She hailed out of her room running like a girl being raced by woofing dogs, for it was at night, one that had that gentle cool breeze as if it was a spring season.
Well it was the third month of the year, winter was beginning to knock on the skins of souls, and she never liked winter, just as more homo sapiens do.
She came out of that room of hers bursting into tears, emotionally wrecked down, torn apart, her crying was conflicting with the breeze that was there at that moment as it was becoming stronger than it had began.
She sat down on one of the nice big rounded set of rocks outside the house, a bit far from the house because it was a huge yard, she took a glance at nature, questioned, queried and inspected her mind endlessly about what had occurred.
She didn’t identify what to do next, she felt so bare, sudden emptiness it was, she felt so unaided, as if she was the only creature breathing out air in this planet.
She knelt down on that ground, lifting up her hands above the heavens helplessly, vulnerable, thinking of why it had happened, feeling like everything that had occurred was her accountability, but she sometimes upturned that thought.
Her feelings were contending with her mind, she really had no clue on what to take note to.
She was so young, a teenager that was aged 16, swotting in one of the very best schools of her country, a school that was built in town, homestead that was built in town, her church was built in town too, her life orbited in town all her life.
She was a pretty girl, no! Beautiful, faultless complexion, perfect height for her and an excessive body.
As she was settled there, folding herself in the cool gentle breeze, bucketing out the salty waters out of her eyes, a flashback came through.
She saw him through her imagination, vulnerably sick, walking at a slow pace, very slow pace, going through her house,it was more like a vision, doing everything helplessly,had no get-up-and-go at all.
He hardly spoke because of bad health, but the smile was there, even though he couldn’t normally smile but it was natural and unalloyed, it was all out of love, pure love!
It was a man that she met once or twice a year for one or two weeks all her life since she was 4 years old, and that was before she went to her pre-school which was also in town.
She felt like it was a hallucination, a nightmare that was always sticked and glued in her mind, one which she will never be unable to call to mind.
She cried louder than before as soon as that flashback went away, she just couldn’t believe it was happening at all.
She never even had much strength to do anything, I mean she had to attend church in that week, she really loved church,and God such that she never missed Sunday services, but this situation made her think twice about going to meet God.
Not because she was lazy but you know that time when you going through a hard time and everybody knows about it, they always try to comfort you and pitiness is something she never liked because she would just have an emotional breakdown publicly.
A phone is one thing she never had, she wanted it so bad, the only thing she ever wanted in that moment was to call her big brother and tell him of what had just befell in that hell of an hour, and unfortunately it wasn’t possible.
It was completely not a brother from another mother or father, they were not relatives nor cousins.
It was a guy whom she leaned on daily basis, on situations that she found hard to face alone.
No one could understand their relationship, it was too complex for them to explain what they had together, the only people who understood what they had together was them, they knew what they had.
It was real, she told herself she was going to call him next day. She hardly slumbered that night, actually she never did, and she cried herself to sleep.
She was the most responsive girl ever, she cried when felt like doing it, she never premeditated to drop out those tears, it just transpired, she had the most tears ever too.
Her father’s funeral originated, her father being the man that appeared on that flashback she had on that night.
She couldn’t stand even at the front as she as she was supposed to do so, because of her emotional breakdown.
She didn't want to watch the coffin going down because she knew she wouldn't handle herself, especially with everyone pitying them as his children. That part always destroys one you know…
There are things that never wiped out in her memory, like, how she responded the day her father came in her home, honestly speaking she was rude to him, she was never happy, she got annoyed, actually in all the days her father spent in her home.
The last picture she had was when she was nursing him when he couldn't even move his feet because of pain, and how he passed away lying on his sickbed.
It hurt her so bad because she had never experienced such before, she was starting to enjoy her father’s presence unlike before but unfortunately she began enjoying it late… If only she knew. 😉
Sometimes she felt like her father deserted her when she was only a toddler, reason being she felt so alone although she had a great life.
She had this huge regret that if only she had tried her very best to take care her of her dad, but it was too late.
There are words that were sometimes vocalized by her father every morning when she left for school.
He always told her to study very hard so that she can thrive in life, those words rang like a bell in her mind.
She always remembered them like yesterday, they kept her going.
Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks and months went by. She had to move on, she really had, and she got tired of staying with negativity and misery.
School was the only thing that kept her happy, meeting friends who were just crazy naturally and being around her peers who loved her so much.
The time she turned 16, sweet sixteen so she said, was the most amazing feeling she had ever had all her life.
