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CHAPTER 43-I STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR YOU
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2024-10-29 19:42:56I turned to see Christopher standing by the door with a shocked expression on his face. I could feel my head spinning as I disengaged my hands from Joseph.
"Chris.", I could not complete my words as he made his way out of the kitchen.
My heartbeat as I bit my fingertips regretting why I had to be in such close contact with Joseph. I feel so stupid for the gradual feeling I was developing for him, and how it might end up turning into a nightmare. A nightmare for both of us.
" Is he your brother? And why is he freaking out? We haven't done anything bad, have we?", Joseph stated moving close to my almost disfigured self."Can you at least think sometimes? We were in close contact a few inches away from each other. What do you expect him to do or think?" I asked, almost feeling pissed off"Oh! I only wanted to clean the floor on your head", he replied, causing me to raise my brows at how great he was able to pull off his lie.I mo
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