I couldn't move. I just sat there, crying endlessly. Inabutan ako ng tubig ni Rosie. She looked at me worriedly.I knew how ruthless he was, but not to the extent of hurting me physically. He never did this to me. Not even once. I pity myself for dragging myself into this mess. All for a fucking revenge."Just get rest," I told her. She helped me stand up. "I'm fine, Rosie.""Mamaya na lang po, Ma'am. Gusto ko po kayong samahan.""Rosie. Please, don't make this hard for me. Matulog ka na," sabi ko sa kanya.It took her a while before she nodded.I couldn't sleep well that night. I even woke up at 10 in the morning. Mabilis lang akong nag-ayos. Nanghihina pa rin ako sa nangyari kahapon. Pagkababa ko ay nagulat na lamang ako nang makita si Zachariel sa kusina, like he was waiting for me.I ignored him the usual like he wasn't around. Narinig ko siyang tumikhim."Vell, can we talk?" I heard him asked. Napansin ko na may nakahanda ng pagkain sa mesa. Fried rice, hotdog and egg were served
What went wrong? Was it when he made me feel he was never mine? Was it when I got pregnant? Or was it when he denied my baby's existence? Everything I've mentioned all put me in this situation.It was already lunch when I woke up. I feel better now than I was earlier. To my surprise, Zachariel was still on the corner of the couch with his phone."You're awake," he said, looking at me."Yeah."Pinilit kong tumayo. Nagulat pa ako nang inalalayan niya ako. Gusto ko Mang itulak ko siya ay pinigil ko na lamang ang sarili."Do you feel better now?"I nodded."Okay. I'll go now since you're okay.""You should've gone home.""Not when you're not okay."I rolled my eyes. "Whatever.""Can you please at least be kind to me? I'm trying, Vell. I'm trying to make this right..." He breathed.I scoffed. "Can't believe you really have the nerve to say that, Zachariel.""Vell...""Umuwi ka na lang, please. Your mere presence gives me a headache."He sighed. "Fine. Just let me know if you need anything
Love isn't always going to make you change. Sometimes it's for the better, or for worse. The series of the unfortunate events that happened to me were because I fell in love. My young heart couldn't take the fact that I won't be loved the same way I wanted to be. I blamed it to Zachariel and even Samantha. This led me to realize that everything happened because it was my choice. That I shouldn't blame anyone. I had my own choices, but I chose the worst ones.I went back home after witnessing the two love birds. I smiled bitterly. All along, I thought Zachariel was starting to care for me and my baby—that he really meant what he said and what he acted to me.I couldn't help the tears to flow. Mabilis kong pinunasan ang aking luha.Ibinagsak ko ang sarili ko sa kama dahil pakiramdam ko ay sobrang pagod ako. I closed my eyes, but I couldn't sleep.I stared blankly at the ceiling. Hindi ko na nga napansin kung ilang oras na ba ako akong nakatitig dito. Naramdaman kong may papasok sa kwart
He couldn't speak as he was staring at me. He was holding his cheek. I was sure that must hurt him. I hurriedly went upstairs. Mabuti na lang ay hindi na siya sumunod sa akin.The frantic beat of my heart never left me. I sat down, and calmed myself.I drifted myself to sleep because of how tired I was.The next day, I saw Zachariel was in the dining area. I thought he already left."Vell." I heard him call me. It's another day of trying to ignore his presence."Vell, can we please talk about this maturely?"I almost laughed at what he said. Mature? Out of all the people, he really had the guts to say it to me. "Are you hearing yourself, Zachariel?""I'm the father of your baby. I'm your husband. Get that in your head."Hindi ko pa rin siya pinansin. Nagtimpla ako ng gatas. Ramdam kong nagmamasid lang siya sa akin.Pagod ako ngayon. Parang tuwing nag-uusap kami ni Zachariel kinukuha niya lahat ng lakas ko.I walked and I could hear his strides following me. Sinundan niya ako hanggang