She felt so good about herself, she felt new, alive, and beyond all of that, she felt so mature, she felt that was the time when she could differentiate between right and wrong.
That’s when she felt like she can make her very own decisions, she felt like that was her time to live to the fullest, it was just a normal feeling.
Living to the fullest never meant going "wild" like anyone would reckon, for her it meant "BEING HAPPY AT ALL TIMES".
Candice loved herself more than anything, she loved her face, legs, skin and everything that she had, including her flat ass. She had an admirable body which people loved, in addition she was’nt tall or short, her height was just perfect for a slender girl but not very much. She had low self-esteem but had no idea on that one, she didn’t have much confidence in front of a crowd but she could speak and be heard, but as she continued to grow. her self-confidence did too, probably it was boosted by her talkative friends who always had airtime that never ran out.😂 She was a lazy cat, not that she woke up and did nothing for the whole day, she cl
He had told her that they were going to meet in his house this time, his mom’s house, she was the happiest girl ever when she heard those news. A thought came over her, she had never ever stayed with a guy in one house, one room alone, all alone, she asked, wondered how the atmosphere was going to be, what was going to happen, and if intimacy was going to take place, what was she going to do? What if she does it and she gets pregnant? She decided to switch off all those feelings because she was in town, didn’t want to be disrupted by such a thing, she didn’t want to get an accident knowing it was because of love and temptation thoughts, it would be lunatic in a way. It was a daylight dream when she saw h
Her boyfriend had given her a phone which she was supposed to hide, that phone brought pain in her life. It ought to be on silence all day and night, hide it where no one could see it, received calls in private and after hours, it wasn’t nice at all really. They used to chat at night, with her man, it was really exciting for her. Especially to know that he still bothered about her even after what had happened, so by that, she had the mentality that it was true love. Her mother summoned her in the evening of the day after the incident had occurred in her bedroom, she felt so bad, and she was wearing a short skirt so she wondered if her mother was going to see that she had been a bad girl.
She took her secret, private smart, latest phone, and started calling him again and again but he never bothered answering her calls, that brought misery in her life as she hardly ate and watched soapies as usual. She left countless messages in his phone but he never bothered in responding to them. The thought of her being dumped by the guy broke her down and down, she never imagined her life without him, it was built around his, she just could not stay single, not now not ever😪! Finally! Her period came😄, although it came late but the point to her was that it came along. 🤗This was the best news she had ever heard, and dreamt of after so much time.
She got surprised by the guy, questioned herself by the heart, ‘What makes a rural boy know how to give such!” I mean really now? 😇She posted this statement in her mind that... “This guy can kiss”! She told him at that moment that she had had the very best kiss ever, and the guy commented about her lips, which made her a bit more lunatic. Since time flies, they both had to go to their homes since they were both kids, she never wanted to, she wanted everything they had to last forever, she hardly slept, they kept on texting each other till eyes went sore. She couldn’t wait to meet up with him on the following day, and they did. Days went by and on
Yes they had had the royal occasion on the other night, and she became honest with herself that she wanted that to happen again but not in that place. She never wanted to act as this desperate girl, having to do anything and everything just because her man had given it the green light. Her escape from that was the time, she just stopped everything and looked at the time from the watch, and then she knew she had to tell him she had to leave, he never gave her a hard time though, which was good in Candy's eyes. They hugged, goodbyed each other with a long tight cuddle which made them want to seat down again, held hands and walked through the hill of thousand rocks which was more like a park of the place.
