, so I change my day off so I can still do my duty as your mate,” he simply replied, which made my heart pound.

“You don’t have to. Besides, I know how to drive a car and—” He cut me off, so I had to close my mouth and listen to him.

“I know, but I need to do my duty. I need to make sure that you’re okay, so I’ll stop worrying,” he reasoned. I let out a deep sigh when I realized that I couldn’t win against him because he’s always bossy when it comes to my safety. Although I understand that a werewolf must make sure that his mate is safe, it’s not required. It’s just that my mate is kinda protective, especially since our status differs from the other wolves with all their eyes on us. They are just waiting for the right time to attack us, just to bring us down so I understand him.

“All right, fine,” I surrendered, which made him laugh heartily. I don’t even know now if he just loves having debates with me when it comes to this kind of situation to make me shut up and follow what he said, or if he’s just trying to make me realize that I’m wrong. Still, he’s enjoying it whenever I surrender.

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“Your Highness Celeste, I apologize for interrupting your rest, but a werewolf named Sebastian Lyall Volkov visited you and he’s now in the living room. He informed me that you are his mate, and he’s—” My eyes widened and immediately sat on my bed.

Good thing that my brain is awake and I’m still trying to remove the laziness of my body by just closing my eyes for a minute, but hearing that my mate is here at my residence? It shocked the h-ll out of me! How come he visited me without sending me a notice?

“Tell him to wait for a minute because I’ll be taking my ritual now in the bathroom,” I commanded before leaving my butler in my room and proceeding to the bathroom.

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A few moments later, I’m now facing my mate, Lyall, who is now sitting on the couch with his feet crossed. He’s wearing a simple long-sleeved white polo and simple black pants but still, he looks formal wearing those. I raised my eyebrow at him and said, “What brings you here?”

“I miss you, so I’m here,” he replied. “I’m thinking if we could date today, but looking at how beautiful you are today, I changed my mind. I’m afraid that some creature will dare to snatch you from me.”

I rolled my eyes at what I just heard. He’s being possessive again, which I can’t understand why. He’s my mate and if you are mated or finally able to find your mate, then there’s no reason for you to find another creature. So I don’t get why he’s thinking about that. I don’t even think that I’m beautiful enough to be snatched.

“Oh shut up, Lyall. I know what you are thinking right now,” I said, which made him smirk, as if he already knew what he was planning to do.

“Can I?” he teased. My skin became hot while my heart started to pound faster, just like what I had experienced before that night when I met him on the seashore. But even when I get excited, I maintain my expression before I stand up.

We can’t do that in the living room, so I told my butler that they shouldn’t let some creature enter my room since Lyall and I were going to talk about something private. Good thing he didn’t question us, but I know that he already has an idea about it. Lyall, on the other hand, became silent while following me until we entered my room.

“We’re just going to make—” He cut me off by locking the door and sealing his lips against mine. I even lost my balance, but thankfully, he immediately wrapped his arms around my waist. We started kissing, creating a rhythm, so I wrapped my arms around his neck to pull him closer and play with his hair, using my fingers.

He bites my lower lip, which indicates that he wants me to open my lips, to give him access to exploration, so I did. His kiss became so intense that my mind started to be preoccupied because of how good he was. His hands traveled down to my butt and, slightly massaging it, caused me to make a soft noise.

“So that is you k-nk, huh?” he whispered between our kisses until I felt him slap my butt. I accidentally bit his lower lip because of that, but it gives me more pleasure. I can even feel myself between my thighs and if he didn’t stop, I might lose my mind and do the ritual with him.

He sat at the edge of my bed and guided me to sit on his lap while both of my legs were on his sides, causing our private p-rts to cling together, which made me more sensitive. He slowly guided my hips to rub on his and I can even feel how hard he is, which excites me more.

While grinding on his top, his kiss began to go down on my neck and started s-cking it and biting it for a little. His breath became fast, just like mine until an uncontrollable noise came out in my mouth that caused him to lose his control. His hands entered my dress and found my mounds, but to my surprise, he pinched my n-pples.

“You’re getting excited? I can feel that you are soaking w-et down there,” he whispered. I swallowed and thought of a plan to stop it. I can’t for now. Once we complete the ritual, I don’t think that I’ll be able to hide my problems from him.