Nothing was going on my mind right now. I felt like my heart broke into pieces seeing the sight of my blood dripping down my legs. Halos hindi ko kayanin ang pananakit ng tiyan. Para akong unti-unting pinapatay. But I was keeping up for my child. Para akong tinatanggalan ng balat sa sakit!Nanginginig ang mga kamay ko na halos ikabaliw ko ang sakit."Please, huwag kang bumitaw," umiiyak kong sambit habang tinitiis ang sakit.Samantha called on someone to help me. I was rushed inside the hospital. I begged God to keep my Valentine safe. Please. I never prayed earnestly like this. I was crying hard as I was lying on the hospital bed. The doctor told me to calm down because I was still freaking out. The next thing I knew, the doctor gave me medicine to drink. I couldn'tspeak at all. I didn't have any energy left in my body.Hindi ko na alam ang mga susunod na nangyari.I woke up feeling empty. Napahaplos ako sa tiyan ko. My doctor was looking at me with that grim in his face. I knew so
I received a call that night, that Zachariel was in an accident. His father was telling me that he was driving after work, then the crash happened. We were in the hospital, outside of the operating room. His father's hands were clasped together. While I, and Manang Sally stayed still as we were sitting. I closed my eyes. Zachariel might have been cruel but nobody deserves to die that way. Oo, gusto ko siyang masaktan pero hindi sa ganitong paraan. Kahit na malamig ang ospital ay ramdam ko ang butil ng pawis ko. Tito Samuel was calling someone. I also got a call from my father saying he's going to be here. "Magiging maayos din ang kalagayan ni Zachariel," Manang Sally broke the silence, trying to assure me. Things might not be okay for us, but Zachariel doesn't deserve this. I hope so. Ngumiti ako sa kanya. "Sana nga po."She also smiled at me and warmed my heart. Manang Sally knew all the dilemmas I've been through. From my younger years, until now that I'm on my age where I st
Sa buhay palaging nasa huli ang pagsisisi. Kahit gusto nating ibalik ang nakaraan na sana hindi na natin ginawa ang isang bagay ay sasampalin tayo ng realidad na hindi na ito puwedeng maibalik. At ang tanging maiisip na lang natin ay ang pagsisisi. Kaya nang napatingin ako sa hawak ko ay gusto kong sumigaw sa inis, lungkot at pagsisisi. I couldn't imagine I would be experiencing something I dreaded all my life.Ang pregnant test na hawak ko ay may dalawang guhit. Looking at it now was a bomb that was killing my system. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Kaya hinawakan ko nang mahigpit ang hawak at pilit na ikinalma ang sarili. Parang gusto ko na lang maglaho na parang bula.Kinuha ko ang bag ko sa gilid saka lumabas ng banyo namin. I framed my face using both of my hands. I sighed heavily then went straight outside. Kailangan kong kausapin si Zach tungkol dito.Dumiretso ako sa office niya at mabilis naman akong nakapasok dahil kilala ako ng secretary niya."What are you doing here?
I went home drenched from the rain. Manang Sally was looking at me drilling so many questions when she went to me."Ano nangyari? Saan ka galing?""Diyan lang po. Yaya, paki-timpla po ako ng gatas. Thank you," sabi ko na lamang. Mabilis akong umakyat sa kwarto ko para maligo.I quickly took a bath, and changed my usual PJ. I was drying my hair when Manang Sally was handing me a glass of milk. She placed it on my table."Salamat po."Tumango siya sa akin. "Ayos ka lang ba, hija?""Opo. Don't worry." I faked a smile before I saw her leaving inside my room.Huminga ako nang malalim at pilit na ipinakalma ang sarili. I don't know what to do next. Pero isa lang ang sigurado ako, gusto kong maghiganti. Zachariel don't deserve happiness.The memory a while ago was too painful to remember, but it served me as an inspiration to continue with my plan.A week has passed, and I continued with my life as if nothing happened. Mabuti at hindi pa nakakauwi ang aking magulang mula sa kani kanilang bus