It was 4 days left before school, never had much to prepare, so spent most of her time reading her school books, refreshing with music, reading novels and jogging in the evenings, she never forgot about her man, they communicated daily, never got exhausted of each other. She promised him and herself that she was never going to cheat on him, honestly speaking he never gave her the reason to cheat. He gave her everything she needed which was “LOVE”, by that, she felt really complete although she had lived with many Adonis’s around her all her life, that never bothered her even a little bit. Her man, her happiness, her love life made things so great for her, she was hardly stressed unlike before, she let every challenge g
She wanted to leave, have her own independence and be the girl that she wanted to be. She could hardly sleep, she had a feeling she hadn’t made it, a class was not going to be cool, she even thought of suicide if the wheel could turn left. But again she thought that act would be stupidly dome! She was an expert in giving hope to the hopeless so that’s why she saw it like that. She couldn’t even think of the embarrassment feeling she could have in the school, I mean she was pretty and lovable and famous. She was known as the girl whom white or coloured guys had a soft spot for, known as the Chinese ex-girlfriend who had gotten dumped because
Everybody sighed with silence for some minutes."Wow! Wow! Wow! Candice...i'm so happy for you, just hold on to the guy and don't sh*t him or else i will kill you with my bare hands". They all laughed.😃 It was just beautiful.They had left her at around lunch time, she was now all alone with the smiles in her face. She was a fan of Kevin Hart so she decided to watch the "Wedding Ringer". He was her main favourite actor actually. She heard a knock on the door,she let it repeat itself again. She didn't want disturbance but then her phone rang and guess what? It was bae😋. She couldn't be happier
"Started from the bottom now we here"! That was Candice."Ohhh man!!! When last did i hear this song"?they all sang it" Started from the bottom now we here"!!"And soon and very soon we'll be having our mansions and fancy cars, what we've always dreamt of, have credit cards of every shop and shop like crazy, bring the shops down with money such that whenever we get slightly spotted, the shops would just set everyone aside and let us occupy the whole shop".😂😂😂😂😂Milicent laughed till she coughed hard..."And then we get to hit Suncit
She went to her bedroom and tried to pick up the best outfit for herself, but at least she knew what she was looking for, a dress. She didn't have much of them compared to the jeans and pants. As soon as her eyes came across an old dress, she knew it was the one, surely it was and guess what? It was a yellow dress, one that made her days bright back in the days, it was the colour of life and happiness. It brought her smile back in her face since she remembered how much she loved it."Guys!🙈 how do i look"? They all turned at once.'AHHHHHHHH! WOW!WOOOOW😋! That's i
Time fled and exams were being jointed gown on papers, for the both of them. They would sometimes meet in town on an rush hour and wouldn't talk to too much to one another up until they met on the last day of their exams, not really on their last day for the both of them but on the last day of Candice."Hey! Uhhhm may i talk to you please...uhhhm i know we aren't on good talking terms right now because of my behaviour of ignoring you, listen Candice, i love you, nobody else, yes we are meant to fight, misunderstand and fight with one another but that doesn't mean we don't love another, it makes us more stronger. I had no choice but totally, completely dedicate myself on this course, i can't take a fall, you needed it also, you needed the space and i know it'
That's when he geared up the car and headed to the home of the hotels, she thought of telling him to turn the wheels but she couldn't, maybe because she loved food or something or to be spotted with a fancy and expensive guy, she didn't even know why she forced herself so much to go because all she could think about was Maxwell, thinking how torn apart he would be if he were to find out about what was happening in his absence. They got there "Sun Express Hotel",he rushed to open the door for her, it was for the first time, that shocked this lady because it had never happened before, what was different now! He held her handbag and headed to the reception where they ordered a simple breakfast and then decid
"Uhhm...not really, i mean yes i am going to town but not now, uhhm i am currently waiting for someone,so yeah thank you very much".She took a deep breathe because she knew that was a lie,a pure lie! Unfortunately for her, the guy knew she was lying. He really wanted to spend some time with her,just to talk, so he was willing to try to push till his last breathe,just to at least let her get into the car,what was even worse was that Candice was a hard nut to crack and he knew it."Candice,Candice...i know you okay,you seem to be forgetting that, i know you ftom letters A_Z okay"?
"Am just kidding babe...wanted your attention that's all. thing is we love one another right? This relationship has been going on for a while and it's been over a year now, i was thinking what could go wrong if we were to find a home church,where we can grow spiritually and a place where we can have meetings with God. God exists babe, he's there, you recognize the things that are lately happening in this world, in our country, our city, its exactly what God said will happen in His last book. We are now living in a world where a girl can fall deeply in love with another girl, where men kiss other men, where old men sleep with teens, who are more like daughters to them, and its about to go worse you know".
"Listen babe...listen...since today we are all about honesty...I have a confession to make, don't cry or be furious with me because I believe that it's all your fault, but that's not the reason why i raised this up. "Thing is i met this guy whom i went to high school with, when we met we did lots of catching up over a cup of coffee, after that we often met and we became friends again, we got so close that i ended up catching up feelings for him unexpectedly,it just happened babe...thing is he...no i can't go on". "Am waiting...say whatever you want to say".
Well...her boyfriend wanted to get this things for her, thing is he wasn’t wealthy, he was still educating himself for the best qualification that could ever exist,just that he had just began with the tuition." Oh my God! what do i do? how do i take control of this matter because it's a very big matter, it might not be right now but it will be in the end of time...it can be fun yes,very fun to do shoppings with him and be seen walking around with a celeb of the whole Southern Africa, Wait! or maybe a celeb for the whole continent". She laughed at herself whilst sitting in the lounge preparing supper for her boyfriend, but then no man!!!